Just a Mad and Bitter Chant


So you’re angry at the world

A passive-aggressive rant

Condemning those around you

Just a mad and bitter chant

Ironically you claim to follow the Buddha

Clearly you know not what he was about

Your moral turpitude alone

Leaves me with no questionable doubt

The rage you give this power to

Will consume any goodness within

The sooner you put this behind you

The sooner you can again begin

Before you lecture others

Resolve the issue from within your own heart

If instead you cling to this venture

You will slowly tear yourself apart

DCG

The Quicksand of the Soul


Attachment

The quicksand of the soul

Siddhartha mustered this insight

So many, many years ago

How do I know?

How do I relate?

Do I make this up?

Do I confabulate?

How many paths?

How many ways?

We can seduce ourselves

Clinging to this fantasy gaze

Fear not my compatriots

The wisdom comes from age

Tempered in the forge of reality

Allow the mind to disengage

….

DCG

The Specters in Observance


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deceptions of an arrested understanding

a soul in unrest
attached in the mire on this journey’s quest
I beg for release
from bondage that won’t cease
a mind that must heal
somebody help me
I’m falling, can’t seem to deal
I don’t want to think, don’t want to feel
the questions I keep asking
the answers must I fight
the forsaken rules taunt me
a claim that proves itself right
awaken the passion
align this plight
amuse these memories
settle the voices
I cannot escape in the night

The Observance of Specters and the Specters within our Observations

As a child I learned to pay close attention to the ways I was treated by others.  As I grew older and reached other stages in my maturation, I continued to learn about the effects of our behaviors and searched for a guiding philosophy.  Indeed I am still learning life’s lessons and think there is no finish line in developing oneself, rather, there is a fluent continuous process that evolves us.  As far as I can surmise, I was a normal kid, but I somehow developed sensitivities that continue to operate within me to this day.

I have often been told that “I think too much”, “I care too much”, or “I worry too much”.  It is like having a Super-ego on steroids.  I can’t recount the times I have stalled from taking action on something I wanted to pursue because I did not want to fail at it, or quite possibly the reason could have been due to the fact that I was shy in my boyhood.  My honest assessment is that I was probably too fearful of doing something wrong, and that the judgement of others weighed heavily over my consideration in some social settings.  I equate this scenario as possessing a naive perspective, and without having many resources to turn to other than my own thoughts, I did not feel like I could turn to anyone for advisement, that I was shy, and that I possessed an injured self-esteem.

Knowing this about myself, I must have been susceptible to receiving an ethos for that platonic theme of finding the best possible life when I think of my desire to know about why we treat others the ways in which we do.  I can visualize the platonic dialogs that circle my head as I think of them

  • The Republic & Crito (Justice)
  • Phaedrus & Symposium (Love)
  • Gorgias (Rhetoric)
  • Euthydemus & Protagoras (Sophistry)
  • Lysis (Friendship)
  • Meno & Protagoras (Virtue)
  • Philebus & Theaetetus (Knowledge & Pleasure)

I will never truly know why this ethical prerogative has been infused in my psyche.  I first pursued psychology as a way to understand the questions that seemed to always plague me.  I then naturally studied philosophy and opened my mind up for further discoveries about the human condition.

As time continues to place us in situations, and as we fare through these experiences one after another, we form opinions about ourselves and the world.  These judgements and beliefs from these experiences are often compartmentalized and stored within our memories.  Sometimes we are aware of them, and sometimes they are stored within deeper realms of thought that we are not so aware of.  The possibility for these sub-conscious ideas and beliefs emerging and expressing themselves within our personalities and behaviors without a deeper understanding of them seems to be a logical assumption.

As my surveillance of the world has a tendency to incontrovertibly find the grievous elements in human behavior; the insipid parts of our existence that penetrate my discerning eye, I more often than I would like to admit, regret this disposition.

I reach out to a world and find an ocean of misguided anguish-ridden souls, and a desert (scarcely populated) of visionaries.  My surveyance is preoccupied and tends to place my attention on elements that do not please the ethical aesthetic.  I spot them with uncanny ability that seems to haunt me like a curse.  But despite these observations, there remains a path for the traveler to choose how one would like to travel.  Learn to detach and separate one from a life you are not in favor of is the course of action.  Build the skills to look beyond the crass, and beyond the foul spirited such as they will always be a part of our world.  Look to the path that is hardest to travel, yet rewarding to traverse.  Fortunately one can train oneself, and can appreciate all the positive attributes that keep the spirit uplifted and resist the skeptical and rescind the nay-saying antagonists.

The fact that there is a mass misunderstanding of an ethical life in our world should not stain our souls with disgust.  The soul often tires from a constant barrage of ill-founded exhibitions in its passage through the world.  So too can the soul thrive on a healthier dynamic that can uplift oneself and others if it remains in a befitting disposition.  Again the Specters in our observances must be brought out into the open and extinguished to allow for a better perception for us to see the possibilities in our world.

Thought for the Day


“Live Purposefully, not for the consequences”
“Do what your heart tells you – life is not about being better than somebody”
“True Nobility is being-better then you used to be”!
“Cultivate your own garden”!

Enthusiasm: Enthios (GRK) (The God Within)
Be Authentic / Enthusiastic
We Produce Results:
Judgments we decide if it is success or failure on results
What do I do with these results?
Inner Directed – – Welcome the unknown

GOOD MORNING “GOD”
OR
GOOD GOD “MORNING”

There have been times in my life when I have felt that things were not quite going the way I had anticipated. That is to say, my expectations were different from the results that I had encountered. Errors in my judgment, in my interpretation, my perception, along with the plethora of unknown attributes this world can manifest were all agents that sometimes disrupt your expected outcomes. Some we can control, and some we cannot.
My thoughts goes back to times in my life when I remember those occasions of making a conscious decision to break away from my primary impulse. I remember having experiences when I have been disappointed, and without really letting these events completely affect me in a negative way, I consciously did not allow myself from letting it get me down, and made a leap of faith, “willing” myself into a different mind set.
I do not know where this inspiration came from, but I am indebted to the universe for allowing me to make this connection. Freeing up unneeded emotional angst, and re-directing that energy into a positive imperative was a skill that I have not utilized enough in my life. It’s funny how we don’t make these “connections” from time to time in our lives. It’s funny how we seem to befriend the worst aspects of our human frailties when we cope with such events. We sometimes have a difficult time in dealing with such matters closest to the heart. Be it that our cognitions are diffused with our emotional endeavors, we often get lost in the muck of our soul’s desires.
I believe we can learn this skill, and that we can employ it in our lives to create a better existence.
I guess that’s why I have an affinity with Buddhism. A paradigm that has always attracted me in relation to their doctrines of “attachment”.

“According to the Buddhist point of view, non-attachment is exactly the opposite of separation. You need two things in order to have attachment: the thing you’re attaching to, and the person who’s attaching. In non-attachment, on the other hand, there’s unity. There’s unity because there’s nothing to attach to. If you have unified with the whole universe, there’s nothing outside of you, so the notion of attachment becomes absurd. Who will attach to what?”

Because we think we have intrinsic existence within our skin, and what’s outside our skin is “everything else,” that we go through life grabbing for one thing after another to make us feel safe, or to make us happy.

The Buddha taught that this craving grows from ignorance of the self. Because we see ourselves as something separate from everything else, we go through life grabbing one thing after another to ease our stress. We attach not only to physical things, but also to ideas and opinions about ourselves and the world around us. But physical things can be lost, and we get frustrated when the world doesn’t conform to our ideas and opinions.

What’s interesting to me is that experienced a level of happiness from the result of making those decisions to enter into a newer “experiential frontier”, one that took me out of my current disconcerting situation, and enter another with far better realizations. The phenomena of this transition was the process of detaching from the external and connecting to the internal source for my bearings; my true compass.