You won’t know until the silence hit you

The quickest path of victimhood

Is through the expression of passive-aggressive, dismissive-avoidant denial

The gauntlet is thrown in defeat

The indignation and sentence are exposed pre-trial

At attachment theory, dismissive-avoidant and anxiously attached

Both have triggers

Both have a 22 catch

You won’t know until the silence hits you

You have to experience it before you can see

 we have to prevent what triggers us

To face what is truly reality 

If you pull back far enough, the problem within you is evident but you are afraid to see

Your emotional paralysis is not mature

Your perpetual stagnation

Is all you endure

A self fulfilling prophecy

Meets a self sabotaging force

You’re not able to navigate

If you can’t chart a course

Take a snapshot

What do we know?

Severe emotional neglect

Stunted feelings, you never allow to grow

How do you deal if you don’t know how to heal?

What is wild?

You are part woman

No, you are part child

Survivors of emotional trauma

And childhood neglect

May Bond together

Attached to the trauma they connect

The perks of being a wallflower

When you see it, it hits a nerve

“Sometimes we accept the love

We think we deserve”

RSP

DCG

My simple autobiography

I’ve been a student for my entire life

I’ll always continue to be

Grew up in a blue collar working class

I thirsted to learn in a world I wanted to see

I learned to ask questions

Knowing you can’t always rely on your own family

I sought to educate myself

In psychology and philosophy

I resoned “the unexamined life is not worth living“

As told by Socrates

Thus this life Long quest I lead

May I learn more please

On this journey

I continue to refine what it means to be me

What have you learned?

My simple autobiography

DCG

Even in our own behest 

The failure of recognition

Looking at life with a fisheye lens

The distortion may hide the opportunity

Because how we see things may always depend

maybe you’re tired

Maybe you’re down

Maybe you’re hurting

And it’s hard to get around

When we are weary

Feeling small

Where will we find the courage?

To again stand tall

There are times we will stumble

There are times we will certainly fall

the only thing that really matters

if we continue to get up after all

So where do we find the motivation?

in order to move forward in whose name shall we call?

The infant cannot walk

Until they learn how to crawl

The lack of purposeful activity

Idle hands and an idle mind

Leads to moral decay

Of the sinful kind

This proverb discussed by St. Thomas, Aquinas and Pope Gregory 

The seventh deadly sin of sloth 

A warning given

By both men of the cloth

The core idea I speak of

pragmatic agency must never rest

the struggle will continue

Even in our own behest

DCG

How can I be a part of the solution?

The wisdom of forgiveness

So too requires the wisdom of walking the razors edge

Knowing when and when not

To use a hedge

The entanglements that befalls us

May take us by surprise

If ruled by the heart and not the mind

What then will our passions devise?

Soren Kierkegaard said “life can be understood looking backwards, but it must be lived forwards“

In other words to live one must take risk

Learn by mistake

Beware the idolater who prays to the golden obelisk

When we own our Folly

It helps us see in our relationships

With misunderstanding

And solve our difficulty

How can I be a part of the solution?

A question a couple must always ask

To build upon a foundation

Given what both lives may cast

There is no certainty

With vows of good intent

The practicality to work through shared issues

A reason why we become penitent

Make no mistake I believe in commitment

A covenant and social contract is necessary

The responsibility is mutual

both parties must work hard to achieve and agree

RSP

DCG

The fragile triumph

The Fragile Triumph


We wake as gods with trembling hands,


Our thrones are built on fleeting dreams.


In trying to transcend our sands,


We stumble deeper into schemes.


We strive for love yet fear its weight,


Each blessing shadows its own cost.


Our victories come disguised as fate,


And every gain recalls what’s lost

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We chase the light through fear’s disguise,


Our doubts become the proof we seek.


The soul grows strong through what it dies,


And faith resounds when reason’s weak.


The mirror cracks to show us whole,


In shards we find the self we feign.


Our pride must break to free the soul,


And loss becomes the soul’s terrain.


For truth is born when lies decay,


We learn to see through ruin’s art.

The wound becomes the only way


To show the mercy of the heart.


So bless the flaw, the fleeting breath,


The limit we attempt to hide.


For even love must borrow death


To prove eternity inside.


And where despair begins to rise,


Forgiveness blooms like dawn anew.


The heart, once fractured, now replies—


The fragile was the holy view.

RSP

DCG

Longinus the Centurion 

He stood beneath that shadowed hill, where heaven bled through dust and bone,
The thunder cracked—its solemn will—while Rome’s command was cold as stone.
He raised the spear as duty’s pawn, his eyes dimmed by the soldier’s creed,
Yet in that thrust, the veil was torn—a heart now touched by love’s true bleed.
The crimson flow and water spilled, as mercy’s river found its mark,
A blinded man’s dull sight was filled—his eyes now bathed in holy spark.
He fell beneath the quaking sky, his breath entangled in a cry,
“For surely this was God Most High,”—his spirit born, his fear to die.
But Rome grew dark in whisper’s court; their blades cut truth from every tongue,
He would not bend, nor twist retort—his creed of faith was newly sung.
They came with chains, they came with flame, to steal the voice he would not hide,
And when they carved his sacred name, the blood itself refused to die.
They took his sight, they took his tongue, yet still his witness filled the air,
Each silence louder than the drum of tyrants choking on despair.
And so began that legend’s hymn: that even bound, his speech was clear,
For those who listened heard within—the echo Christ had placed in fear.
We live the trial of Longinus still, though crowned by tech and dressed in lies,
Our hands still pierce what love would heal, our hearts still barter paradise.
But faith, when broken, shines the more—the truth survives what steel divides,
And every wound the holy bore becomes the place our hope abides.
So let them mock, defile, or maim, the tender flame will never drown,
For grace returns to light the same where men once cast their idols down.
And where the spear of Longinus thrust became the world’s most hallowed scar,
God taught the blind to see what’s just—and raised our hearts to where You are.

DCG

Without training, our Folly is a guarantee

the hedonist lives an empty life

The Jainist lives in aesthetic purism with the intent to delay

And this is why Siddhartha

Discovered  the middle way

Without training our Folly is a guarantee

The case above is just one example how will we choose to navigate?

We test over many generations

We observe, we teach, and we calculate

I am not a cultural relativist

In today’s world, we can educate 

And find a choice

And whose name do we advocate?

In what authority do we voice?

Wisdom does not simply fall into our lap

It must be observed and learned

And some of which

Must be earned

the teachings of ancient India

the prophecies from the Middle East

If you look to the modern world

Where can you find your peace?

The Buddha spoke to suffering

The Christ spoke to sin

The attack upon western civilization

A spiritual war, the patriots must win

Our Founding fathers knew

The tyranny of man

The limitation of government

The Bill of Rights we must demand 

DCG

In shadows cast by hearts that tire

In shadows cast by hearts that tire,
We walk on embers, stitched with fire,
Afraid the night will never cease,
Yet yearning still for dawn’s release.
The cracks within our skin reveal,
The truths we hide, yet cannot seal,
We fall as fools, yet rise as kings,
When sorrow carves us broken wings.
We doubt, and doubt becomes our chain,
Yet fear itself is forged from pain—
And pain can shape what was confined,
A freer soul, a braver mind.
Through storms that strip, we stand half-grown,
Learning the strength we thought unknown,
The irony—our fragile frame
Bears weight that pride could never claim.
For tragedy wears patient scars,
It teaches more than peaceful stars,
It bends us low, yet in that bend
We find the road that will not end.
And so, though faith may sometimes fade,
Though hope feels buried in the shade—
The broken heart still learns to swell,
For even shattered bones can tell:
That fractures are not signs of doom,
But openings where light finds room.

DCG

Life hack #2

If you can look into the heart

What would you find?

The true motivation

What you have behind the mind?

If we do not mark our path

With our true intent

What then guides us?

In our true consent?

DCG

Expectation without investigation 

Pure conviction untested

is where the true believers fail

Without practice

The intellectual motion will not prevail

Expectation without investigation

Like a road made of sand

Washed away by the elements

A road not well planned

There is more than just belief

It must be tested in practice with common sense and adversity

A formation of character to learn, earn, and return

a blueprint on how to be

Living the best possible life requires agency

A Moral compass only works with self correction

The simple resolution

Is self inspection

integrity is not an accident

It’s foundation that defies corruption

It will last longer

Than a fools presumption

DCG