We learn from experience
We learn from dreams
We learn from others
Sometimes these lessons are not what they seem
Forged with reason and emotion
This imprint attaches to our soul
Sometimes they change with the times
Sometimes they’re put out on parole
Attachment to anything
Either pleasure or pain
May not serve us after the fact
And may just be in vain
Memories can last a lifetime
Our ability to deal with them will change
Old wounds can heal
As this is not really that strange
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DCG

Suffering from the emotional abuse
When a young child is not allowed to cry
Wishing if only
His father would simply just Die!
Old wounds run silent and deep
When a memory of the past
Eclipses your present state
Just how long will this disruption last?
What is adversity?
Is it a certainty?
Maybe even a guarantee?
Does it define us by decree?
Deteriorate
Infuriate
Suffocate
Isolate
When indeed will we learn?
My own prison a captive of my own thought
Both the jailer and the inmate
Is this what my life has brought?
Given the stakes
What must we do?
Pardon the offences?
Follow a moral law that is true?
Where do we draw the line?
How do we measure autonomy?
The questions one must ask
To comport their philosophy
“ The swords of time will peirce our skin
It doesn’t hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger watch it grin “
The currency of knowledge is free
What we don’t squander
If we attend
Only then this wisdom we can ponder
Receptivity is crucial
I think the broken-hearted people would agree
A key will open a door
A light will allow us to see
Manifest change by perception
Attachment of pain from a dream
Is much harder to navigate
When it clearly cannot be seen
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DCG
Think you’re giving tough love
Are you dismissive?
Do you pre-judge?
Don’t kick me when I’m down
You act like you know all the answers
And treat me like a clown
You become angry and intolerant
Don’t kick me when I’m down
You think that I am stupid
Not really knowing my pain and suffering
I feel belittled and helpless
As I am not fully functioning
You presume I have normal circumstance
Despite the signs clearly before you
If only you pay attention
Then maybe you would change your view
Don’t attack my ability
Put me on the defense
Don’t trivialize my problem
It only makes it more intense
Even accounting the conversation
Leaves me with a frown
As the memory of this relationship
Kicks me when I’m down
When you feel insignificant
Drowning in troubles all around
Don’t feed the wrong energy
Don’t kick me when I’m down
Don’t preach to me with disapproval
Don’t you dare make a sound
I can’t take any more grief
Don’t kick me on the ground
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DCG
Life is too precious
For us to throw away
Yet many of us suffer
When we contemplate suicide by the end of the day
Even the moon
Will shine at night
In the dark shadow of emotion and reason
As darkness is the absence of light
How do we procure
A well balanced soul?
How do we parent?
How do we console?
We must cultivate character
Establish a code of morality
Learn how to forgive ourselves and others
To keep our sanity
The weight of the world is upon you
Tension and pressure will build inside
Are you motivated to take positive action?
Are you relegated to ignore and hide?
Life provides us with challenges
Sloth and apathy a tradition of loss
Which will change a circumstance?
Which will be the albatross?
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DCG
A narcissist with an inferiority complex
It is a horrific thing being in between
A non-empathetic father
With a low self-esteem
Any one who grew up in this family
I share your pain
I’ve spent the better part of five decades
Searching for answers to keep me sane
Don’t get me wrong
I’ve had a good life
But nobody should have to endure
Such an existential strife
Sometimes I’m haunted by my dreams
But I do not claim to be a victim
I’ve educated myself
And this is my dictum
Make good memories
To replace the ones that harm
Over time these new ones
Will be a healing charm
Maybe this is a poem
Maybe this is my therapy
Maybe this will help others
I say this all with sincerity
…
DCG
Self-Reflection
The razors edge
To better myself
I’ve made this pledge
The search to improve myself
On the lessons of my life lived
Can benefit me
On the perspective that it gives
Yet I’m chasing a ghost
When I dwell on the past
I no longer serve myself
As the cost is vast
You heal from wounds
Not by attaching to the grief
Reliving a memory over and over again
There is no relief
One must move forward
I must create a new me
Build upon a new foundation
On how I intend to be
…
DCG
Be thankful for your blessings
It does not matter who you are
The further we distance ourselves from happiness
The less we notice just indeed how far
A captive trance
Will take over our perception
It deceptively steals our senses
A rational mind is now in defection
Too often our hearts and minds stray
Too often we focus on our hurt
Why not rejoice for the positive?
Why do we not avert?
It is not our natural behavior
Therefore I think it is learned
If we put this into practice
Than the court of suffering is now adjourned
…
DCG
Visualize the triumph
Discontinue behaviors that do not work
Identify what fails us
Elst we stay in the cirque
Repetitive bad habits
No matter how we justify
Locks up our will
Because we tell ourselves these lies
Precisely what master gives us liberation
Is the same master that enslaves our mind
To see this duality
A gift of sight to the blind
…
DCG
I choose to be happy
But I have much work to do
I have a damaged soul
Just between me and you
Traumatized in my childhood
I eventually outgrew and overcame
But if you don’t resolve the issues
They tend to come back to visit again and again
Ironically I cannot turn to the family
Since their influence is part of my shame
I know I have to heal
And depose this pain that comes out of my blame
…
DCG
Ask the right questions
Focus on the good
Knowing that you have been wronged
Won’t matter if this is understood
The best way forward
You must first find your stride
Following the affirmative
Let this be your guide
When you allow the cynical voices
To occupy your mind
You squelch any happiness
That you are willing if able to find
Wallow in the mire
Bespattered with wounded pith
If you remain there too long
A potential to overcome becomes myth
…
DCG
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