Compass for the Soul

Resolution and conviction make good friends when you have bumps in the road along the path you are taking. The most wondrous cases are when you realize you are making strides despite the obstacles you face along the way. It fuels your determination and conviction which helps guide you through the resistance you meet. I could say that one of the most gratifying feelings is achieving a goal despite the naysayers and even our own self-doubts.

One can find many instances for this type of feeling in the professional realm, within the organizations we work for or, namely, our employers. What is most frustrating for the advancing candidates is not the recognition for the talent they bring to the table, but the questionable political decisions that are rendered and their ramifications from the powers that be when others are selected for competing positions. In thinking further about this dynamic, one can also see the social implications as well. Most of us have many stories to draw upon when looking at our social networks growing up.

Looking back on my life I have probably had more opportunities than I would first assess and appreciate, but I also know that I had to struggle to find my vision of how I would live my life. My childhood forced me to look inside myself, because when my gaze was turned out I did not find the answers I continued to ask myself about this life and our treatment of each other. There are many things in life that we cannot control, such as the families we are born into, or the mindset and dispositions of people we grow up with and have to negotiate our place with them. We must therefore decide on how we should mediate our lives given the internal/external conflicts that occur in everyday life. Resistance is a fundamental element that cannot be totally negated or else we would find ourselves in denial or in an escapism realm of being.

There were only a handful of people who I looked up to and in turn was influenced by their teachings that would greatly change my outlook and world view in life and I met them while attending Grossmont College, and then San Diego State University. What is interesting though is the quiet disposition I sustained while in my youth. My learning to stay reserved and not furnish my public evaluation until it was completely thought out comes to benefit me despite the painstaking grief that kept me silent in the first place. The fear to speak your mind, due to the criticisms of an oppressive father would turn out to be a cross I had to bare and be one of my own bumpy roads I had to traverse and overcome.

I’m not sure just what forces were at play when they guided my soul though the tough times in my life. When I look back and see the possible decisions that could have taken me down a treacherous road and think how did I navigate safely through those stormy waters? If you consider all the resources available such as good friends, good coping skills, educational benefits, and contrast them to the lack of resources one may have at the time, I am astonished at the fortunate outcome I take residence in. How was I able to steer such troubles without sustaining any major trauma’s that life can throw at you? Can there be an argument for Guardian Angels, Luck, or Karma somewhere in our stories? In my life I have found some questions that I truly cannot answer. It is beyond my comprehension because of my understanding of the way the universe works. The soul’s compass can be guided from many sources. I have much work to do in determining the course of my life. Much to see, and much to do, much to ponder, and much to give. Life is precious, and every moment should be revered during our time on this earth.

My only choice is to accept graciously my benefactors decisions whatever or whomever they may be. I must be thankful to these unknown architects of my allowances. As for my known advocates, I thank my friends who were there for me, I thank the universe for providing to me what I needed to be equipped with.

All Roads Lead To Where You Are

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…My journey in this world so far has led me to this road
I didn’t think I’d meet someone
that would lead me to a place that feels like home
I’ve wandered around not finding myself
in this world I’ve battled my fears
and I’ve lived long enough to know that you must be there for those you hold dear
I look upon your face and feel as I look into your eyes
the more I look the more I see
it takes me by surprise
knowing you a month or two makes me stop and realize
that when you find someone who makes you feel
so awake and so alive
so, don’t let them go
cuz now you know
just what you recognize…

 

The beauty and rarity of the world sometimes strikes us at times when we least expect it.  It is certain that when we are receptive to what we can attend to, it will most likely make itself known to us.  So often we choose to look in the wrong direction and miss what life has to offer us.  So often we choose to miss what is right in front of us, not necessarily what we want, but rather what we may truly need.  Happiness is something we do choose.  Happiness is attainable and sustainable and we sometimes must reach outside our own self driven desires to completely fulfill these ambitions.

The journey of the self can take us on many roads.  The road least traveled seems to begin when we have not found what we think we would find on those previously ventured paths.  All roads lead to where you are metaphorically and literally is something that cannot be denied.  Perhaps there is something to be said about the Forrest Gump notion of Destiny; a destiny inclusive of when we float around kinda like the feather on the wind and also one that includes a destiny that we are predestined to take.  ….Forrest says….”I don’t know if we each have a destiny, or if we’re all just floatin’ around accidental-like on a breeze. But I, I think maybe it’s both.”  The feather seems to point to an accidental kind of life, but it always shows up at just the right time, so maybe destiny brought it there.  Somehow they are intermingled and we find ourselves in this world on a path that includes both accounts.  Throughout the film, the motifs of a feather and birds are used to promote the message. The feather seen both at the beginning and the end of the film has a clear purpose. The feather simply floats about on the breeze, no direct route and no known destination. This feather represents the journey to destiny, free and random. Similarly, birds also ride upon the wind, but do so with more choice. They are still free and, though it may seem less so, just as random. Whatever choices are made leads ever on towards destiny.

Fate – the uncontrollable events that make each of us what we are.  But the Forrest Gump film’s emphasis is not on fate itself, but on our responses to what fate deals us. While we can’t decide what happens to us, we each have important choices to make in the circumstances in which we find ourselves.

If one were to acquaint to this kind of reasoning about destiny, then one can establish that people who “float around accidental-like” and drift into our lives when we least expect it is a probability that cannot be refuted.   The circumstances of how we connect to others may sometimes tell us part of the story, but it also begs the question about the depth and quality of that connection.  This is something we all must work out for ourselves when we speak of those close to us.

Those that impact our lives on deeper levels mean more to us than most of the people we will encounter.  They impact us depending on our receptivity to them.  If by association from the media when we read about others who capture our attention, or be it those that we admire from a particular vantage point such as on a professional level or maybe on a personal level that responds to their artistic and creative productions that somehow personally speak to us; we have allowed them to enter our inner processes.  We are affected by those who touch us in ways that others cannot.

It is as if we are tuned to particular incoming intuitions that reach us and activates or stirs something within us before we truly take notice.  Those who incite us, who awaken us on levels that we have forgotten, ignored or possibly never experienced before, bestow us with experiences which renews and transforms us.

With relationships of course the question will arise if the people we connect with are good for us?  A topic for many that have found out that they have chosen poorly.  Risk is essential but it should have some intelligent thought placed within the equation.  We are creatures that can be moved by others on different levels.  The timing of events in our lives is a most curious thing.   An alignment with the positive elements in the universe can bring to us like-attracting elements we face in the world whether we realize it or not.  The converse is also true.  Yes we may stumble and tumble along the way, but if our compass be true, we will find a way.