It’s a bitter pill to swallow

It’s a bitter pill to swallow

My Johari window is open for me to see

A glimpse of my reality

What are the chances I will change how I’ll be?

It’s hard to perceive your self correctly

In the shadow of your own ego

The defenses we erect to protect us

Are hidden deep and will seldom ever show

Personal objectivity is a utopian concept

Yet it is still a celebrated goal

It takes great effort and great discipline

For us to master the soul

The commoner or the sage

All have fortuitous opportunities

Align with what you value

Align with no disunities

Authenticity carries heavy weight

How we act is subject to review

To improve upon your character

Is clearly something we should pursue

DCG

Self-Reflection

Self-Reflection

The razors edge

To better myself

I’ve made this pledge

The search to improve myself

On the lessons of my life lived

Can benefit me

On the perspective that it gives

Yet I’m chasing a ghost

When I dwell on the past

I no longer serve myself

As the cost is vast

You heal from wounds

Not by attaching to the grief

Reliving a memory over and over again

There is no relief

One must move forward

I must create a new me

Build upon a new foundation

On how I intend to be

DCG

However you Calculate

What is sloth?

What is feckless?

Not Wei Wu Wei

As only this idea is not reckless

Knowing a behavior is wrong

Yet you still ignore it and do

Does not cancel the idea

That you know is true

Maybe it is the fear

That prevents you from proper action

Maybe it is habit

That spurs on this protraction

However you calculate

However you sum

You’ll probably not change

Until you’ve begun

DCG

A Fish out of Water

A fish out of water

I only want to belong

Ever since the childhood playground

I’ve sung this song

Introduced into the schools

You eventually swim along

Slowly learning to mingle within

From what you get wrong

With every age

We can learn and grow

Still a need to belong

Into what we forego

But there may come a time

When our values will exceed

These fundamental drives

This fundamental need

When looking back in reflection

Upon the skills I have acquired

I appreciate self reliance more

Than that need to belong that was once desired

DCG

 

In the eyes of the Ignorant

Many truths and many lies

Are likely to be told

In the eyes of the ignorant

They are unlikely to behold

The filters of our attention

One may often dismiss

As a moment will present itself

That one may surely miss

Think not of our ability

When we lie down to sleep

As the body rests

The mind will often reap

The many opportunities

That we have to sus out

In the eyes of the ignorant

How many are cast about?

There will come a time

That one must decide

How will we go forward?

In which direction will we stride?

If they are present

If they can learn

In the eyes of the ignorant

Only then will they discern

DCG

 

Best to Look Forward

Sometimes you have to hit bottom

Before you can rise up again

Placing the lens of humility

Over a life in the fast lane

You can observe the world around you

You can learn from people you know

You can learn by proxy

Or you can keep the status quo

The doors to opportunity

Are all around to find

Best to look forward

Rather than staring at the closed door behind

DCG

Without any Purpose

Without any purpose

Without family, children, and a wife

Without God

There is no meaning in my life

There is no substitute

For these things that I say

J.P. Sartre, Soren Kierkegaard, and Albert Camus

All have yet to persuade me as I will not stray

The older I get

The more I see

To humble myself

Under the bodhi tree

A vessel must be empty

Before it can be filled

Broken down and beguiled

Now ready to rebuild

Solomon was a pragmatist

His wisdom was renowned

His rulings were just

His rulings would astound

This is not an existential rant

This is not a misplaced soliloquy

This is just a story

This is just my testimony

DCG

For this is our Civic Responsibility

I strive to see good in others

Yet I sometimes don’t see it in me

Why I fail to recognize this

Is why it comes so naturally

Despite my flaws

I must seek to balance continuity

Do not sell myself short

Focus on the positive and then refine myself with scrutiny

Listen to the feedback

Surrender to humility

Growth comes with patience

Understand the vulnerability

Be honorable and give oneself grace

Do not become your own liability

Learn it, embrace it, master it, teach it

For this is our civic responsibility

DCG

 

The Ameliorist

So you haven’t had it so easy

For yourself you had to fend

How do I get over my feelings of abandonment?

As a child I had to pretend

Sometimes it takes a lifetime

For you to work things out

If you never take any action

HD Thoreau’s quiet desperation

May surely come about

The ameliorist must make decisions

An ever changing environment we face

How do we improve our situation?

How do we stop running in place?

The path to reach any piece of mind

The thinkers must make amends with the past

Those who feel deeply must forgive any trauma

And mediate the iconoclast

DCG

Careful the mind does not Daunt

It takes motivation, will, and determination

And to want it really bad

But to manifest a goal in sight

You must develop the behaviors you once thought you had

As dedication and discipline

Comes with a price

Don’t rest on your laurels

Make the sacrifice

It will not come easy

You must persevere

Navigate any resistance

Keep the mind clear

Illuminate the purpose

The heart wants what it wants

You cannot serve two masters

Careful the mind does not daunt

DCG