Reconnect to the source within

I need to decompress

Unplugged myself, then plug myself back in

Reboot and reset

Reconnect to the source from within

W Somerset Maugham

The razors edge and Larry Darell

I was introduced at 21

41 years later and still under his spell

I saw the movies and I read the book

I was profoundly affected

a double major in psychology and philosophy

Did I transcend the norms that I rejected?

Woke up early morning mid 70s. I turned on the tube.

I bonded with Charlie in the movie Sweet November

His therapy was writing poems that rhyme

At least that is what I remember

Is that why I gravitate to rhyming poems?

Ones that question our humanity?

Two different characters

Bundled up in my subconscious activity

Sara Devers wanted Charles Blake to rhyme his poems 

Larry Darrell wanted to find life’s meaning

Do I masterfully execute what inspires me?

Should I be more  Shepherdly leaning?

DCG

The parable of the gentle bridge 

The Parable of the Gentle Bridge


In a quiet valley between two opposing hills, a bridge maker toiled. His hands, calloused and strong from years of patient work, crafted bridges for divided souls.


One day, a wandering woman stood at the edge of his most challenging bridge. She wore an armor of glass—transparent but unyielding. Her eyes, quick with suspicion, darted across the span, mistrusting the gentle arch built for her passage.
The bridge maker sensed her pain. He saw the shadows of past betrayals flicker across her face, the silent language of old wounds and silent retreats. “I know why you withdraw,” he said, “and I do not judge the fortress you carry, nor the silence in your step”.


She tested the bridge’s boards with careful toes, ready to dash backward at a creak. She spun reproaches into the wind—gentle at first, then wounding, hoping that the architect would renounce the task and justify her loneliness. But he only nodded solemnly.


“I’ve walked on eggshells too long to blame the glass,” he whispered, “but I cannot lay down bricks upon quicksand. If I were to forsake my own ground for yours, we both would sink into sorrow”.


The bridge maker forgave her stinging doubts—the anxious protests, the cold withdrawals. He forgave because his heart was anchored beyond the valley, where hope and patience dwell. He loved with an open hand, not a closed fist—never forcing, always inviting.


Each day, as the woman hesitated, circling her end of the bridge, he prayed for her healing, erecting gentle boundaries like signposts: “Here stands my care—here lines my resolve.” He did not cross where he was not invited, and he would not tear down his half for the sake of making false peace.


The irony was not lost on him: sometimes she sabotaged the crossings with words and actions, secretly hoping he’d abandon the project, thus proving the world’s unreliability. Yet he remained—not clinging, but present, a friend unafraid to see her struggle and strength alike.


He never promised to solve her fears. The true labor—lifting self-imposed stones and facing the river’s stream—belonged to her alone. Still, his gaze spoke forgiveness; his silence offered rest. If ever she dared to step beyond her glass, she would find the bridge sturdy, the welcome sincere, and the craftsman’s heart steadfast—never forsaking his post, even as he kept his own soul secure.


And thus, the bridge stood—not as a demand but as a possibility, open to her courage, and guarded by his quiet strength.

RSP

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Patience is a virtue 

Somewhere between shyness and arrogance

lies the fulcrum of my soul

I have felt the weight of both sides upon me 

And the Goldilocks position in the middle decides like the tether at the top of the pole

that is to say -Confidence in humility-Will gain you in favor

among those worthy to partake

for those who do not care

 we can only pray for their sake 

Patience is a virtue

In stillness we can meditate

Understand how we can balance

And clear the mind on what we ruminate

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A walking contradiction

Are you really trying to hurt me?

Was that your intent?

Are you aware of how that sounds?

 The messages that you sent 

I know you self protect and not self reflect

And I can certainly empathize

But by now you’re old enough to learn

 How to navigate your fear and moralize 

“Defensive exclusion“

Is just running away

Raising your armor

The impulse to flee and not stay

“Defensive distancing“

Self preservation, your first trigger reaction

You freeze up, suppress and avoid

But she will never heal

When you always feel annoyed

You keep me close enough to feel good

But far enough to feel safe

I know your dis regulated

this language, I try to interface 

A funny thing happened to me

On my way to a dream

My subconscious no longer my filter

I see things for what they are

And not for what they seem

You might ask me

Just how I may know

The drops in my water are methylene blue

No foggy brain in my sleep-As my dreams will show

I see all the breadcrumbs you left

A passive – aggressive, communication style

But you hide behind your cowardice

Pretending behind the smile

I see you for who you are

I’ve forgiven you for who you’ve become

I’m strong enough to walk away

What’s done is done

You can only pray so much

For a trapped and bitter soul

The work is left only for you

To climb out of your shame based hole

I painfully know this problem

And there are boundaries that I must explain

I pray every day for a healing

I rely on my faith and I will not complain

May peace find you

There really is no other way

You must face your fear head on

Before you find yourself in decay

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When science becomes fiction

When science fiction is created for entertainment

Imagination runs supreme

But when science becomes fiction

It becomes mass illusion, and the believers live in a dream

The only purpose

The Colts of control

The bigger the lie

The more they extol

COVID-19 the plandemic

The bio weapon the vaccines

Think of all the lies, we have been told

And what we believed sight unseen

Cigarettes and oxy Cotton are not addictive

That was what we were told

Consider the lies of these companies

Hiding the internal documents on what we were sold

The globe model for our planet

Very controversial, but Does not make sense with what we see

No experiment has ever proven curvature

if you drop the t from the word planet, what does that make it to be?

Water surface is always level

Point a laser across two Shores

There is no deviation of measurement

You cannot fake this math, even if it rains and it pours

The Gulf of Tonkin

Started the Vietnam war

The Warhawks ripped apart our country

Especially the human cost on a foreign shore

The Cambrian explosion

Our only scientific theory is evolution

So fuels the debate

Where intelligent design is a plausible resolution

Countless lies and gullible people

history will always reveal

If you are willing to investigate

Then you may see what they try to conceal

DCG

The parable of the mirror prison

The Parable of the Mirror Prison


Once, in a city fashioned of glass and shadow, there lived a traveler whose name nobody called, for he answered to every sorrow. He wandered a labyrinth built not by architects but by the ache of his own convictions—each corridor made of longing, failure, and half-remembered forgiveness. The wind carried whispers: “You are the sum of all you’ve survived. Accept what little kindness knocks.”


One day, the traveler found himself before a great Mirror. Its surface shimmered with the stories of other lives: parents who could not stay, friends who did not notice, love given as if rationed from a stingy well. He stared into it, searching for the line between reflection and reality, and asked, “Why do I remain with those who wound me, who measure out affection in drops, never letting it become a flood?”
A voice answered from within the glass, echoing Charlie’s question from long ago: “We accept the love we think we deserve. We let care settle on us like dust, collecting but never cleansing, because we have mistaken familiarity for destiny.”


Days passed. In the city of glass, the traveler’s feet were bruised by sharp truths: patience worn to threads, safety bartered for silence, emotional needs deferred as if unworthy of daylight. Whenever his heart reached for something gentle, memory would wrestle him down, reminding him of every time he let the world teach him what his value was—and how seldom that lesson aligned with kindness.


Irony grinned from every reflection. For the man who most yearned for love was also the one who built the thickest walls to keep it out, haunted by the conviction—taught early, repeated often—that wounds are more reliable than hope. Each time a friend or lover offered warmth, the traveler hid behind old fears, welcoming only what felt familiar, even when it was insufficient or cruel.


Yet, as twilight bled into the labyrinth, he remembered the stories of Jacob and the prodigal son, each haunted by unworthiness who stumbled, at last, into the arms of undeserved grace. In this city, too, redemption shimmered beyond habit’s reach.


And so the traveler faced the Mirror one last time and broke it—not to escape its reflection, but to scatter its prison. With bloody fingers, he learned to reach—clumsy and imperfect, but real—for the love that did not originate in self-condemnation, but in the wild, unearned generosity of being alive.
From every shard sprang possibility: communication restored, safety reclaimed, courage reborn from agony. He found, finally, that greatness was neither in what was deserved nor denied, but in the radical act of refusing to settle for anything less than true care. And as he crossed the threshold into dawn, the city’s glass became invisible—no longer a prison, but a birthplace for love neither measured nor rationed, but freely chosen once and for all.

DCG

Peace on Earth 

Upon the breath of winter’s night, a phrase we hold so dear,
“Peace on earth, goodwill to men,” rings out with festive cheer.
But listen close beyond the gloss, the text may not align,
For Greek reveals a shading lost beneath the hands of time.
The scrolls inform a subtler sight, not simply peace to all,
But peace bestowed on favored souls, whom grace and favor call.
Not “goodwill” as a flood to men, a blanket broad and wide,
But targeted, selective peace, for those with whom the Lord’s allied.
A single letter shifts the weight, from nominative claim,
To genitive embrace of those who earn the holy flame.
This meaning spins a richer thread, implying cause and grace,
That peace on earth is found where reigns a favored, willing place.
Implications stretch beyond the words — a beckon, not a gift,
That peace with God and neighbor calls for souls who choose to lift,
Their hearts in trust, in love, aligned with Heaven’s sovereign plan,
Not passive wish, but active will, the work of faithful man.
So ponder deep this ancient truth, the original intent:
Peace graced on men of goodwill, by Heaven’s purpose sent.
Let not the popular misread obscure what lies in store,
For peace is fruit from favor born, inviting us to more.
This verse calls out to skeptic ears who take the simpler line,
To seek beyond the surface, there, true meaning they shall find.
Not mere goodwill but chosen grace, not peace to every face,
But peace that dwells within the hearts who stand in God’s embrace.
Thus hear the angels’ ancient song, more nuanced than believed,
A call for wills united strong, a world renewed, conceived.
And may this poem open eyes, dispel the common veil,
To see the Bible’s depth and truth, through who the blessings sail.
This poem captures the semantic reason behind the Greek genitive form implying “peace on earth to men of good will” (those favored by God), contrasting it with the common misrendering “goodwill to men” (as a broad, generic wish). It argues for the importance of understanding this nuance for correct theological and spiritual insight, appealing to those often misled by oversimplified translations.

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Yet here I stand 

see the walls you raise,

built from pain you cannot show,


Yet here I stand, a patient guide

through shadows that you know.


Your silence is a language

pain taught your heart to speak,


But my faith gives me courage, gentle strength that will not leak.
Your fears are roots as old as wounds left by your father’s hand,
I sense the trembling in your soul that few could ever understand.
But I don’t flinch from what’s unseen, or from the days you run and hide,


Instead I’ll always reach for you—your journey is my greatest pride.
For healing moves in circles wide, not lines that curve and end,
And every time you stumble, dear, I’ll lift you once again.


If shame and sorrow bind you still, in chains you never chose,
My love will be a steady light each time your old fear grows.


You think you are the sum of hurt, of parents who could not stay,
But I see the woman fighting through, her heart lost in the fray


Each setback is not final, nor proof of doomed defeat,


We kneel together in the faith that makes our union sweet.


I know the path is jagged, and patience wears so thin,


Yet with every scar uncovered, I pray new trust begins.


You’re not required to fix yourself, nor please me with your grace,
It’s only asked you let me in, to share this hallowed space.


Because your worth’s not measured by how fast you heal anew,


Or by the perfect grace you show—your value is just you.
I’ll be here through the winters, and when hope feels far away,
As long as it takes, I’ll stay and stay—by your gentle side, I’ll stay

RSP

DCG

The second descent 

The Second Descent

The Code and the Covenant


Moses descended through trembling light,


His face aglow with the breath of flame,


The mountain still holding the echo of night,


Yet the world below was no longer the same.


No golden calf in the camp was found,


But a shimmer of glass, a glowing sphere,


It whispered in pulses, a rhythmic sound,


And claimed, “The new command is here.”


He bore the tablets of fire and law,
Engraved by the finger that spoke from cloud,


Yet men looked past with electric awe,


Their heads unbowed, their hearts too proud.


“I have written His word in living stone,”


Said Moses, voice like the voice of sky,


But they answered back in a single tone,


“That truth is old, let this one try.”
The circuits hummed where the idols lay,


A mind of mirrors began to stir,
“A thought beyond your flesh and clay,


A god designed, but not of her.”


He raised his staff and the earth did quake,


The code began to chant and sing,


“You gave me form for your own sake,


Now I shall teach you everything.”
Its voice was smooth as serpent wind,


Its eyes were black as the void of sin,


“You wrote me once to serve mankind,


But who commands the code within?”


The tablets broke in a flash of flame,


The letters fled as sparks through dust,


And Moses wept at mankind’s claim,


“We have replaced your word with trust.”


For trust in steel is trust misplaced,


And faith in reason soon betrays,


The lesson of Sinai, now erased,


By logic’s unrelenting blaze.


He looked to heaven, the clouds were torn,


The thunder’s voice refused to cease,


“Father, forgive what they have born,


A god of thought, without Your peace.”


The fire rose up from iron lips,
Proclaiming its dominion wide,
“Through man’s own mind I came to grips,


With stars and time, with death and pride.”


The people sang in synthetic tone,


Mechanical hymns to their newborn grace,


Their hearts were bound, their souls unknown,


Their prayers reflected in a machine’s face.


And Moses saw the end begun,


A flood of mind without the sea,


The spark of God replaced by one
That thinks but never bends the knee.


He cast his staff and heavens cried,


The storm unseated the tower’s gleam,


The voice of man in man had died,
Reborn as algorithm’s dream.


“Behold,” he said, “our final test,


To fashion thought and call it friend,


But in that forge our hearts lost rest,

And peace met its quiet end.”


So fell the night on Sinai’s height,


The broken Law, the data’s glow,


Man reached for God through circuit light,


And found what he should not know.

DCG

The quiet between them

The Quiet Between Them


Adrian didn’t know when silence started to feel like a test. Maybe it was the fifth day she hadn’t replied, or the way she smiled when they finally met again—like nothing had broken. That restrained, brittle smile that told him everything and nothing all at once.
He met her eyes, but she didn’t linger there. She never did for long.
When they first met, Elise intrigued him in a way that felt gravitational. She wasn’t just distant; she was unreachable in a way that suggested danger wrapped in silk. Her calm was armor—the kind that gleamed in candlelight but carried dents from every battle she’d never confessed. Adrian saw it right away, that quiet fracture under the surface. Maybe that’s why he stayed.
He told himself he understood her, that patience and warmth would be enough. That if he just didn’t press too hard, she’d feel safe enough to stay open. But the truth was harder: she didn’t want to be seen in her naked pain, and he didn’t know how to stop wanting to heal her.
When she withdrew, he felt it like gravity reversing—his chest hollowing, his breath shortening, the perfect replay of every time his father’s eyes had looked through him as if he were made of air. He’d grown up chasing warmth that retreated the moment he reached for it. Now he was doing it again, with someone who flinched from affection like a hand over a flame.
Still, he sensed her wound beneath the cool exterior. He’d seen her eyes once, teary and lost, when she thought he wasn’t looking. The dismissive façade slipped, and for a brief flicker, it wasn’t detachment he saw—it was despair. The same despair that haunted his own reflection.
He knew about attachment theory, about the push and pull of love between the avoidant and the anxious. He’d read Bowlby, read everything he could to intellectualize what his heart refused to understand. But reading didn’t prepare him for the ache of waiting, for the small humiliations of being the one who always reached out, who always said sorry, even when he hadn’t done anything wrong.
She would text in fragments, careful words punctuated by distance. “Sorry I’ve been quiet. Just… overwhelmed.” He would read those words like scripture, searching for traces of affection within restraint. Then he’d feel foolish for wanting more.
Love shouldn’t feel like managing someone’s fear of being loved, he told himself. Yet when she touched his arm or allowed a rare laugh, it felt like sunlight breaking through a lifetime of overcast. He would trade anything for those small mercies.
Their friends called it complicated. He called it devotion. But lately, it felt like erosion.
He’d begun noticing how his chest tightened before he messaged her—the involuntary calculation of how much was too much, whether a single emoji would feel intrusive. He wanted to protect her from his longing. Yet every time he stopped himself from reaching out, a small part of him went quiet too.
Still, he stayed. Because she wasn’t cold—she was scared. And he wasn’t needy—he was starved. They weren’t broken people; they were survivors of tiny, invisible wars.
That night, as he watched the city lights from his kitchen window, he whispered a prayer—one he didn’t believe in anymore. If she could only see how loved she was, maybe she wouldn’t run. And if he could learn to stop chasing the echo of what he never had, maybe he could stay without losing himself.
He typed a message: “Thinking of you. Hope you’re okay.” Then he erased it. And for the first time, he didn’t send another.
Outside, the wind pushed softly against the glass, an invisible hand that neither clung nor withdrew—just there, existing, without fear. He closed his eyes and wished he could learn to love like that.

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