Asking questions that never fade


Deeply troubled child

Asking questions that never fade

Never fully brought out into the light

The kind of suffering that remains in the shade

Some children don’t feel love

Less than their sibling with needs

Some parents don’t know how to show

Some parents never know how to lead

Unresolved issues

Channeling trauma from the past

Interwoven into the present

Never knowing the root of the tears that they cast

Sometimes the child

Will grow into the man

But the inner child remains

Often playing hide and seek or catch me if you can

The age of the body

Does not mirror the age of the mind

Some experiences we have as a child

We never leave behind

DCG

The Rational and the Emotional


I’ve searched all of my life

To understand and rise above my pain

Studied Psychology and Philosophy

Seems like this pursuit is a never-ending campaign

I’ve made some progress though

I pray not to give up my hope

Some questions will never be answered

So I search for the best way to cope

A thinking persons disposition

May often find the vexation of their emotion

Difficult to separate from

The hurt which we attach to our devotion

The rational and the emotional

Are two very different creatures

Measures must be taken

So that either don’t become our keepers

To find a path

It is best to head down the middle

Much like the Buddha suggests

For us to solve this riddle

DCG

This is what I Advocate


My education was everything

It defined who I am

Three classes short of two degrees

My employer and girlfriend really didn’t give a damn

All I wanted growing up

Was love to nourish me

A family that could not respond

Co-dependent parents incapable of hearing my plea

So I wandered

But a childhood comes back to visit

Gets in your head and dreams

Haunting and inexplicit

Self-reliance a razors edge

Give up on just one person

Your own path

Is destined to worsen

Because of these things

I have stumbled along

But I never gave up

My spirit is humbled yet strong

Dust off the past

A new day awaits

Awaken the moxie

This is what I advocate

DCG

A Leap of Faith


Some children ask

If they are worthy of love

Only knowing the chasm felt

That the parents cannot dispose of

We are a complex people

Who fail to see the simple need

We perpetuate this problem

The one that we will often feed

Lonely is the night

Ambivalent child is awake

Numbing is the sensation

After the trembling heart shakes

Calming the soul

From the sound of a rotating fan

Brings peace to the child

Chasing away for a moment – the bogeyman

Dreams become nightmares

The sleeping child cannot fight

No one to turn to

In the dark or in the light

Child now adult

A life underway

Many lessons learned

Many in disarray

A leap of faith

He must convey

Despite diminishing returns

Of a brand new day

The recognition of good

Can be seen by all

The design of love

Heals all that fall

The greatest gift

That he can make

Love those around him

For everyone’s sake

DCG

A Prayer to Rescind


A grieving lonely sod

Whispers silently in the wind

Heard only by the angels

A prayer to rescind

Abandoned house

Sits on a hill

built long ago

Are there memories that dwellith still?

Modest furniture

Much in disrepair

A family gone away

Leaves no laughter there

The last owner spent his money

Upgrades to a sorrowful house

Neither spending time with his children

Neither spending time with his spouse

This home was his castle

Attributing higher value to it then his kin

A bewitchment of the Devil?

A bewitchment from narcissistic whim?

The wares of our deception

Account for much of the blame

Whom will take any account?

Whom will take any shame?

Beseech the broken-hearted

Only the down-trodden know

This cumbersome attachment

A broken family can bestow


DCG

The Thing about Self-Reliance



innocence is taken

A worldview now changed

Conflict we create

Conflict we sustain

There are no shadows in the darkness

They only appear in the spotlight

Memories go undisturbed

If they remain out of our sight

We blindfold ourselves

The hard truths that we have forgotten

This doesn’t take the sting away

Out of the misbegotten

I need your support

I can’t see the light anymore

I’m surrounded by this darkness

Can’t find my way to the door

The thing about self-reliance

We sometimes lose our way

The solace we seek is hidden

Beneath the pain in our decay

We hide this from those around us

Family, friends, and our workmates

Only to endure this suffering

A dark force within that resonates

The awakening to tip the scale

Can always be found in this daze

Allow yourself to be in the present

The past is but a fog and a haze

The choice becomes right before us

With every breath and every step we take

Walk in the light of our knowing

That this path is ours to make


DCG

Echoes from the Past



Discounted

Ashamed

The words you say to me

Direct anger and blame

How did we get here

An echo from the past

A culture of damaged ego’s

An echo that still lasts

Why does this pain attach itself

In a developmental chain

One that binds us to miscommunication

Leaving an indelible stain

What is most disturbing

In the miscommuniqué

The fact we do not see this

The emotional transactions that we pay

Take away the preconception

Take away the defensive beliefs

Listen openly together

Diminish much of the grief

Have I lost all credibility?

Have I no valid point to make?

How do we break this cycle?

What is the cost it will take?

Blood is thicker than water

But in a tide of fallen tears

A diluted pool of sorrow

Separates those close to us who are near

A memory can bind us together

A memory can also enslave

How do we heal from the past

Must see the true forms outside of Plato’s cave

Pull back from the platitudes

This plants a harmful seed

Take ego out of the equation

Maybe then we can proceed

Begin in the middle

Use the golden mean

Train ourselves to forgive

In what cannot be foreseen


DCG