– “Casualty of Loss”
I woke to find my name erased from stone,
A casualty of loss, dismissed, alone.
The photographs still hang but look away,
Their eyes recede like tides at end of day.
The room remembers more than I recall,
Its silent witnesses outnumber all.
I trace the dust where once your coffee steamed,
The warmth has left, but still the mug is dreamed.
We built our days like castles out of sand,
Pretending tide could bargain with our hand.
The sea arrived as if on quiet feet,
And swallowed every claim we called complete.
Now meaning limps, a soldier from the war,
Unsure what any sacrifice was for.
My thoughts grow teeth and circle in the night,
They gnaw the ribs that sheltered once-delight.
I pace the narrow hallway of my mind,
Each door is locked by something left behind.
The mirror will not answer when I speak,
It only shows an echo, gray and weak.
I lost you once, but then I lost my way,
As if your leaving emptied out the day.
The clocks still move, but time has gone askew,
It limps in circles, always back to you.
I bargain with my ghosts for one reprieve,
They only nod and whisper, “Let it grieve.”
The world outside still riots into bloom,
Yet each bright petal mocks this inner gloom.
I walk through crowds, a stranger in my skin,
A vacant house with broken floors within.
The mind replays the moment things were torn,
A film that will not stop or be re-scorn.
Self-doubt sits down and pours another drink,
It toasts the story where I always sink.
I tell myself the fault is all my own,
And crown my shame with thorns I’ve overgrown.
But somewhere in this maze a window waits,
A crack of sky that wider light creates.
I hear a distant song, a stranger’s tune,
It braids with wind and wanders past the moon.
The melody remembers what I’ve lost,
Yet hints that nothing loved is ever tossed.
I open up a vein of honest tears,
And wash the rust from long-neglected years.
The heart, though bruised, still trembles when it hears,
That love outlives our damage and our fears.
I stand amid the ruins, breathing slow,
A casualty of loss, but not of hope below.
The scar will outline where the wound once bled,
A quiet map from brokenness to bread.
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DCG
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