The Free Masons

The Free-Masons

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Facts About Dollar Bills

The basic face and back designs of all denominations of United States paper currency, except the backs of the $1 and $2 denominations in general circulation today, were adopted in 1928.

The front of the bills feature portraits of famous, deceased American statesmen: George Washington on the $1, Thomas Jefferson on the $2, Abraham Lincoln on the $5, Alexander Hamilton on the $10, Andrew Jackson on the $20, Ulysses Grant on the $50, and Benjamin Franklin on the $100. Notes of higher denominations, while no longer produced featured William McKinley on the $500, Grover Cleveland on the $1000, James Madison on the $5000, and Salmon Chase on the $10,000.

Faceplace Numbers and Letters are the small numbers and letters that can be found in the lower right and upper left corners of a bill. In the left corner is the Note Position Number. This consists of the Note Position Letter and a quadrant number. The combination indicates the position of the note on the plate from which it was printed. In the lower right corner, the Note Position Letter is followed by the Plate Serial Number. This identifies the plate from which the note was printed. The Plate Serial Number for the reverse (back) side of the note is in the lower-right corner, just inside the ornamental border on the reverse of the bill.

Facts about dollar bills

The backs of the bills feature images reflective of the history of our nation: The Great Seal of the United States on the $1, the signing of the Declaration of Independence on the $2, the Lincoln Memorial on the $5, the Treasury Building on the $10, the White House on the $20, the Capitol on the $50, and Independence Hall on the $100. Denominations higher than $100 feature ornate impressions of the numerical value of the note, such as an ornate “500.”

A popular and often asked question about design is the one that appears on the back of the $1 note, the Great Seal of the United States. The front of the seal shows an American bald eagle behind our national shield. The eagle holds an olive branch, which symbolizes peace, with 13 berries and 13 leaves. In the left talon, the eagle holds 13 arrows, which represents war. The 13 leaves represent the original colonies. The eagle’s head is turned toward the olive branch, showing a desire for peace.

The top of the shield represents the Congress, the head of the eagle the Executive branch, and the nine tail feathers the Judiciary branch of our government. The 13-letter motto, “E Pluribus Unum,” on the ribbon held in the eagle’s beak means “Out of Many, One.”

On the reverse of the seal is a pyramid with 1776 in Roman numerals at the base. The pyramid stands for permanence and strength. The pyramid is unfinished, signifying the United States’ future growth and goal of perfection. A sunburst and an eye are above the pyramid, representing the overseeing eye of a deity. The 13-letter motto, “Annuit Coeptis” means “He has favored our undertakings.” Below the pyramid the motto, “Novus Ordo Seclorum” means “A new order of the ages,” standing for the new American era.

The motto “In God We Trust” first appeared on U.S. coins in 1864. However, it was not until 1955 that a law was passed which stated that thereafter all new designs for coins and currency would bear that inscription.

The Great Seal of the United States on Paper Currency

The face (obverse) of the Great Seal first appeared on the back of the $20 Gold Certificate, Series 1905. In 1935, both the face and back (reverse) of the seal appeared for the first time on paper money on $1 Silver Certificates.

Mandated by the First Continental Congress in 1776, the Great Seal took many years of work by multiple individuals and committees before final adoption in 1782. The Department of State is the official keeper of the seal. A description and explanation of both the obverse and reverse of the seal comes from the Department of State pamphlet “The Great Seal of the United States” (September 1996):

Obverse Side of the Great Seal
The most prominent feature is the American bald eagle supporting the shield, or escutcheon, which is composed of 13 red and white stripes, representing the original States, and a blue top which unites the shield and represents Congress. The motto E Pluribus Unum (Out of many, one), alludes to this union. The olive branch and 13 arrows denote the power of peace and war, which is exclusively vested in Congress. The constellation of stars denotes a new State taking its place and rank among other sovereign powers.

Reverse Side of the Great Seal
The pyramid signifies strength and duration: The eye over it and the motto Annuit Coeptis (He [God] has favored our undertakings) allude to the many interventions of Providence in favor of the American cause. The date underneath is that of the Declaration of Independence and the words under it, Novus Ordo Seclorum (A new order of the ages), signify the beginning of the new American era in 1776.

note the 13 leaves and 13 groves in the column

note the owl in right corner

Much visual information contained on the Masonic $!.00 Bill Red Circle above indicates location of Owl Masonic Symbols “Orchids in general tend to be viewed universally as symbols of lust. Its botanical name, orchis, is Greek for “testicle”, which is what the Greeks thought the buds looked like. It’s also said that they ‘go to extremes to propagate themselves'”. ( Cattleya Orchid: The Image Flower o’ Death and Destruction!– Orchids growing in the shade of the base of the Great Pyramid (prominent symbol in Freemasonry) that is depicted on the back of the $1.00 bill below the Illuminati “All Seeing Eye,” states clandestinely that The United States of America is controlled by the Masonic (Illuminati) Shadow Government.

Revelation 13:18
New American Standard Bible (©1995)
Here is wisdom. Let him who has understanding calculate the number of the beast, for the number is that of a man; and his number is six hundred and sixty-six.

GOD’S WORD® Translation (©1995)
In this situation wisdom is needed. Let the person who has insight figure out the number of the beast, because it is a human number. The beast’s number is 666.

King James Bible
Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six.

American Standard Version
Here is wisdom. He that hath understanding, let him count the number of the beast; for it is the number of a man: and his number is Six hundred and sixty and six.


Freemasonry is the largest international secret society in the world, with more than 6 million members. It is an all-male organization whose principles are explained as “brotherly love, relief and truth.” “What makes Masonry so influential is the fact that of its many millions of members so many occupy leadership positions around the world. In our own country there is nearly always a significant percentage of Masons on the White House staff and in the Cabinet, Senate, Congress, Supreme Court, and Pentagon, as well as in top business management.” (Dave Hunt, Global Peace and the Rise of the Antichrist, pp. 158-59.)

Freemasonry secretly fosters ecumenism and quietly prepares its members to accept and be part of the coming new world order. Freemasonry promotes the idea that there are many ways to God in contrast to what Jesus said, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” (John 14:6).

In Carl Claudy’s book, “Introduction to Freemasonry” (1931), he writes, “In his private petitions a man may petition God or Jehovah, Allah or Buddha, Mohammad or Jesus; he may call upon the God of Israel or the Great First Cause. In the Masonic Lodge he hears petitions to the Great architect of the Universes (Depending upon local religious preference there may be a King James Bible, the Koran, of some other book considered holy. This tends to lead the uninformed to believe that the god referenced in the holy book is the one being worshiped, This is not true.), finding his own deity under that name. A hundred paths may wind upward around a mountain; at the top they meet.”

This tolerance of all religions is further clarified, “Masonry does not specify any God of any creed; she requires merely that you believe in some Deity, give him what name you will … any god will do …” Albert Pike, former Supreme Pontiff of Universal Freemasonry, likewise exults: “Masonry [is that religion] around whose altars the Christian, the Hebrew, the Moslem, the Brahman [Hindu], the followers of Confucius and Zoroaster, can assemble as brethren and unite in prayer…” (Albert Pike, Morals and Dogma of the Ancient and Accepted Scottish Rite of Freemasonry (Charleston, SC, The Supreme Council of the 33rd Degree for the Southern Jurisdiction of the United States, 1906), pg. 226.)

Consider this quote from a more contemporary Masonic thinking, taken from the current manual of instruction used by Masons in the state of Kentucky (Kentucky Monitor by Henry Pirtle, pg. 95): “Masonry makes no profession of Christianity … but looks forward to the time when the labor of our ancient brethren shall be symbolized by the erection of a spiritual temple … in which there shall be but one altar and one worship; one common altar of Masonry on which the Veda, Shastras, Sade, Zend-Avesta, Koran, and Holy Bible shall lie untouched by sacrilegious hands, and at whose shrine the Hindu, the Persian, the Assyrian, The Chaldean, The Egyptian, the Chinese, The Mohammedan, the Jew, and the Christian may kneel and with one united voice celebrate the praises of the Supreme Architect of the Universe.”

Masonry clearly teaches salvation through all religions, whereas the Bible teaches there is salvation in only one name under Heaven – the name of Jesus (Acts 4:12). Masonry focuses on “The Great Architect of the Universe” who can be defined any way the worshiper wants to define him. (Dr. David R. Reagan, “Should A Christian Be A Mason?,” Bible Prophecy Insights, No. 25, November 1992.)

Freemasons Included
Black, Hugo L.; Blair, Jr., John; Blatchford, Samuel; Baldwin, Henry; Burton, Harold H.; Byrnes, James F.; Catton, John; Clark, Thomas C.; Clarke, John H.; Cushing, William; Devanter, Willis Van; Douglas, William O.; Ellsworth, Oliver; Field, Stephen J.; Harlan, John M.; Jackson, Robert H.; Lamar, Joseph E.; Marshall, John – Chief Justice U.S. Supreme Court 1801 – 1835;
Marshall S.C.J., Thurgood – 1967-1991. Associate Justice appointed by Pres. Lyndon B. Johnson. Confirmed Mason. Marshall is listed in 10,000 Famous Freemasons as having been a director and counselor or the Prince Hall Grand Master Conference, and a 33rd degree Scottish Rite Mason. – Roe vs. Wade’s Dirty Little Secret. Mathews, Stanley; Minton, Sherman; Moody, William H.; Nelson, Samuel; Paterson, William; Pitney, Mahlon; Reed, Stanley F.; Rutledge, Wiley B.; Stewart, Potter; Swayne, Noah H.; Todd, Thomas; Trimble, Robert; Vinson, Frederick M.; Warren, Earl; Woodbury, Levi; Woods, William B.;

Judges Must Declare Masonic Link – February 25, 1998: National News
The London Telegraph reported that British Judges, magistrates and police officers will in future have to declare whether they are freemasons, Jack Straw announced last week.
The Home Secretary said he would ask the United Grand Lodge to publish regional lists of Freemasons who work in the criminal justice system. If it refuses to co-operate, a register will be set up in which masons will have to declare that they belong to lodges.
Although the register will at first be voluntary, Mr Straw said the Government was prepared to change the law to force employees to declare their membership. The rules will also apply to Crown prosecutors, probation officers and prison staff.
Mr Straw said the Government wanted to put an end to allegations that a network of Freemasons operating in the police and judiciary was undermining justice. “Membership of secret societies such as freemasonry can raise suspicions of a lack of impartiality or objectivity,” he said. “It is, therefore, important that the public knows the facts.”
Judges reacted furiously to the decision. Lord Justice Millet, who is a Freemason, told the BBC: “It questions the integrity of judges for no good reason.”

The Good Reason: Freemasons and offshoot organizations are sworn to lie, even to commit perjury, in order to protect a brother – regardless of crime committed.

Famous Masons:
Buckley, Jr., William Frank – 1950
Bush, Derek C. – 1967
Bush, James S. – 1922
Bush, Jonathan J.- 1953
Bush, Prescott Sheldon – 1917
McAfee, William Andrew – 1982
Moorhead, William S. – 1906
Morehead, William S. -1945
Northrop, Cyrus – 1857
Northrop, Birdsey G.
Northrup, Robert Smitter 1960
Pershing, Richard Warren – 1966
Rockefeller, – Percy Avery – 1900
Schlesinger, Daniel Adam – 1977
Taft, Alphonso (Founding Bonesman) – 1833
Tiffany, William Henry – 1840
Walker III, George Herbert – 1953
Walker Jr., George Herbert – 1927
Weyerhaeuser, Frederick Edward – 1896

Other well known Masons:
Some Astronauts:
Edwin “Buzz” Aldrin, Gordon Cooper, Donn Eisle, John Glenn, Concord Lodge No.688 Concord, OH, Virgil “Gus” Grissom, James Irwin, Edgar Mitchell, Walter Schirra, Thomas Stafford, Paul Weitz.

American founders:
Benjamin Franklin (1706-1790), American printer i.1731, St. John’s Lodge, Philadelphia, PA
William F. Cody (1846-1917), r. Platte Valley Lodge No. 15, Nebraska [15]
David Crockett (1786-1836), [15]
Kit Carson, (1809/12/24-1868/04/23) Montezuma Lodge 109, Taos, New Mexico [15], [14]
Gilbert Lafayette [5]
Sam Houston (1793-1863), i.1817, Cumberland Lodge No. 8, Nashville TN [15]
Paul Revere (1735-1818), 1794-97, Grand Master, Massachusetts [15]
George Washington (1732-1799), Master, Alexandria Lodge No. 22

Some Military:
W.R. “Wop” May, Douglas MacArthur, Lord Heratio Nelson, Montcalme, James Wolfe, Lord Mountbatten, Viscount Kitchner, Teddy Roosevelt Jr., Eddy Rickenbacker, John Pershing

Some Business:
Henry Ford, Walter F Chysler, Victor M. Dupont, John David Eaton, King Gillette, Charles Hilton, Fredrick Maytag, Charles Woodward, John Molson, William Ziegler, William H. Lever. Other:
Sir Winston Churchill, Confirmed Mason, and a Druid., Sir Alexander Flemming, Alexandre Eieffel, Samuel Colt, Barry Goldwater, J. Edgar Hoover, Rev. Jesse Jackson, Geroge McGovern

Art / Literature / Musicians / Entertainment:
Robert Burns, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, Samuel Clemens (Mark Twain), Rudyard Kipling, Norman Vincent Peale – Quotations, Sir Walter Scott, Oscar Wilde, Ludwig Van Beethoven, George M. Cohen, Nat King Cole, Edward “Duke” Ellington, Wolfgang A Mozart, Ernest Borgnine, Bud Abbott, Mel Blanc, Charles Coburn, Cecil B. DeMille, W.C. Fields, Peter Sellers, Glenn Ford, Clark Gable, Harry Houdini, Harpo Marx, Audie Murphy, Red Skelton, Will Rodgers, Roy Rodgers, Gordon Sinclair, Danny Thomas, John Wayne, Johnathan Winters

Ty Cobb, Jack Dempsey, Tim Horton, Arnold Palmer, Sugar Ray Robinson, Whipper Billy Watson

Famous African American Freemasons:
Chaka Fattah – U.S. Congressman, Member of Light of Elmwood Lodge #45
Robert Abbott -Founder of the Chicago Defender
Richard Allen-Founder/first Bishop of the A.M.E. Church
Alexander T. Augusta-First African-American to head a hospital in the U.S.
Marion Barry-Mayor of Washington, D.C..
William “Count” Basie-Orchestra leader/composer.
James J.G. Bias-Founder of the Philadelphia Vigilance Committee.
Henry Blair-First Black to receive a U.S. patent.
James Herbert “Eubie” Blake-Composer/pianist.
Edward Bouchet-First Black to be elected to the Phi Beta Kappa Society.
William Wells Brown-First Black to publish a novel.
Nathaniel “Nat King” Cole-Singer.
Ossie Davis-Actor/director/playwrite.
Martin R. Delany-First Black to matriculate from Havard Medical School/first Black Major in the U.S. Army.
W.E.B. DuBois-Educator/author/historian.
Alexander Dumas-Author.
Edward Kennedy “Duke” Ellington-Orchestra leader/composer.
Medgar Wiley Evers-Civil Rights leader.
James Forten-Abolitionist/manufacturer.
Timothy Thomas Fortune-Journalist.
Marcus Garvey-Founder of the United Negro Improvement Association.
Alex Haley-Author.
William C. Handy /Composer.
Matthew Henson-Explorer.
Benjamin L. Hooks-Former Executive Director of the N.A.A.C.P..
Jesse Jackson-Founder of the Rainbow Coalition and Operation Push.
Maynard Jackson-first black mayor of Atlanta.
John H. Johnson-Publisher of Ebony and Jet magazines.
Jack Johnson-First Black heavyweight boxing champion in U.S..
Absalom Jones-First Black Priest in the Episcopal Church in U.S..
Dr. Ernest Everett Just-A founder of Omega Psi Phi and renowned zoologist.
Don King-Boxing promoter.
Lewis Howard Lattimer-Inventor of the carbon filament for light.
Thurgood Marshall-Former Associate Justice, U.S. Supreme Court.
Benjamin E. Mays-former president of Morehouse College.
Leon M’Ba- First President of the Republic of Gabon.
Kweisi Mfume-Executive Director of the N.A.A.C.P..
Eliajah Muhammed-Founder of the Nation of Islam.
Richard Pryor-Comedian/actor.
Alexander Pushkin-Poet/novelist/play-write.
A. Philip Randolph-Founder and first president of the International Brotherhood of Sleeping Car Porters.
Charles Rangel-U.S. Congressman.
Joseph Jenkins Roberts-First President of the Republic of Liberia.
“Sugar”Ray Robinson-Former mid/light heavyweight boxing champion.
Arthur A. Schomburg-Historian/author.
Rev. Al Sharpton-Civil Rights advocate.
Carl B. Stokes-First Black Mayor of Cleveland, Oh..
Louis Stokes-Former U.S. Congressman.
David Walker-Author of “David Walker’s Appeal.
Booker T. Washington-Educator and Founder of the Tuskegee Institute.
Daniel Hale Williams-First surgeon to perform open heart surgery.
Bert Williams-Actor/comedian
Granville T. Woods-Inventor.
Andrew Young-Former Mayor of Atlanta and U.N. Ambassador.
Lawrence Douglas s Wilder – The first Black elected governor in this country from Virginia..

Benjamin Franklin, born in Boston. Was one of the diplomats chosen to negotiate peace with Great Britain, and who helped draft the Declaration of Independence, one of the 56 who signed this document, and was instrumental in achieving the adoption of the U.S. Constitution. Was also a Mason. Franklin was the Grand Master of the Grand Lodge of Pennsylvania and published the first Masonic book in America. Was also a member of Sir Francis Dashwood’s Hell Fire Club, along with the Collins family of Satanist’s. Both Franklin and Thomas Jefferson were members of this purely Satanic group who practiced satanic sexual occult rituals.
Remains of “Ten Bodies Found Under Ben Franklin’s Home” – Workmen have dug up the remains of ten bodies hidden beneath the former London home of Benjamin Franklin, the founding father of American Independence.
The remains of four adults and six children were discovered during the 31.9 million restoration of Franklin’s home at 36 Craven Street, close to Trafalgar Square. Researchers believe that there could be more bodies buried beneath the basement kitchens.
Initial estimates are that the bones are about 200 years old and were buried at the time Franklin was living in the house, which was his home from 1757 to 1762, and from 1764 to 1775. Most of the bones show signs of having been dissected, sawn or cut. One skull has been drilled with several holes. Paul Knapman, the Westminster coroner, said yesterday: “1 cannot totally discount the possibility of a crime. There is still a possibility that I may have to hold an inquest.”

I do not know what your perception is on the secret nature of many of our top officials, but one thing is certain: the fact that we do not know the entirety of their allegiances is a very frightening thing.

Assassinations of JFK, Robert Kennedy, Abraham Lincoln, James Garfield, William McKinley, as well as attempts to assassinate Andrew Jackson, and Ronald Regan are all presidents who were against the central bank charters and wanted the gold standard in currency. These assassinations have a very close relationship to the conspiracy of centralized bank control.

Presidents who opposed the Banks

General George Washington (1732-1799) who is credited with being the “Father of the Nation” for winning his Nation’s war of Independence from the British.

General Andrew Jackson (1767-1845). A hero of the War of 1812 for defeating a superior British force at the Battle of New Orleans, Jackson was put into power to defeat the establishment of a Central Bank that was supported by President John Quincy Adams (1767-1848) and was feared would split the Nation.

Of the danger facing the United States should a Central Bank be allowed to gain control of the US economy Jackson warned:
“The bold effort the present (central) bank had made to control the government … are but premonitions of the fate that await the American people should they be deluded into a perpetuation of this institution or the establishment of another like it. I am one of those who do not believe that a national debt is a national blessing, but rather a curse to a republic; inasmuch as it is calculated to raise around the administration a moneyed aristocracy dangerous to the liberties of the country.”

Directly to President Adams and the other Central Bank supporters Jackson said directly:

“Gentlemen, I have had men watching you for a long time and I am convinced that you have used the funds of the bank to speculate in the breadstuffs of the country. When you won, you divided the profits amongst you, and when you lost, you charged it to the bank. You tell me that if I take the deposits from the bank and annul its charter, I shall ruin ten thousand families. That may be true, gentlemen, but that is your sin! Should I let you go on, you will ruin fifty thousand families, and that would be my sin! You are a den of vipers and thieves.”

Adams was enraged at his and the Central Banks defeat by Jackson and refused to attend his inauguration. To his dying day Adams retained a great hatred of this president and as a Member of the United States House of Representatives (the only American President to serve in this body after leaving office.) cast the only “no” vote on a law to give medals to the US Military officers who had served in the Mexican-American War (1846-1848). Immediately after casting his vote Adams collapsed and died two days later.

General Ulysses S. Grant (1822-1885), who like Jackson before him was put into power to defeat those forces attempting to create a Central Bank said needed due to the United States massive debts incurred from their Civil War (1861-1865) and opposed by President Abraham Lincoln (1809-1865), who said:

“The government should create, issue, and circulate all the currency and credit needed to satisfy the spending power of the government and the buying power of consumers. The privilege of creating and issuing money is not only the supreme prerogative of government, but it is the government’s greatest creative opportunity. The financing of all public enterprise, and the conduct of the treasury will become matters of practical administration. Money will cease to be master and will then become servant of humanity.”

Upon President Lincoln’s assassination by those forces advocating a Central Bank he was succeeded by President Andrew Johnson (1808-1875) who, like Lincoln before him, opposed those European forces [the Rothschild’s banking family alone was reported to have lost nearly $50 million in support of the Confederacy.] attempting to take control of the American economy and in further “outrages” against them forgave the Southern States of their debts, granted unconditional amnesty to all Confederate Soldiers, freed all remaining slaves in the United States, and paid back the Russian Empire for its blocking of a North American invasion by British and French forces by purchasing Alaska for $7.2 million.

For President Johnson’s continued opposing the aims of the Central Bankers he was greatly weakened by two attempts to impeach him from office [In 1926 the US Supreme Court ruled the basis for those impeachment attempts as unconstitutional.] thus necessitating the need to put General Grant in power.

Chester A. Arthur (1829-1886) who was also the first non-military member of the order to ascend to the Presidency but did so through the rules of primogeniture (right of first born) granted to him as the direct descendant of maternal grandfather and Revolutionary War leader Uriah Stone and was “established in place” to take power upon the assassination by these European bankers of President James A. Garfield (1831-1881).

President Garfield warned of the dangers to America should these Central Bankers ever gain power by stating shortly before his death in 1881, “Whoever controls the money of a nation, controls that nation and is absolute master of all industry and commerce. When you realize that the entire system is very easily controlled, one way or another, by a few powerful men at the top, you will not have to be told how periods of inflation and depression originate.”

William McKinley (1843-1901) whose membership in the order was granted under their rules of primogeniture through his grandfather and American Revolutionary War hero David McKinley, and who by his own right had distinguished himself as a hero in the Civil War.

President McKinley began his attack against the Central Bankers with his ally and Secretary of State John Sherman (1823-1900) whose connection his older brother and Civil War here General William Tecumseh Sherman (1820-1891). The legal tool used by President McKinley and Sherman against the European bankers was the law known as the “Sherman Antitrust Act” which was first brought to bear against the Rothschild supported and funded JP Morgan financial empire known as the Northern Trust who by the late 1800′s owned nearly all of America’s railroads.

Shortly after President McKinley began his attack against the Central Bankers he was assassinated (1901) allowing his Vice President Theodore “Teddy” Roosevelt (1858-1919) to take power. Upon the Rothschild backed “and paid for” President Roosevelt taking office one of Roosevelt’s first acts was to drop the United States government lawsuits against the Northern Trust and accelerate the American age known as “Manifest Destiny” which continues to this day and basically gives these Central Bankers the “power” to plunder the entire World for profit and gain above all else.

The last chance to thwart the European plan to establish a Central Bank in the United States ended on April 14, 1912 with the deliberate sinking of the RMS Titanic by British agents that killed one of the orders members named Major Archibald Willingham Butt (1865-1912) along with the American business tycoons John Jacob Astor IV, Benjamin Guggenheim and Isidor Straus who were returning to the United States from Great Britain after what they believed was a successful “negotiation” with the Rothschild’s to “leave America alone” under “threat of war”

With the last “obstacles” removed from creating a Central Bank in the United States with the sinking of the Titanic the European banking powers forced through the American legal system what is known as the Federal Reserve Act of 1913 which once enacted (and remains to this day) became the sole and complete authority over the United States economy forcing the American people into two World Wars and countless other conflicts during the past 97 years all designed with one single purpose, to create for Europe’s royal families a “New World Order” controlled by them.

General Dwight David “Ike” Eisenhower (1890-1969), who was “appalled” over his Nations defacto surrender to Nazi German forces during World War II in order to obtain the atomic bomb Hitler was ready to use against them, and the deliberate murder of his close friend General George S. Patton (1885-1945) who upon his learning that Europe’s royal “powers” had delivered the atomic bombs secrets to the Soviet Union was ready to march against them.

Both Eisenhower and Patton, Sons of the American Revolution, were especially enraged over President Harry Truman’s (1884-1972) dropping of two atomic bombs on Japan.

President John F. Kennedy (1917-1963) with the election the country’s fortunes neared victory when on June 4, 1963 President Kennedy issued Executive Order 1110 which for the first time since 1913 returned to the United States government the power to issue currency, without going through the Federal Reserve (Central Bank).

Five months later, on November 22, 1963, President Kennedy was brutally assassinated while sitting by the side of his wife in a Dallas, Texas motorcade, an event so shocking that has continually been talked about through the ages.

The following material was excerpted from sources not prevalent to main stream media.  It was taken from an article entitled The Secret History of America.  I found some of it to be very interesting, yet I have not completely sourced this information so read on with caution.

Do you believe in a GRAND CONSPIRACY ? Do you believe Oswald acted alone?  Do you believe that government is corrupt? If so, then to what DEGREE?  That may depend on how willing you are to open your eyes and mind to SEE. Why is it that the more things change, the more they stay the same?  Why doesn’t society ever seem to grow up ? Most people grow up thinking that the world is very big and we believe the world exists the way it does today because this is the direction humanity has taken and chosen.

The road that we are taking as a nation in America and as a human race on the planet Earth is being paved for us in advance and sold to us for a profit.

Many people talk about conspiracies such as WATERGATE, IRAN-CONTRA,THE S & L (Savings and Loan) SCANDAL, THE FEDERAL RESERVE, OCTOBER SURPRISE, KENNEDY, THE FREEMASONS, THE COUNCIL ON FOREIGN RELATIONS and THE TRILATERAL COMMISSION, and even GREY ALIENS, but very few people know the real facts enough to explain them because they are not researched themselves.  As information comes down the pipeline it becomes distorted and confused because most of the people passing along the information do not know the entire story, they have not researched much information themselves, and  they tend to be biased as well.  (They tend to have an angle in the information they put out, usually because they have an ulterior motive. )  I can only state from research of seven years, WHAT I BELIEVE to be the TRUTH based on mostly HARD FACTS.

For AT LEAST five- to ten thousand years, mankind has been aware of MORE scientific and spiritual facts than we are currently aware of today as a great society and nation.  The libraries of Alexandria, which held the collection of the world’s greatest knowledge, existed in Egypt thousands of years ago.  The Essenes were just one secret sect of Gnostics (Knowledge Holders) that existed around two thousand years ago.  Since the earliest times of Pagan groups and Nature religions, the SUN has been considered a SYMBOL for LIFE.  The Ancients believed that when the SUN gave off it’s energy, it was giving IT’S life for US.  They believed that the SUN of GOD, the LIGHT of the WORLD is ALL SALVATION because He has RISEN.  He is therefore our ETERNAL SAVIOR.  There has always been a struggle between LIGHT and DARK forces in the world.  When the SUN goes down and it becomes DARK, we cannot SEE.  We naturally fear what we do not know and since we cannot SEE in the DARK, we do not know what’s there and we fear.  When the SUN would SET (Satan), it would get DARK.  But when the SUN was on the HORIZON (Horus, translates to Jesus), it would be called THE SAVIOR.  This formed the basis for early Christianity.

The Essenes, as well as other secret societies around the times were PRIESTHOODS, so the early CHURCH was an established KNOWLEDGE CENTER with IDEAS ENCODED SYMBOLICALLY into religious text.  After time, symbols lose their meaning except to those whom are INITIATED.  Essentially, they held knowledge of ARCHETYPAL ENERGIES that bond or link Spirit to matter.  These energies are expressed in mathematics and Greek Gematria called SACRED GEOMETRY.  The word OCCULT means HIDDEN.  They took the knowledge, hid it, and made it appear to be EVIL, so that they would know it, we wouldn’t, and they could then control us a lot easier.  This allowed an early guild of bricklayers, or MASONS, to be established, making it possible to build great pyramids, etc.  Now, if everybody knew how to build a pyramid, then not only would the Pharaoh’s tomb be no greater than Joe neighbor’s cottage, but the Masons would also lose a lot of money building great castles and churches throughout Europe.  This was the basis for early CAPITALISM, but we will discuss this later.

SACRED MUSHROOM ingesting and CANNABIS-smoking shamans are tribe spirit leaders in a sense and they practice inducing a state of consciousness in warrior tribesmen to temporarily replace their consciousness with animal consciousness to perform certain tasks or learn spiritual lessons or principles.  There were special groups of assassin cults that were trained in earlier times using substances like hashish and they were called “Hashishans” or “Assassins”.  Although these two practices are not identical, they are similar and related.  While the first example may be considered early natural mind control in the sense of learning to control your own mind, the second example could be considered manipulative mind control in the sense that the participants were trained under hallucinogens to kill for God or “Allah”.

The Assassins, as well as a society called The Order of Lady of Sion appeared at the same time around 1090 AD.  Out of The Order of Lady of Sion came Notre Dame de Sion and five out of nine of the founders of the KNIGHTS TEMPLAR came from this order.  The Templars and Assassins had interlocking affairs and philosophies.  They also had ongoing fights as well as commercial dealings.  The Templars pronounced vows to poverty and in the meantime amassed great fortunes for the church (really themselves), and were responsible for financing the Crusades and other bloody religious wars.  They were also some of the first to set up banks in Jerusalem.  These were Temple Banks which occasionally were raided for their gold.  This forced the Templars to develop branch banking, or, putting your money in several places so it doesn’t all get taken at once.  This is where the idea of a central bank and it’s local branches comes from, which became the model for banking in Europe and America.  The Knights Templar became more popular when they were exposed in the fourteenth century and banished by the king.  Jacques de Moley was burned at the stake for being a homosexual and a heretic.  A portion of the Templar’s wealth was seized by the king and handed over to their sister society, called the Knights Hospitalers, who were a branch of the Templars responsible for medical facilities in the kingdom.  There is evidence to suggest that the Templars may have carried themselves on as the Rosicrucians for the next couple of centuries. This really doesn’t matter too much, though, because all of these orders or secret societies are offshoots of other ones.  They are all Masonic in nature because of the nature of the information which they possess.

The same secret societies and old European bloodline families are in control of the world today.  To better understand what they do, we need to look at their philosophies and ideas.  One motto of theirs is “Ordo ab Chao” or “order out or chaos”.  First they create CHAOS, then they propose the solution, ORDER, secretly from behind the scenes to control a given situation.  There are different areas of Freemasonry and it is all a hierarchy of power.  Occasionally, Masonic groups will work against each other in the public forum through the agencies which they control, but they may be united behind the scenes.  You will see examples of what I mean very soon.

The first Masonic lodges by that name appeared in England in the 1600’s and within a century they were spread throughout most of Europe, including Germany and France and the colonies of early America.  One of the purposes they served was as a forum for the elite individuals to meet and discuss their political and social views without fear of religious persecution.  Remember, just a couple of centuries earlier under Rome in the Dark Ages, they would kill you if you didn’t believe that the moon was made of green cheese.  In Rome, they realized that they could not rule the world by themselves and that they would need a consensus of nations or a United Kingdom and United Nations.  The symbol for Fascism is a bundle of sticks wrapped together with a hatchet or an axe tied to it.

It represents a world consensus of power or AXIS POWER.  It appears on the U. S. Senate flag today and on the back of the American mercury dime from 1916 to 1945.  While there were several enlightened societies around calling themselves illuminated, it was on May 1, 1776 that Professor Adam Weishaupt put together a secret society called The “ILLUMINATI”.  It’s sole purpose secretly was to control the world.  Weishaupt was a genius of a particular sort as far as scheming and manipulation are concerned.  He was a respected teacher at the University of Ingolstadt at the time and had many connections in education.  He became a Mason but was also a Jesuit priest.  He learned as much as he could and decided to put his own secret society together.  He used a process of initiation and power dissemination among ranks similar to the structure of a pyramid, where one sole individual or group at the top know what’s going on but no one else really does, they only know a little until they succeed up the ranks and learn only a little more.  In the meantime, they don’t know who is watching them or above them keeping them in check.

In the highest circles of the order they propose to control the world through a One-world government, which they stated they could do by converting existing Masons to concepts of Illuminism.  Weishaupt told them about the Utopia that could be established on Earth if everyone who KNEW would secretly work together to bring about this plan.  Being free-thinkers and atheists to begin with, they proposed abolishing religion, government, orders of class, right to own property, or even raise your own children; and they believed that the ENDS justified the MEANS, meaning that whatever it takes to accomplish this task should be done WITHOUT HESITATION.  Within two years they had over 3000 members and many established lodges.  Within several years they were exposed and banished from Bavaria.  The documents were recovered and displayed in the British museum where they exist today.  This is an important historical fact that has been severely covered up in America.  They continued to exist, however, in the form of the German Union and scattered Reading Societies.  Through their combined fortunes, the members of the Illuminati gained control over the literary societies and printing press.  They circulated printed papers showing falsities of religion and abuses of government and promoted a general state of desperation throughout society, all the while blaming it on religion and government.  They sought to promote ANARCHY and REVOLUTION, whereby they would strip the monarchy (king) of power using the classes (people) as a lever to ultimately bring power back into their own hands, all the while creating new forms of government which would be puppets they could secretly control from behind the scenes.

In Germany, the lodges which preceded the Illuminati were the Lodge Theodore and the Lodge of Strict Observance.  In France they were known as the GRAND ORIENT TEMPLE MASONS.  Their motto was “LIBERTY, EQUALITY, FRATERNITY”.  In 1789, they beheaded the King and Queen of France and orchestrated what was historically known as the French Revolution.  This was only the first of several revolutions to come.  Weishaupt had succeeded in grabbing the existing reigns of power in both Europe and America, entwining them together using new philosophical concepts, and tightening all of the existing slack.

In 1797, a book appeared in Europe by John Robison called “Proofs of A Conspiracy against all of the Religions and Governments of Europe, Carried on in the Secret Meetings of Freemasons, Illuminati and Reading Societies”.  Then in 1799, written in another country and in another language, Abbe Augustine Barruel published his four-volume study entitled “Memoirs Illustrating the History of Jacobinism”.  Then in 1826, William Morgan, an American Freemason who had written a book entitled “Illustrations of Freemasonry”, was abducted and drowned in Lake Ontario.  Because of the existence of these books, as well as the murder scandal, there was a nationwide furor resulting in the creation of an Anti-Masonic political party in 1829.  After this there was a temporary drop in membership in the lodges, but their control over the press soon caused the anger to diminish.

There is what is called the “Colombian” faction of the Illuminati which came over to America early on.  The documents that were recovered in Germany showed that the symbol for the Illuminati society was the PYRAMID and the EYE IN THE CAPSTONE as shown on the back of the ONE-DOLLAR BILL.  The symbol for Columbia Broadcasting System (CBS) is the ALL-SEEING EYE.  The U. S. is located in the District of Columbia.  There is Columbia University, and the Columbia space shuttle.

The Americas have been called the New World since Columbus, however, Columbus did not come here first.  There had already been a “New England Charter” and a colony established twenty years before he arrived.  In America in the east, we have the area of NEW ENGLAND, where the first colonies were established.  The eventual American Revolution wasn’t actually a real revolution.  The Founding Fathers (Masons), did not go to war with their parents, the monarchy of England.  There are many prominent American Presidents who are related to strong European bloodlines and great wealth.  When the YORK Rite Masons of York, England, came over here, they settled on the East coast and declared it NEW YORK.   Then they went to work to build the “Empire State”.  In New York sits the Statue of “LIBERTY”, given to us by FRANCE, holding up the Masonic torch of ENLIGHTENMENT.  The highest degrees of Freemasonry are the 32nd and 33rd degree.

On the back of the dollar bill, on the Great Seal of the U. S. , there are 32 feathers on the right wing of the eagle and 33 on the left.  Underneath the pyramid, the Latin term “Novus Ordo Seclorum” means “New World Order”.  It has appeared on the dollar bill since 1933.

Karl Marx and Frederick Engels were students of Weishaupt and Illuminism.  The 10 platforms that make up COMMUNISM are identical to the goals of the ILLUMINATI.  The Communist Manifesto appeared in 1848 and Communism formed itself as a solid revolutionary movement in Russia in the early 1900’s, in the form of the Bolshevik Revolution.

One particular group of families made up of the Russell’s and the Piertpont’s founded several scholastic institutions, two of which were Yale and Princeton.  Rev. James Piertpont and Rev. Nodiah Russell CO-founded Yale in 1701.  In 1832, Gen. William Huntington Russell and Alfonso Taft, grandfather of William Howard Taft, former President of the U.S., founded a secret society at Yale called SKULL AND BONES, or “The Brotherhood of Death”.  Gen. Huntington’s brother-in-law, Samuel Russell, founded “Russell and Co.”,  the world’s largest opium smuggling syndicate at the time.  This provided them with a huge fortune in the millions.  The founders and later influential graduates of Skull and Bones studied philosophy and other subjects in Germany where many prominent “Illuminated” teachers were working.  Probably the most influential family in this power circle throughout the last century has been the Harriman family.   Edward H. Harriman amassed over $60 million in the late 1800’s in a swift stock deal involving Union Pacific Railroad and Kuhn Loeb.  (1904 Northern Securities case)  William Averall Harriman, his son, graduated Yale in the Skull and Bones Fraternity in 1913.  Averall Harriman controlled Harriman and Co. which owns Brown Bros. and Harriman, the world’s largest private investment bank.  Prescott Bush, George Bush’s father was initiated and graduated in 1917.  Prescott Bush as well as some other Skull and Bones Graduates were directors of the bank.  These banks as well as Guaranty Trust and Union Banking Corp, all of which were controlled by Skull and Bones, were the most influential entities in building up the Soviet Union from the early times of the Bolshevik Revolution in the early 1900’s, through contracts to improve mining of raw materials and rebuilding of the RR transportation infrastructure.  These same banks were also directly responsible for financing Hitler’s rise to power and build up of Nazi- Socialism through contacts and subsidiary banks in Germany.

The PURPOSE for the build up of World Wars was to create a NEED for PEACE so that a UNITED NATIONS may be needed and then created as a SOLUTION for establishing peace between nations.  A WORLD body of GOVERNMENT with a WORLD COURT and a WORLD POLICE to keep nations in place and to concentrate power into a few people’s hands.  Who’s hands?  William Howard Taft, Skull and Bones graduate of 1878, helped found the American Society for the Judicial Settlement of International Disputes in 1920.  This soon became the League to Enforce the Peace, then the League of Nations and then finally The United Nations.  If you look at things from a historical perspective, the U.N. today has implemented or is in the process of implementing all the planks of Adam Weishaupt’s Manifesto.  When George Bush took us to war in the Persian Gulf, he stated boldly that he didn’t need the approval of Congress anymore to declare war because he had a U.N. Mandate.  We have sacrificed a large part of our U.S. sovereignty.  The U.N. has recently passed a Declaration of Children’s Right’s.  It is now a RIGHT of the child to receive vaccinations, which do more harm than good, and a parent doesn’t have the right to interfere.  Parents who interfere with the rights of a child or abuse a child or are accused of abuse can have their children taken by the state.  If you are seen spanking a child more than two or three times, the child abuse police will be unleashed against you.  This amounts to nothing more than a giant power transfer, from US to THEM.  The only way they can do this is by tricking us into thinking that we are so irresponsible that we cannot manage our own affairs and lives and that the state is better suited to raise our children.  If you still like the U.N. then wait until you get hit with the new U.N. TAX that is coming.

This brings us to the World Bank, the IMF (International Monetary Fund), both creations of the U.N., and banking in general.  In Switzerland there is a big building that is divided into 3 parts.  If you look at it from above it looks like a peace symbol or Rune.  This is the headquarters of the United Nations and the World Bank, the 3rd part is the World headquarters of Freemasonry.  It’s so convenient they can go back and forth between coffee breaks.  In Brussels, there is a computer called “The Beast” which stores the names and information of every person in the world and that was created years ago.  By now, it probably orbits the planet.  THE U.S. IS A CORPORATION located in the DISTRICT OF COLUMBIA and each CITIZEN IS A FRANCHISE OF THE U.S.  IDENTIFIED BY A SOCIAL SECURITY #.

One of the main influences of British Masonry comes to America in the area of Banking. Cecil

Rhodes made his fortune from diamond mines in South Africa. Millions and millions of dollars were secured and put into a trust in his will to be used to finance the creation of secret societies for the furtherance of Anglo-Saxon rulership in the New World Order and the eventual recapture of the U.S.

for England through the creation of a central bank in America. Cecil Rhodes formed what is called the “Rhodes Scholarship” at Oxford. There is also the Round Table in England put together by Alfred Milner. Bill Clinton is a Rhodes Scholar as well as other things. In Europe, at least at the time, the Rothschilds were the leading banking clan. Paul Warburg, an agent for the Rothschilds as well as several members of Skull & Bones were instrumental in setting up the Federal Reserve Central Banking system in America in 1913. President Andrew Jackson had stated that the central bankers were a den of vipers and thieves and he intended to drive them out of America in earlier times. He also

stated that if the American people understood the rank injustice of our banking system, there would be a revolution by morning. President Thomas Jefferson stated “If the Americanpeople ever allow the private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and the corporations that grow up around them will deprive the people of all property until their children wake up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered”. Abraham Lincoln took action against the central bank in his time and he was killed for it.

President Garfield was shot and killed shortly after declaring that whoever controls the supply of currency would control the business and activities of all people. Baron Nathan Mayer de Rothschild once said, “Let me issue and control a nations money and I care not who writes the laws”.

The measure of a nations wealth is the sum total of it’s goods, services, natural resources and private wealth. In early America, private wealth consisted mostly of gold or silver. This is a great monetary standard because it has inherent value. For a long time, gold was worth $20.00 an ounce.

A One-Ounce gold coin was a $20.00 piece. Our grandfathers and great grandfathers found it a hassle to carry these around during large transactions due to heavy weight and frequent robbery, so out of the kindness of their hearts, the bankers would allow people to leave their gold and silver on deposit, while the bank would issue a gold or silver certificate, a piece of paper that was as good as gold. It said on the bill, “Pay to bearer upon demand in gold or silver. So after the bankers started to issue these notes they saw after a while that the people were not using the gold as much and coming back to withdraw it and that they could issue and loan more notes than they had gold to back it up. This is the true source of inflation.  A short time later they replaced the gold and silver certificates with Federal reserve notes which are worthless.  Without the gold and silver, the real valuables, America was essentially bankrupt.  The Federal Reserve is a private corporation. When Federal Reserve notes are printed they are loaned to the U.S. Treasury or the people.  Notes that cost 2 cents each are printed by the Fed and loaned to the U.S. government at face value plus 8 1/2% interest compounded.  The interest is collected each year by the IRS (Repo Man), also a private corporation controlled by the Federal Reserve.  With a federal deficit of 4 trillion 8 hundred billion dollars so far, the interest is in the neighborhood of $200 Billion dollars, which is drained from the economy each year in the form of income taxes.  The words “Federal Reserve Note” first appeared on our paper currency in 1933.

It is common sense that if you are borrowing money from someone and you have to pay interest then where will the money come from to pay the interest?  If you have to borrow it then that creates more interest.  Obviously, in this situation, there is no way out.  However, coins are minted by the U.S. treasury and they are worth their face value as currency.  There is a clause written into the agreement that provides us with the option to buy back the right to issue our own currency.  The solution to the problem of the National Debt is to coin a 4 trillion dollar coin and use it to pay off the Federal Reserve.  It would have to be accepted and it could even be made out of copper nickel clad.  In 1963, President Kennedy passed an Executive Order calling for the printing of $450 Billion dollars in U.S. backed Debt-Free currency.  Shortly after, he was killed and as soon as his successor, Lyndon Johnson took office, the first thing he did was suspend the executive order and the printing of the currency.  If you look hard enough, you can find $2 bills from 1963 that say “U.S. Treasury” at the top instead of “Federal Reserve note”. 1964 was the last year silver was used as the standard coin metal and coincidentally Kennedy’s face first appeared on the half-dollar.  Now, 23 years later, silver is $5.00 per ounce instead of $1.  If you still don’t see how this works, just realize that 23 years later, you now need 5 times as much money (work) to buy the same ounce of silver and 60 years later, after they removed the gold, we have to pay 20 times as much money for the same ounce of gold. ($400.00 / ounce).  The moral of this little story is that we are being ripped off by the biggest “Sleight of Hand” money scam ever devised.  There is a Masonic term for this kind of deception, they call it “Hoodwinked”.  We are the sheep and we have had the wool pulled over our eyes.

It may appear to be a grand conspiracy where you may think that everyone knows what’s going on, or you may say that it is impossible for everyone to work together on such a large scale for so long and so secretly, but the truth is that not everybody knows everything.  Some people that are a part of the establishment only know a little and some don’t really have a clue, some just follow the money, but most that hold high degrees have a pretty good idea, if not a lot of knowledge about the inner workings of the conspiracy.

Big name families like the Rockefellers and J.P. Morgan, even in their time, were not the main financial powers in America.  They were highly paid agents, front-men and spokespeople.  Henry Ford resigned from the Ford Foundation citing an inability to maintain control over affairs.  The Rockefeller foundation ties into and controls the American Medical Association and the public educational system through textbook publishing.  The Rockefeller family got started with the help of the Harriman family, the Whitney’s (Eli Whitney’s family) and Standard Oil of New York (SONY), now Exxon.  They have a lot of influence, even today.

All of the founding fathers of this nation were Masons as well as almost all of the presidents.  The building of early American colonies as well as the American Revolution would not have been possible if it were not for a very special plant.  The Cannabis / Hemp plant was used throughout the world since the beginning of time for just about everything that mankind needed.  Paper made from hemp was used for books, bibles, maps, and money.  You can produce 4 times as much paper from an acre of hemp as you can from an acre of trees at 1/4 the cost, 1/5 the pollution, it is 10 times stronger and lasts up to 1000 years instead of only 50.  And it can be recycled 4 times as many times as paper from wood pulp.  The Constitution was printed on hemp paper as well as the first 3 drafts of the Declaration of Independence.  Even great sailing ships like the U.S.S. Constitution were made primarily out of hemp.  Hemp is the STRONGEST natural fiber on the planet.  Hemp is 26 times stronger than cotton and 10 times longer lasting.  The first Levi jeans were made out of hemp as well as all of the soldier’s clothes for the Revolutionary War.  It requires no chemicals to grow, has very few natural enemies, and grows in the widest variety of climates of any weed or plant.  It is also the FASTEST GROWING plant on the planet, growing 4 times faster than corn. The seeds from the hemp plant provide the highest source of complete vegetable protein of any food source on earth.  Even higher than soybeans.  It has also been re-realized lately that the hemp seed is the highest source of Essential Fatty Acids in the world.  ESSENTIAL, meaning :NECESSARY FOR LIFE, Fatty Acids are necessary for us and beneficial for cleaning the cholesterol out of the arteries naturally.  All oils in the supermarket are bad since they are placed in clear plastic containers and exposed to direct sunlight.  They become as bad as saturated fats, and end up CAUSING cholesterol buildup, leading to heart attacks, etc. Hemp seed oil can even be used as a machine-grade lubricant for engines and other machines replacing petroleum oil from the ground.

Henry Ford built his Ford Model-T using hemp to line the side panels.  The impact strength was 10 times stronger than steel alone. This would eliminate many vehicular deaths today.  The Model-T was also designed to run on hemp fuel which Henry Ford grew.  This was displayed in Popular Mechanics in Feb. of 1938.  Concentrated extracts of Cannabis from the flowers were the 2nd most used medicines in America for 150 years for over 100 separate medical illnesses.  It is probably the best natural medicine for Glaucoma, stress, and controlling nausea, and works very well for arthritis , asthma, and epilepsy.  It is estimated that Hemp would have at least 50,000 commercial uses if it were legal in America today.

The reason that Hemp is illegal in America today is because the main families in America (Masons), the Harrimans and Rockefellers (Standard Oil), the Whitneys (Eli Whitney-Cotton Gin), Dupont (Chemicals in wood pulp processing and cotton pesticides), and Hearst (Newspapers, Media) find it more profitable to sell us unnecessary chemicals, unneeded dug-up petroleum oil, immune system destroying pharmaceuticals, and axed up trees cut into real thin slices, all at over-inflated prices and at the expense of our health and living environment. For these companies, the real problem is that one cannot patent a natural plant.  Almost everything produced in America by large corporations is exported for sale on the world markets.  The total value of oil, petrochemicals, and pharmaceutical sales totals hundreds of billions of dollars. However, with the availability of over 50,000 new products and the necessity to manufacture them, America would be a much richer nation if the farmers and the average citizen were allowed to grow this valuable crop.

Right now, the power is concentrated in the hands of a few rich individuals like George Bush, for example, who’s legacy goes something like this :  Graduated Yale in the Skull and Bones fraternity in 1948, went into the Airforce, got shot down and was played up in the press as a war hero, becomes owner of Zapata Off-shore Oil , which controls a large fleet of oil tankers off the coast of Kuwait, becomes director of the CIA, working to introduce cocaine and heroin in large part to America, is made Director of Eli Lilly Pharmaceuticals by Dan Quayle’s Father (Lilly produces precursor chemicals used in cocaine production), sits on the board of First Interstate Bank, Puralator Shipping, and Texas Gulf (Fertilizers and pesticides to grow the Coca with and then spray on it to wipe some of it out), then becomes Vice-President and Drug Czar (During this time Cocaine influx into the U.S. increased by over 2000 %), declares war on the American people and the Bill of Rights through the militarization of a phony drug war, tricks Saddam Hussein with the help of the leaders of Kuwait, into attacking Iraq (The reason was Zapata Oil’s slant drilling from Kuwait into Iraqi territory) so that he could declare war under a U.N. Mandate, strengthen the U.N. and hike up oil prices, then before leaving office, signs into law a secret Telecommunications Bill requiring the switch-over of all Federal and Bank phone lines to Fiber Optic for the purpose of electronic funds transfer as required by law in the year 2000 when cash and checks will be no longer legal.  If that isn’t bad enough, he also has brothers and sons that are Skull and Bones members and they do politics as well.  Neil Bush (Silverado Savings and Loan Scam), there is Jeb Bush and there are several other Bush’s hiding in the BIG BUSH FAMILY.  It is probably no coincidence that the Harriman and Bush families both have a history in Eugenics or race purification and Genetic Selective Breeding. They will propagate their own young on the planet because they can afford it, while sitting back and deciding which countries can have how many children per family.

Population control and mind control are the methods used by the new Fascist Roman Capitalistic Empire.  Millions of people die around the world each year from debilitating diseases like cancer, AIDS, Leukemia and now flesh-eating strep and Ebola.  Does the Rockefeller-run American Medical Association (AMA) do everything it can to insure that doctors know the truth about health and do the most to insure the safety of the patient ? NO !

Let’s consider these facts.  Herbs have been around forever, they grow naturally and they have been used for healing for centuries.  Drugs are synthetic chemical reproductions sold by the large pharmaceutical corporations at highly inflated prices.  Doctors receive less than 3 hours of instruction on nutrition, eating right and preventative medicine in their entire 4-6 years of training.

Luis Pasteur, shortly before he died, stated that he was possibly mistaken about his germ theory.  He said that germs and viruses might be the result of the disease instead of the cause.  The way this could be explained is that the body overloads on toxic build-up and produces symptoms of stress, then necessary bacteria or viruses move in to scavenge the toxins, creating an abundance of these in the system, and leaving a super toxic waste by-product behind, which the body has a difficult time expelling.  Therefore the presence of the virus or high bacteria count is a result of the disease and not the cause.  A couple of very important things to realize when considering this possibility are : 1. A person does not need to be exposed to another individual  to come down with a cold.  People living in small communities with no outside exposure can come down with colds and disease.  2. People with no disease can sleep with people and exchange bodily fluids with people with HIV and not be infected. Considering these facts further weakens the Germ Theory of Disease.  If this information is true, then the introduction of prescription and pharmaceutical drugs would only serve to mask the symptoms of the problem and slowly destroy the immune system since these drugs are highly toxic.

There have been several cures for cancer and other diseases but these have been viciously suppressed by the establishment and pharmaceutical industry.  Some of these include Raymond Rife and the Rife Microscope, Harry Hoxsey, Cancell, Essiac, and Ozone. The latest and most promising information so far comes from a woman named Dr. Hulda Clark.  Her books and research have just been published this year.  She states that the age-long problem and cause of diseases are parasites, Worms in particular.  There is a worm, an intestinal fluke, which exists in most people throughout their lives. Generally, it is excreted by the body in the younger stages and does not grow into an adult in our bodies.  But, something different happens when substances like Benzene and Propyl Alcohol are abundant in our body.  These toxic chemicals are consumed in the form of carbonated sodas and extracts and they are absorbed into our skin in hair and body care products.  The abundance of propyl Alcohols break down the shells of the eggs allowing them to hatch early.

The build-up of these toxic substances weakens the immunity of certain organs or areas of the body (Thyroid, Lymph, skin), allowing worms to grow in these areas.  Dr. Clark has diagnosed hundreds of people with both Cancer and AIDS and found that all of them had both the worm present and the weakened immunity from one of these toxic sources.  She was also successful curing all of them with the three herbs that are necessary to kill the worms.  She does claim though that some people that are very close to death may be too far gone from the severe burden of over-toxicity.  We will see how long it takes for the general public to find out about this.  We have already spoken to people in different states that have used her methods successfully.  Even if people do find out about things one way or another, the average person will not even know that people are finding out about something because the media will not televise it and tell people certain things.

The biggest people in the media are members of the Council on Foreign Relations and Trilateral Commission, both creations of Skull and Bones and David Rockefeller.  The media is used to promote disinformation and propaganda.  The only way you can think the media doesn’t withhold information is if you don’t know what is REALLY going on.  Hitler said, in regard to propaganda and thought control, “The bigger the lie, the easier to believe”.  Sometimes it can be very difficult to discern the truth and find out what is really going on.  Your heart will tell you one thing and your intellect another and usually we get caught up believing what we want to believe because it’s too much trouble to see all the way through.

To one with an open mind, it would seem foolish to assume that we are alone in the universe.  In contrast, to one with a closed mind and a probable lack of spirituality, it would appear that reality is made up only of what we see and feel physically.  There is, at this time, a growing awareness on the planet that perhaps we are not alone.  Millions of people around the world claim to have seen unidentified flying objects, flying disks, bright lights, and fast moving objects that reflect advanced technology, that we, most people claim, could not possess.  Some people claim to have been abducted by GREY ALIENS and underwent childbearing and medical experiments only to have been returned somewhere unconscious with examination scars left behind.  Thousands of cattle mutilations have occurred in remote areas sometimes followed by sightings of flying disks or bright lights and occasionally black helicopters.  There has been a recent movie made about the crash and retrieval of a spaceship as well as bodies of several dead aliens in Roswell, New Mexico and it is suggested that the government might be covering up this entire situation for political or religious reasons.  UFO researchers were a very small group in the 1950’s and 60’s, but recently in the 1980’s and 90’s there has been an enormous increase in interest on the subject.

I was personally first introduced to this information in 1987 through info put out by Bill Cooper a little while before the first printing of “Behold a Pale Horse”.  I was very curious about the subject and read everything of quality that I could find.  There were less than 100 half-way decent books in print that you could find at the time.  Today, there are probably over 500.  I read the best books I could find by retired high ranking military officials, channeled material from Seth and The Ashtar Command, I learned about Billy Meier, Barbara Marciniak and the Pleadians material, Bob Lazaar, Area 51 and S-4 Dreamland in Las Vegas, listened to contactees discuss the Draco-Reptilian and Andromeda connection and watched Richard Hoagland bring out the “Face on Mars” info to the U.N. and the public.

If you take the sum total of the info that exists and put it into perspective, it would appear as though our race may have been seeded here by off-planet intelligences or that we were created as an intergalactic experiment, that huge 8-10 foot tall powerful Reptilian beings live at the core of the Earth, pilot advanced flying craft, read minds and plot to enslave mankind by using grey Zeta-Reticulans, who have no choice but to assist because their race is dying from genetic inbreeding and they need help and have no where else to go, and that they have the government under their control through genetic cloning and electronic implants.  It has even been proposed that members of the government are related to these aliens.  This may sound a little silly, but some people believe it might be true.  The positive side to this double edged sword is that the Pleadians are supposedly here to save us along with another group called the Arcturians.  They are supposedly here to assist us in our higher spiritual development and help us break out of our old 3rd dimensional physical reality into the 4th dimension or multi-dimensional reality.  All we have to do to receive their help is give up nuclear weapons, turn our lives to god and learn to live in peace.  Although these are good ideas they are easier said than done.

 Probably the best book I have read on the subject came to me recently after years of entertaining the idea of this possible reality of Aliens, gov. cover-ups, and so forth, all the while learning about secret societies and other related info.  The book is called “Space Aliens from the Pentagon” by William Lyne.  While the former reality may seem to be a little out of this world, the info presented in this book is a lot more down to Earth.  According to Mr. Lyne, the secret societies in America and abroad have harnessed a naturally occurring “Free Energy” and have possessed and suppressed this secret for at least 80-100 years.  Many people have heard of Albert Einstein and his Theory of Relativity (E=MC2).  Most would consider him a genius although it is known that he was a Grade School dropout.  Around the same time lived a man named Nikola Tesla.  He came to America in the early 1900’s as a scientist and inventor.  He was responsible for many great discoveries, but it is not mentioned in history very much.  He was responsible for Radio, Television, Fluorescent and Neon lighting, Helicopters, Lasers, Particle Beams and Alternating Current.  If you haven’t heard of him you should at least wonder why.  William Lyne is himself an inventor and scientist.  Mr. Lyne claims that when Tesla came to America, he had under his arm blueprints for possibly the world’s first FLYING SAUCER and it flew without the need for external energy.  He intended to present it to the Geneva Convention as a proposed solution for world peace and energy liberation.  He had theories of Magnetism and Anti-gravity as well as other forms of “Free Energy”.  The story goes that Einstein was working as a clerk at the Swiss Patent office at the time that Tesla was applying for his patents.  Alternating Current was in the position of putting DC out of business, which meant that Edison and Westinghouse would suffer.  J.P. Morgan, a Skull and Bones Banking Frontman, was financing Westinghouse and attempted to make arrangements to secure Tesla’s patents through con deals and contracts.

He used Einstein’s position at the patent office to rip off several of Tesla’s patents and then told him outright that since it would be difficult to collect money on this “Free Energy”, that it would not be used or promoted in society.  Instead, Einstein’s Theory of Relativity would prevail and Tesla’s Dynamic Theory of Gravity would be suppressed.  Today, it is impossible to locate some of Tesla’s earlier patents.  The Flying Saucer project was then moved out of the country to a secret joint German / American base near the South Pole called “Neu Shwabenland” or New Berlin, which was under the control of the Thule society, a secret society in Germany to which the SS belonged.  Here, the crafts were perfected and outfitted with the latest technology and design.  The Nazis created propaganda back home that Hitler was in touch with a Blond-haired, blue-eyed Aryan race of beings who communicated to him that he was chosen to lead the Germanic people.  There was a resurgence of Occultism in Germany at this time.  Hitler was into the occult and he was a master of propaganda.  Remember, he stated “The bigger the lie, the easier to sell to the public”, people believe what they want to believe  After W.W.II, during Operation Paperclip, hundreds of Nazi intelligence officers were secretly brought to America and given positions in the OSS (Office of Strategic Services), the forerunner to the CIA, supposedly to gain information on the Russians, our new enemy.  Along with the Nazis came the flying saucer project.

The project was brought to New Mexico, where it was worked on further.  Soon there were several sightings by people of mysterious flying objects and bright flying balls of light.  In 1944 and 45, there were newspaper reports about flying balls of light possibly being advanced Nazi aircraft.  They were called FOO-FIGHTERS. Then a couple of years later, in 1947, there was supposedly a flying saucer crash in the desert of Roswell, New Mexico, with advanced technology and even bodies of aliens recovered.  This was reported on the front page of the newspaper and then it was explained away as a weather balloon.  Within a few years science fiction films started coming out like crazy.  (The day the Earth Stood Still-about the threat of war and the necessity to make peace with ourselves and the aliens, and War of the Worlds-H.G. Wells, a British Intelligence Agent).

There was a time in America in the 1950’s, when it was trendy to wear alien antennas on your head or a Hat shaped like a flying saucer. This was the beginning of the first wave of American propaganda.  Then in the 1970’s, we had Star Wars, Close Encounters, Hanger 18, and eventually E.T.   T.V. movies like Alien Nation and “V” were shown to us and now Sightings, The X-files, and even Roswell the movie. There is a consistent theme that suggests the government is involved in a super high level cosmic Watergate cover-up.

William Lyne claims to have seen this entire drama evolve from a simple bungled crash recovery story to the elaborate present day theory mentioned before.  He basically says that this is the biggest “Free Energy Cover-up” scam ever perpetrated against the people of the world. Millions and millions of dollars are poured into an elaborate propaganda complex of Authors, Ph.D.’s, Ret. Military Officials and self proclaimed “Channelers” to distribute books and videos on these ideas.  They fund UFO expos, research groups like MUFON, and UFO magazines.  He even claims that he was offered money by the CIA to write phony scripts about being abducted by grey Zeta-Reticulans.  He claims to have many contacts himself, through his own family and relatives and friends from previous service in the Air Force, who have confirmed this info.  He claims the UFO expos are filled with disinformation agents.

Here are a couple of things to consider : 1. If you wanted to expose the government or publish books or videos on UFOs or aliens then where do you get the money to do it ?  Who has this kind of money lying around and is willing to invest it in these ventures ?  There is new information appearing that Lawrence Rockefeller has been behind the private financing of  groups to discuss the UFO issue and undoubtedly promote more propaganda and lies.  2. If this is the government’s biggest cover-up then how come all of this info is coming out all at once all over the place ?  3. After Bill Lyne presented this info for the first time at the UFO expo in California and was a huge success, why was he asked not to return and told that he would be better suited at the Extraordinary Experiences Expo ?

There has been some speculation that the government maybe preparing to “inform” the public about the supposed alien presence and possibly even present a staged landing or invasion scenario.  Either way we may soon see, depending on how carefully we are watching.  If this is the kind of technology the government had 50 and 100 years ago, then 166 mhz pentium processors are probably a far cry from REAL present day capabilities.

One of the symbols for Roman Catholic Freemasonry is the Double Cross.  It may appear on the Pope’s headdress or on the advertisement for the American Lung Association or even in the EXXON sign.  This may imply that we’ve been double-crossed.  Is the Shell gas station symbol really a shell ?  Or is it the SUN rising in the East ?  The Panorama Mall in California uses an almost identical symbol and it is surely not a shell, but the SUNRISE.  The flag of El Salvador  and Nicaragua both are a symbol of the triangle or pyramid with the eye in the peak or capstone as well as the sun rising.  The flag for Germany is the Masonic compass symbol.  Look at the America On-line symbol.  A Current Affair T.V series.  The next time you are driving on the freeway and you see an exit sign with gas station displays that offer you a choice between Citgo or Shell, ask yourself whether you are really looking at a pyramid and a sun rising in the east.

And now, back to the most popular conspiracy question :  Who did kill JFK ?  If you still think it was Lee Harvey Oswald and you believe the lone assassin theory or if you are stuck in a cave somewhere building a wheel that is shaped like a square then consider these important historical facts :  The assassination took place in Dealey Plaza, site of the first Masonic temple in Dallas.  Dallas is located just south of the 33rd degree of latitude.  The 33rd degree is the highest degree one can achieve in Freemasonry.  Shakespeare’s MacBeth is a “Killing of the King” drama.  MacBeth, who killed his King in accordance with a witch’s plot and was himself later killed, parallels the JFK assassination and the sequence of Oswald being killed by Ruby.  “Mason Road” in Texas, connects to the “Mason No El Bar” and the Texas / New Mexico “Land of Enchantment” border.  This connecting line is on the 32nd degree.

When the 32nd degree line of latitude is traced west into the “Land of Enchantment”, it becomes situated midway between Deming and Columbus.  Slightly to the north of the town of Columbus are the “Tres Hermanas” (Three Sisters) mountains.  The Three Sisters are found approx. 32 miles between Deming and Columbus and are a minute and some seconds south of the 32nd degree line.  When this line is traced further to the west, it passes the ghost town of Shakespeare at a distance south of the town that is roughly equivalent to the distance which the 32nd degree line passes north of the three sisters mountains.  Both Shakespeare and the three sisters relate to MacBeth.  When this 32nd degree line is traced some distance further west, into Arizona, it crosses an old trail which meanders north of a ghost town, which was once the town of Ruby.  The trail itself was called Ruby Road. Ruby Road twists north into the area of 2 mountain peaks known as Kennedy and Johnson Mountains.  The New Orleans CIA (who provided security) station’s headquarters were in a Masonic temple.  And last but not least, Mason Lyndon Johnson appointed Mason Earl Warren to investigate Kennedy’s death.  33rd degree Mason, Gerald Ford was instrumental in suppressing what little evidence of a conspiratorial nature reached the commission.  Responsible for supplying information to the commission was 33rd degree Mason J. Edgar Hoover and former CIA director and Mason Allen Dulles was responsible for most of his Agency’s information to the panel.  There IS NO need to wonder whether there is a conspiracy going on, the fact is AMERICA IS ONE BIG LIVING CONSPIRACY.

The 2000 year old Reich of the NEW WORLD ORDER is HERE and NOW.  We are about to start 1996.  The more that this sort of information gets out to the public, the faster the crackdown and grab for power becomes.  The government is not as dumb as most people believe, it only appears to be on the surface.  How many more police do we need?  The Fraternal Order of Police is a Masonic Order.  You will understand this the next time they put you through the 3rd DEGREE, and offer you 3 SQUARE meals a day.  How much more power do we want to give them? Current Gun Control Legislation is taken almost word for word from gun control laws passed in Nazi Germany under Adolph Hitler.  There have been many Executive Orders and Public Laws passed giving tremendous powers to the president to declare National Emergencies, suspend the Constitution, and round up large groups of people, and the power to use converted and shut down MILITARY BASES AS LABOR BOOT CAMPS ( CONCENTRATION CAMPS), has been handed to the Pentagon.  This will be sold to us as immigration control, drug trafficker punishment and so forth.

In Europe today, the National I.D. Card (Smartcard) has already been issued.  In Singapore, you are required to carry it by law.  It will soon arrive in America and it will be pushed using Health-Care reform or Immigration Control as a means to sell it to the public.  This card will store all of the necessary information on you and more.

There was a particular type of wood that magicians used to make their wands from.  It was the wood from the Holly plant.  Hollywood today is where the Mason Magicians of the silver screen wave their hypnotic magic wands over our eyes and fool us with ILLUSIONS.  If you remember the T.V. series “Get Smart”, there were  the bad guys called CHAOS and the good guys called  CONTROL. GET SMART .

Thought for the Day

“Live Purposefully, not for the consequences”
“Do what your heart tells you – life is not about being better than somebody”
“True Nobility is being-better then you used to be”!
“Cultivate your own garden”!

Enthusiasm: Enthios (GRK) (The God Within)
Be Authentic / Enthusiastic
We Produce Results:
Judgments we decide if it is success or failure on results
What do I do with these results?
Inner Directed – – Welcome the unknown


There have been times in my life when I have felt that things were not quite going the way I had anticipated. That is to say, my expectations were different from the results that I had encountered. Errors in my judgment, in my interpretation, my perception, along with the plethora of unknown attributes this world can manifest were all agents that sometimes disrupt your expected outcomes. Some we can control, and some we cannot.
My thoughts goes back to times in my life when I remember those occasions of making a conscious decision to break away from my primary impulse. I remember having experiences when I have been disappointed, and without really letting these events completely affect me in a negative way, I consciously did not allow myself from letting it get me down, and made a leap of faith, “willing” myself into a different mind set.
I do not know where this inspiration came from, but I am indebted to the universe for allowing me to make this connection. Freeing up unneeded emotional angst, and re-directing that energy into a positive imperative was a skill that I have not utilized enough in my life. It’s funny how we don’t make these “connections” from time to time in our lives. It’s funny how we seem to befriend the worst aspects of our human frailties when we cope with such events. We sometimes have a difficult time in dealing with such matters closest to the heart. Be it that our cognitions are diffused with our emotional endeavors, we often get lost in the muck of our soul’s desires.
I believe we can learn this skill, and that we can employ it in our lives to create a better existence.
I guess that’s why I have an affinity with Buddhism. A paradigm that has always attracted me in relation to their doctrines of “attachment”.

“According to the Buddhist point of view, non-attachment is exactly the opposite of separation. You need two things in order to have attachment: the thing you’re attaching to, and the person who’s attaching. In non-attachment, on the other hand, there’s unity. There’s unity because there’s nothing to attach to. If you have unified with the whole universe, there’s nothing outside of you, so the notion of attachment becomes absurd. Who will attach to what?”

Because we think we have intrinsic existence within our skin, and what’s outside our skin is “everything else,” that we go through life grabbing for one thing after another to make us feel safe, or to make us happy.

The Buddha taught that this craving grows from ignorance of the self. Because we see ourselves as something separate from everything else, we go through life grabbing one thing after another to ease our stress. We attach not only to physical things, but also to ideas and opinions about ourselves and the world around us. But physical things can be lost, and we get frustrated when the world doesn’t conform to our ideas and opinions.

What’s interesting to me is that experienced a level of happiness from the result of making those decisions to enter into a newer “experiential frontier”, one that took me out of my current disconcerting situation, and enter another with far better realizations. The phenomena of this transition was the process of detaching from the external and connecting to the internal source for my bearings; my true compass.

More Words of Wisdom




“We are each of us angels with only one wing.  And we can only fly embracing each other”.
-Luciano De Crescenzo-

“There comes a time in some relationships when no matter how sincere the attempt to reconcile the differences or how strong the wish to recreate a part of the past once shared, the struggle becomes so painful that nothing else is felt and the world and all its beauty only add to the discomfort by providing cruel contrast”.
-David Viscott-

“We have been poisoned by fairy tales.”
-Anais Nin-

“Fallen myths can distill venom”.
-Denis De Rougemont-

“Man is but a network of relationships and these alone matter.”
-St Exupery-

“These things I command you, that yea love one another.”
-John 15:17-

“Tenderness emerges from the fact that the two persons, longing, as all individuals do, to overcome the separateness and isolation to which we are all heir because we are individuals, can participate in a relationship that, for the moment, is not of two isolated selves but a union.”
-Rollo May-

“We have developed communications systems to permit man on earth to talk with man on the moon.  Yet mother often cannot talk with daughter, father to son, black to white, labor with management, or democracy with communism.”
Haley Read-

“Human communication, as the saying goes, is a clash of symbols, it covers a multitude of signs.  But it is more than media and messages, information and persuasion; it also meets a deeper need and serves a higher purpose.  Whether clear or garbled, tumultuous or silent, deliberate or fatally inadvertent, communication is the ground of meeting and the foundation of community.  It is, in short, the essential human connection.”
The Human Connection, -Ashley Montagu, Floyd Matson-

“Truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.”
-Legal Oath-

“There is no such thing as an absolute truth, that is absolutely true.”

“And Pilate said, “what is truth?” (he cunningly didn’t wait for an answer.)”

“Being honest in a relationship is at times exceedingly difficult and painful.  Yet the moment a person evades the truth, central fibers of the self pull away and the person initiates a process of deception – a way of manipulating the other person by preventing the person from discovering “real thoughts and real feelings.”
Creative Living, -Clark Mustakas-

“The truth, as best as we know it, must be our goal, no matter where it leads us.  Every self-deception causes erroneous judgements, and bad decisions follow, with unforeseen consequences to our lives.  But more than that, every protective self-deception is a crevice in our psyche with a little demon lurking in it ready to become an episode of unexplained anxiety which life threatens.  The self deceptions which are designed to protect us from pain actually end up delivering more pain.  We fortify our deceptions to protect them from the natural corrections of daily life.  The larger the area of our mind we find it necessary to defend, the more our thinking processes will suffer, we will not allow our mind to roam freely because new information might contradict our self-deceptions.  The larger the self-deceptions, the larger the section of the world we are excluded from.”
Transformations, -Dr. Roger Gould-

“Since nothing we intend is ever faultless, and nothing we attempt ever without error, and nothing we achieve without some measure of finitude and fallibility we call humanness, we are saved by forgiveness.”
-David Augsburger-

“Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times would I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?”  Jesus answered “I tell you not seven, but seventy times seven.”
-Matthew 18:21-22-

“Hate, bitterness and vindictiveness are overpowering, self-defeating and intellectually as well as emotionally depleting.”
Love is letting go of fear, -Dr. Gerald Jampolsky-

“Forgiveness is letting what was be gone; what will be, come; what is now, be.”
-David Augsburger-

“I have examined, weighed, judged you and your behavior and found you sorely lacking in qualities that are worthy of my respect.  I have these qualities at this point in time, but you do not.  I humbly recognize my superior moral strength and your weakness, my consistent moral behavior and you inconsistency of immorality.  I forgive you your trespasses.  We will henceforth have a relationship based on the recognition of my benevolence in the hour of your neediness, my generosity in the face of your guilt.  You will find some suitable way to be dutifully grateful from this day forward.”
One-Up Forgiveness, -David Augsburger-

“The only thing worth having in an earthly existence is a sense of humor.”
-Lincoln Stefens-

“Happiness is a man’s greatest achievement; it is the response of his total personality to a productive orientation toward himself and the world outside.”
-Eric Fromm-

“No man is happy unless he believes he is.”
-Publibius Syrus, 50BC-

“I thought that jealousy was an idea; it isn’t.  It’s a pain.  But I didn’t feel as they do in a Broadway melodrama. I didn’t want to kill anybody.  I just wanted to die.”
-Floyd Dell-

“Jealousy is delightful during courtship, practically essential to the first year of marriage, but after that, chinese torture.”
-Secudes, 1957-

“They are given to pointing the finger of blame outside themselves at some other person as if that person were responsible for their discomfort and their feelings of inadequacy.  No one, of course, is ever destroyed by another person in this sense.  A jealous individual, or any disturbed individual, is destroyed only from inside himself”
The Mark of Cain: -Marguerite and Willard Beecher-

“Every time you meet a situation, though you think at the time it is an impossibility and you go through the tortures of the damned, once you have met it and lived through it, you find that forever after you are freer than you were before.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt-

“The moment we indulge our affections the earth is metamorphosed.”

“Talk not of wasted affection, affection never was wasted.”

“We have lost sight of the fact that we human beings are, in one respect, like small animals without even any fur or sharp teeth to protect us.  What protects us in not our viciousness, but our humanity; our ability to love others and to accept the love that others want to offer us.  It is not our toughness that keeps us warm at night, but our tenderness which makes others want to keep us warm.”
-Harold Lyon-

“Hugging can lift depression, enabling the body’s immune system to become tuned-up.  Hugging breathes fresh life into a tired body and makes you feel younger and more vibrant.  In the home, daily hugging will strengthen relationships and significantly reduce friction.”
-Dr. Harold Voth-

Leo Buscaglia Quotes
“Don’t think in terms of forever. Think of now and forever will take care of itself.”

“Grow up together, constantly.”

“Expect to invest a great deal of time and energy in your relationships, they just don’t happen, they are created.”

“Recognize that all relationships cannot be forever. Recognize their temperate quality, but continue to act as if they are permanent.”

“Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations.”

“Take your time.”

“Remove price tags from people. Everyone has worth; the excitement lies in the discovery of their value.”

“Don’t be afraid of giving.  You can never give too much, if you’re giving willingly.”

“Don’t feel as if you are required to spend your every waking hour with those you love.  Move aside from time to time and allow them a separate space, too.”

“Never force anyone to do anything for you ‘in the name of love.’  Love is not to be bargained for.”

“Don’t be afraid.”

“Don’t overanalyze your relationships.”

“Realize that you always have choices. It’s up to you.”

“Remember that a relationship is a pooling of resources.  That means that with eAch relationship you are not only giving, you are becoming more.”

“Don’t allow experience to harden your heart; rather use it to become more aware and sensitive.”

“Don’t smother each other.  No one can grow in shade.”

“Don’t lose touch with the craziness in you.  This, with a large dose of caring, will assure that your relationship will never be boring.”

“Don’t brood.  Get on with living and loving.  You don’t have forever.”

“Don’t hold on to anger, hurt or pain.  They steal your energy and keep you from love.”

“Always start a relationship by asking: Do I have ulterior motives for wanting to relate to this person?  Is my caring conditional?  Am I trying to escape something?  Am I planning to change the person?  Do I need this person to help me make up for a deficiency in myself?  If your answer to any of these questions is ‘yes’, leave the person alone.  He or she is better off without you.  There are times when you may want to give up on a relationship, but never give up on relating.”

“See people as good and beautiful, even when they seem to be trying hard not to appear so.”

“If you take the time to talk together each day you’ll never become strangers.”

“Value yourself.   The only people who appreciate a doormat are people with dirty shoes.”

“Write down all the reason’s why you love each person you relate with.  Then, when the going gets tough, take the list out and reread it.  It resolves problems quickly.”

“Don’t make the other’s problems yours.  It only makes solving it twice as difficult.”

“Don’t be afraid of disagreements and arguments, the only people who don’t argue are people who don’t care or are dead.  In fact, don’t have short arguments.  Make certain they are throughly over and done with.”

“After an argument is over, forget it.”

“Learn to bend.  It’s better than breaking.”

“Don’t become involved in pettiness, ego and childish hurts.  These will only serve to degrade your relationships and prevent closeness.”

“Watch for little irritations, they grow into destructive monsters.  Verbalize them at once.”

“Let go of pride.  It is usually false, creates barriers and prevents closeness.”

“Exercise feelings.  Feelings have meaning only as they are expressed in action.”

“Increase tenderness and intimacy.  They are a powerful source of nourishment to relationships.”

“Be compassionate.  It is the sure way to understanding and acceptance.”
“See all criticism as positive for it leads to self evaluation.  You are always free to reject it if it is unfair or does not apply.”

“Expect what is reasonable, not what is perfect.”

“Since love can be created, there is no reason to be loveless.”

“Don’t allow anyone to put you on a pedestal.  It’s to easy to fall off.”

“Don’t be concerned about what you can get from a relationship.  Instead, concern yourself with what you can bring to it.”

“Remember that moral and spiritual values don’t restrict, they protect.”

“Forming good relationships takes a lot of looking.  But looking can be fun.”

“Relationships are not sporting events.  Stop wrestling for control.  No one ever wins this kind of match except divorce lawyers.”

“Perhaps it’s not too bad to do some things you’d rather not if it makes another happy.”

“What you learn about yourself will infinitely help in trying to understand others.”

“See problems as small miracles which can bring about knowledge and change.”

“Don’t fall in love with love, you’ll drown in its complexities.”

“Be polite, Love does not give license for rudeness.”

“You are at the center of all your relationships, therefore you are responsible for your self-esteem, growth, happiness and fulfillment.  Don’t expect the other person to bring you these things.  You must live as if yo are alone and others are the gifts offered to help you to enrich your life.”

“Don’t allow your relationships to die of neglect.”

“In a social environment that is ever crowded and impersonal, it is becoming increasingly important to reconsider the value of close personal relationships before we are driven to ask the forlorn question, ‘whatever happen to Love?”
-Despond Morris-

“Everything that lives…Lives not alone..Nor for itself.”
-William Blake-

“Relationships seldom die because they suddenly have no life left in them.  They wither slowly, either because people do not understand how much or what kind of upkeep, time, work, love and caring they require or because people are to lazy or afraid to try.  A relationship is a living thing.  It needs and benefits from the same attention to detail that an artist lavishes on his art.”
-David Viscott-

Decembre 3, 1987
Judi 9:57PM
“Short visits make long friends.”

“Doing easily what others find difficult is talent; doing what is difficult for talent is genius.

“The promise of freedom requires the courage of thought.”
-Clay Springer-

“Yesterday’s hits won’t win todays ball game.”

“There are two sides to every argument, until you take one.”

“It is a great deal better to do all the things you should do than to spend the rest of your life wishing you had.”

“Unfinished business is usually finished – you just didn’t like the way it came out.”

“My life seems like one long-obstacle course with me as the chief obstacle.”
-Jack Paar-

“Our friends see the best in us and by that very fact call forth the best from us.”

“Just because everything is different, doesn’t mean anything has changed.”
-Irene Peter-

“There is as much greatness of mind in acknowledging a good turn as in doing it.”

“Confusion is the doorway to a new understanding.”

“I never found the companion that was so companion that was so companionable as solitude.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless.”
-Mother Teresa-

“Bring back the little children dancing behind your eyes.”
-Joe Tanenbaum-

“Believe nothing against another but on good authority; nor report what may hurt another, unless it be a greater hurt to conceal it.”
-William Penn-

“Those who make the worse use of their time are the first to complain of its shortness.”
-Jean De La Brupere-

“One meets his destiny often in the road he takes to avoid it.”
-French Proverb-

“If the day and the night are such that you greet them with joy, and life emits a fragrance like flowers and sweet-scented herbs, that is your success.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“A vacation in what you take when you can no longer take what you’ve been taking.”
-Earl Wilson-

“Memory is the power to gather roses in winter.”
-Dr. Ewen Cameron-

“In every man’s heart there is a secret nerve that answers to the vibrations of beauty.”
-Christopher Morley-

“I would rather lose in a cause that I know some day will triumph than to triumph in a cause that I know some day will fail.”
-Wendell L. Willkie-

“Praise can give criticism a lead around the first turn and still win the race.”
-Bern Williams-

“Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses, given habitually are what win and preserve the heart.”
-Sir Humphrey Davy-

“Sixty years ago I knew everything; how I know nothing.  Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.
-Will Durant-

“Thought is the blossom; language the bud; action the fruit behind it.”
-Ralphs Walled Emerson-

“The one thing more difficult than following a regimen is not imposing it on others.”
-Marcel Proust-

“Few things are impossible to diligence and skill…Great works are performed, not by strength, but perseverance.”
-Samuel Johnson-

“There are two ways to slide easily through life: to believe everything or to doubt everything or to doubt everything; both ways save us from thinking.”
-Alfred Korzybski-

“And only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live in every experience painful or joyous: to live in gratitude for every moment, to live abundantly.”
-Dorothy Thompson-

“Originality is simply a fresh pair of eyes.”
-Woodwork Wilson-

“A thousand words will not leave so an impression as one deed.”
-Hernia Ibsen-

“The deepest principle in human nature is the craving to be appreciated.”
-William James-

“The remedy for wrongs is to forget them.”
-Publibius Syrus-

“Our purpose in life is not to get ahead of other people, but to get ahead of ourselves.”

“Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.”
-Oliver Wendell Holmes-

“He who is false to the present duty breaks a thread in the loom, and you will see the effect when the weaving of a lifetime is unravelled.”
-William Ellery Channing-

“Between tomorrow’s dream and yesterday’s regret, is today’s opportunity.”

“Education is learning what you didn’t even know you didn’t know.”
-Daniel J. Boorstin-

“The face of a man gives us fuller and more interesting information than his tongue, for his face is the summary of all he will ever say.”
-Authur Schopenhauer-

“Imagination is the true magic carpet.”
-Norman Vincent Peale-

“The man who goes alone can start today; but he who travels with another must wait till that other is ready.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“Every artist dips his brush in his own soul, and paints his own nature into his pictures.”
-Henry Ward Beecher-

“Friendship is almost always the union of a part of one mind with a part of another; most are friends in spots.”
-George Santayana-

“The growth of the human mind is still adventure, in many ways the highest adventure on earth.”
-Norman Cousins-

“I have never met a man who has given me as much trouble as myself.”
-Dwight L. Moody-

“Honest differences are often a healthy sign of progress.”
-Mahatma Gandhi-

“First keep the peace within yourself, then you can also bring peace to others.”
-Thoms A. Kempis-

“There’s no point in speaking unless you can improve on silence.”
-Edmund Muskie-

“Enjoy the little things for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.”
-Robert Brault-

“When opportunity knocks, you’d better have your bags packed.”

“Truth has no special time of its own.  Its hour is now- always.”
-Albert Schweitzer-

“You can’t cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.  Don’t let yourself indulge in vain wishes.”
-Rabindranath Tagore-

“The only sure thing about luck is that it will change.”
-Bret Harte-

“If it takes a lot of words to say what you have in mind, give it more thought.”
-Dennis Roth-

“For good or ill, your conversation is your advertisement.  Every time you open you mouth, you let me look into your mind.”
-Bruce Barton-

“The probability that we may fail in the struggle ought not to deter us from the support of a cause we believe to be just.”
-Abraham Lincoln-

“Every man has a right to his opinion, but no man has a right to be wrong in his facts.”
-Bernard M. Baruch-

“The talent of success is nothing more than doing what you can do well and doing well whatever you do.”

“The discontented man finds no easy chair.”
-Benjamin Franklin-

“It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare.”
-Mark Twain-

“The absence of Alternatives clears the mind marvelously.”
-Henry A. Kissinger-

“He that gives good advice, builds with one hand; he that gives good counsel and example, builds with both; but he that gives good admonition and bad examples builds with one hand and pulls down with the other.”
-Francis Bacon-

“You are young, and as the years go by, time will change, and even reverse many of you present opinions.  Refrain therefore awhile from setting yourself up as a judge of the highest matters.”

“Silence is one great art of conversation.  He is not a fool who knows when to hold his tongue.”
-William Hazlitt-

“The greatest of all pleasure is to give pleasure to one we love.”
-Jean De Boufflers-

“Life is the childhood of our immortality.”
-Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe-

“Uncertainty and mystery are energies of life.  Don’t let them scare you unduly for they keep boredom at bay and spark creativity.”
-RI Fitzhenry-

“There are glimpses of heaven to us in every act, or thought, or word, that raises us above ourselves.”
-Authur P. Stanley-

“There’s no place Like Home”

“Each day is a gift to you. Make it blossom and grow into a thing of beauty”

“The Miracle is this…the more we share, the more we have.”
-Leonard Nimoy-

“A person who aims at nothing has a target he can’t miss.”

“Better than being the head of the family is being the heart of it.”

“Behind the idea that one calls one’s own are the thoughts and efforts of many.”

“The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.”
-Oscar Wilde-

“When you’re through changing, you’re through.”

“The first essential of doing a job well is the wish to see the job done at all.”
-Franklin Delano Roosevelt-

“Family faces are magic mirrors. Looking at people who belong to us, we see the past, present and future. We make discoveries about ourselves.”

“It is good to let a little sunshine out as well as in.”

“Time Flies; but remember, you are the navigator.”

“Some things have to be believed to be seen.”
-Ralphs Hodgkin

“We see through others only when we see through ourselves.”
-Eric Hoffer-

“Advise would be more acceptable if it didn’t always conflict with our plans.”

“You can’t expect an empty bag to stand up straight.”

“The nice thing about teamwork is that you always have others on your side.”

“Those who are ashamed of the past and afraid of the future don’t find the present so hot either.”

“We are like trees; we must create new leaves new directions, in order to grow.”

“Don’t be content with being average. Average is as close to the bottom as it is to the top.”

“Don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.”
-Richard L. Evans-

“Nothing will happen if we all wait for others to do it first.”

“The heart must have its time of snow…to rest in silence, and then to grow.”

“When day is done you frequently discover that little else is.”

“Time is nature’s way of preventing everything from happening at once.”

“Great visions often start with small dreams.”

“Angels whisper to a man when he goes for a walk.”

“The beginnings of all things are small.”

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.”
-Helen Keller-

“You deep on getting what you’ve been getting when you keep on doing what you’ve been doing.”

“Friendship is like a rainbow between two hearts.”

“The best preparation for tomorrow is to do today’s work superbly well.”
-Sir William Osler-

“We need people with the artistry to live in simplicity as the hummingbird does, enjoying with nectar without bruising the flower.”

“Only those who have the patience to do simple things perfectly will acquire the skill to do difficult things easily.”
-Friedrich Shiller-

“A smile is a passport that will take you anywhere you want to go.”

“If the world seems cold to you, kindle fires to warm it.”

“Incomplete terminations interfere with new beginnings.”

“For everything there is a season and a time for every matter under heaven.”
-The Bible-

“it is what we are that gets across, not what we try to teach.”

“We can’t all be shinning examples, but we can at least twinkle a little.”

“One loving spirit sets another on fire.”
-St. Augustine-

“Sometimes it is better to be open and feeling than closed and wise.”

“Nice guys may appear to finish last, but usually they are running a different race.”

“Treasure is not always a friend, but a friend is always a treasure.”

“Success consists in doing the common things of life uncommonly well.”

“Loneliness expresses the pain of being alone and solitude expresses the glory of being alone.”

“Live to make the world less difficult for each other.”
-George Eliot-

“To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are.”

“If you don’t know where you are going, you may miss it when you get there.”

“The closer we are to that which surrounds us, the closer we are with ourselves.”

“So long as enthusiasm lasts, so long is youth still within us.”

“He lives in wisdom who sees himself in all and all in him”
-Bhagavad Gita-

“It is better to be alone than in bad company.”

“And this I have learned…grownups do not know the language of shadows.”
-Opal Whiteley-

“Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.”
-Khalif Gibran-

“An optimist may see a light where there is none, but why must the pessimist always run to blow it out?”
-Michel De Saint Pierre-

“Contentment consists not in treat wealth, but in few wants.”

“By the time you have figured out the right way to raise a child, he’s all grown up.”

“If you don’t enjoy what you have, how could you be happier with more?”

“Each day slowly shapes our lives, as dripping water shapes the stone.”

“Kindness is the golden chain by which society is bound together.”

“Do more than listen; Understand.”
-John H. Rhoades-

“The only thing of value we can give kids is what we are, not what we have.”
-Leo Buscaglia-

“Life is a mystery to be lived; not a problem to be solved.”

“Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.”
-William Jennings Bryan-

“Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.”
-Helen Keller-

“There’s a part of every living thing that wants to become itself, the tadpole into the frog. The chrysalis into the butterfly, a damaged human being into a whole one. That is spirituality..” – Ellen Bass

“It seems to me that before we set out on a journey to find reality, to find God, before we can act, before we can have any relationship with another….it is essential that we begin to understand ourselves first.” – Krishnamurti

“Whatever your age your upbringing, or your education, what you are made of is mostly unused potential.” – George Leonard

“Spiritually speaking, everything that one wants, aspires to and needs is ever-present, accessible here and now – for those with eyes to see.” – Sure Das

“Spirit is an invisible force made visible in all life.” – Maya Angelo

“The great metaphors from all spiritual traditions – grace, liberation, being born again, awakening from illusion – testify that it is possible to transcend the conditioning of my past and do a new thing.” – Sam Keen

“So not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand.” – Spinoza

“What can we gain by sailing to the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that spirits us from ourselves?” – Thomas Merton

“If men knew themselves. God would heal and pardon them.” – Pascal

“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn’t part of ourselves doesn’t disturb us.” – Herman Hesse

“He who knows others is learned. He who knows himself is wise.” – Lao Tzu

“Learn what you are and be such.” – Pindar

“Take the understanding of the East and the knowledge of the West – and then seek.” – Gurdjieff

“Remember yourself always and everywhere.” – Gurdjieff

“The spirit is the true self, not that physical figure which can be pointed out by your finger.” – Cicero

“Spiritual development is a long and arduous journey, an adventure through strange lands full of surprises, joy, beauty, difficulties, and even dangers.” – Roberto Assagioli

“Man wishes to be happy even when he so lives as to make happiness impossible.” – St. Augustine

“……the neurotic process…….is a problem of the self. It is a process of abandoning the real self for an idealized one; of trying to actualize this pseudo-self instead of our given human potentials.” -Karen Horney

“The greatest happiness is to know the source of unhappiness.” – Dostoyevsky

“Whenever a man awakes, he awakes from the false assumption that he has always been awake, and therefore the master of his thoughts, feelings, and actions.” – Henry Trachol

“The very things we wish to avoid, neglect, and flee from turn out to be the ‘prima materia’ from which all real growth comes.” – Andrew Harvey

“All men should strive to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why.” – James Thurber

“We do not succeed in changing things according to our desire, but gradually our desire changes.” – Proust

“We are serving a life sentence in the dungeon of self.” – Cyril Connolly

Be here now
Live in the moment
Go out of the mind
guilt (past) Resentment
Fears (future) Hopes
The mind confuses thoughts about people, things, and events with people, things, and event themselves – must transcend.
Out of mind and into direct, immediate experience.
Zen masters have often used dramatic techniques, including verbal insults, physical violence, and absurd theatrics, to jolt students out of mental preoccupation and thrust them back into the moment.
“Wake up!” “Wake up!”
Zen cries out!
“Mo Chich Ch’u” = “Going ahead without hesitation”
Just do what you are doing without thinking about it
just be where you are without holding on or running away
give up judging and spectating and dive into this moment
If yo can’t find it here where will you o to find it? and when?

“This time, like all times, is a very good one, if we but know what to do with it!”
-Ralphs Waldo Emerson-

“In walking, just walk. In sitting, just sit. Above all, don’t wobble!”
-Yun Men-

“If you want to be happy, be.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“The only why to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.”
-Alan Watts-

“The Tao is near and people seek it far away.”

“Real generosity toward the future consists in giving all o what is present.”
-Albert Camus-

“May you live all the days of your life”
-John Swift-

“I exist as I am, that is enough.”
-Walt Whitman-

“The present is great with the future”
-Gottfried Leibnitz-

“When one is engaged in a favorite pursuit or a subject absorbingly interesting, the normal conception of labor or time and artificial social distinctions disappear from the mind.”
-G. Koizumi-

“We look backward too much and we look forward too much; thus we miss the only eternity of which we can be absolutely sure – the eternal present, for it is always now.”
-William Phelps-

“To be where we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end in life.”
-Robert Louis Stevenson-

Beginner’s Mind
Child’s Mind
Children learn so rapidly because they are neither afraid of not knowing nor convinced that they already know what they don’t. Unlike most adults, in our defensiveness, we act as though we know, even when we know we don’t. When we love and except ourselves as we are, we engage in the vulnerable act of learning without the fear of looking foolish. We can profit from the knowledge and experience of others because we love ourselves enough to put our desire to grow ahead of defending our ignorance. The beginner’s mind applies not only to learning the new skills, activities, or information but to all we think we know about life. Many of us walk around about life. Many of us walk around with deeply ingrained beliefs that limit our experience. We think you can’t really trust people, or you can’t really do or have what you want in life. Of course, we can insist on these kinds of beliefs, select out supportive incidents from the past, and build cases for why they are so; but this only shuts the door on now experience. As only an empty cup can be filled, so only a heart emptied of the pride of what it thinks it knows can be open to new experience and receive the gifts of wisdom. When we embrace the humility to meet life head-on, whiteout the baggage of what we think we know, we make room for ourselves to grow.

“To know that you do not know is the best. To pretend to know when you do not know is a disease.”
-Lao Tzu-

“The trouble with most of us is that we know au much that Ain’t so.”
-Mark Twain-

“The chief object of education is not to learn things but to unlearn things.”
-G. K. Chesterton-

“Real learning comes about when competitive spirit has ceased…This is true not only of competition with others, but competition with yourself.”
-J. Krishnamurti-

“He who can copy can do.”
-Leonardo Da Vinci-

“The great end of education is to discipline rather than to furnish the mind; to train it to the use of its own powers, rather than fill it with the accumulation of others.”
-Tyron Edwards-

“Education is not filling a bucket but lighting a fire.”
-William Butler Yeats-

“Everyone is ignorant, only in different subjects.”
-Will Rogers-

“The more I learn, the more I realize I don’t know.”
-Albert Einstein-

“Learning is the very essence of humility.”
-J. Krishnamurti-

“The only person who is educated is the one who has learned how to learn…and change.”
-Carl Rogers-

“A little learning is a dangerous thing; drink deep or taste not the pierian spring.”
-Alexander Pope-

“Tell me, I’ll forget. Show me, I may remember. But involve me and I’ll understand.”
-Chinese Proverb-

“When we see men of worth, we should think of equaling them; when we see men of contrary character, we should turn inwards and examine ourselves.”

“The great man is he who does not lose his child’s heart.”

“A man only learns in too ways, one by reading, and the other by association with smarter people.”
-Will Rogers-

“A man should never be ashamed to own he has been wrong. Which is but saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.”
-Alexander Pope-

“Much learning does not teach a man to have intelligence.”

“A person’s errors are his portals of discovery.”
-James Joyce-

“A man must have a certain amount of intelligent ignorance to get anywhere.”
-Charles Kettering-

“Its better to know nothing than to know what ain’t so.”
-Josh Billings-

“Men stumble over the truth from time to time, but most pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing happened.”
-Winston Churchill-

“Men are wise in proportion not to their experience, but in their capacity for experience.”
-George Bernard Shaw-

“In the beginner’s mind their are many possibilities, but in the experts, there are few.”
-Shunryu Suzuki-

No greater enemy than fear
It hems us in, sucks the joy out of life, and leaves us with disgust for ourselves. Nothing of importance can be undertaken or achieved without facing, challenging, and finally mastering fear. If it takes great courage to attempt and accomplish things of real merit, it takes even more to be what we truly are.
Friedrich Nietzsche described a threefold process in the maturation of consciousness.
1) Camels – hoisted upon us the load of social conditioning, habit, and convention
2) Lions – roaring against societal “thou shalts”
3) The child – a fully human being, capable of spontaneously, intuitively, and competently responding to the world.
The courage of the lion is the courage to find your own path in life. It requires that you examine the conventions, ideals, and programs of society, as well as the habits and routines you have unconsciously accumulated, and determine or yourself what to accept and what to reject.
The measure of our courage is reflected in the vision of life we choose and in how much it takes for us to become discouraged. Too often we think of ourselves as weak candles that can be blown out by the slightest wind of frustration or disappointment. Better if….”I will become a bonfire an dare the world to put me out.”

“What a new face courage puts on everything.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace.”
-Amelia Earhart-

“Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact.”
-William James-

“To see what is right and not do it is want of courage.”

“A man with outward courage dares to die. A man with inward courage dares to live.”
-Lao Tzu-

“No one knows what he can do until he tries.”

“There are three essentials to leadership: humility, clarity, and courage.”
-Fushan Yuan-

“Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it.”

“There’s nothing in the world so admired as a man who knows how to bear unhappiness with courage.”

“Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.”
-Anais Nin-

“A warrior only takes care that his spirit is never broken.”

“Fortune and love befriend the bold.”

“It is difficulties that show what men are.”

“No work of love will flourish out of guilt, fear, or hollowness of heart, just as no valid plans for the future can be made by those who have no capacity for living now.”
-Alan Watts-

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”
-Ambrose Redmoon-

“Discontent is what of self reliance; it is infirmity of will.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“A man of courage is also full of faith.”

“Whatever you do or dream you can do – begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it.”
-Johann Goethe-

Right Thinking
Buddhist noble eightfold path
“Thoughts” as Emerson put it, “rule the world” for the simple reason that thoughts determine feelings and actions. We can think ourselves into happiness or a deep depression. We can think ourselves into health or illness.
We can think ourselves into a narrow, limited world characterized by procrastination and paralysis, or we can think ourselves into a noble creative life and the actions that give it shape and substance. If we only take care of our thoughts, our feelings and actions will take care of themselves.
For better or worse, we give to others the fruits of our own thinking by the same token, we are influenced by the thinking of those with whom we associate. It certainly helps to make friends with people who have made friends with their own minds. Observe people who are chronically bored or depressed, and you will find they dwell on negative thoughts. Observe people who are consistently happy, creative, and productive, and you will find remarkable similarities in the quality of their thinking. By our thinking, we create our individual and collective experience of reality. Changing our thinking for the better improves the quality of our own lives, and in doing, uplifts all around us.

“Not he is great who can alter matter, but he who can alter my state of mind.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“For one who has conquered the mind, the mind is the best of friends. But for one who has failed to do so, his very mind will be his greatest enemy.”
-Bhagavad Gita-

“One comes to be of just such stuff as that on which the mind is set.”

“We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the world.”

“Human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind.”
-William James-

“As he thinketh in his heart, so is he.”
-Proverbs 23:7-

“The ills from which we are suffering have had their seat in the very foundation of human thought.”
-Teilhard De Chardin-

“A man is about as happy as he makes up his mind to be.”
-Abraham Lincoln-

“All that is, is the result of what we have thought.”

“Men imagine that thought can be kept secret, but it cannot; it rapidly crystallizes into habit, and habit solidifies into circumstance.”
-James Allen-

Things are not what they seem, including us. How happy can you be when you spend most of your time worrying about something that doesn’t even exist? Something = ego; the confused jumbled thoughts and desires we mistake for the self. Reality and the true perception of it lie beyond this narrow band of socially conditioned consciousness.
“Get Real” = Get out of ourselves, release the identification with ourselves as a thing apart. A part is in conflict with other parts; but the whole cannot be against itself.
In reality, there is no better, no worse, no difference. There is no loss or gain, nothing old or new. There is nothing to compare with anything else. Everything in the universe is the one same stuff, taking on various forms of disguises. The Zen realization of “emptiness” comes with the release of the identification with and attachment to forms including the physical form we call the body and the mental form we call the ego and mistake for the self.
The deeper realization is that form is emptiness; emptiness, form. In other words, the spiritual reality reality is manifest in the physicality of the world. As Jesus said in the gospel according to Thomas, “The Kingdom of Heaven is spread upon the earth and men do no see it.”

“Love is a living reality.”
-Albert Schweitzer-

“In the world of reality there is no self. There is no other-than-self.”
-Seng T’San-

“Every man takes the limits of his field of vision for the limits of the world.”
-Arthur Schopenhauer-

“Attachment is the greatest fabricator of illusions; reality can be attained only by someone who is detached.”
-Simone Well-

“He then learns that in going down into the secrets of his own mind he has descended into the secrets of all minds.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“What is Reality? – Selflessness!”
-Sufi Saying-

“If you realize what the real problem is – losing yourself – you realize that this itself is the ultimate trial.”
-Joseph Campbell-

“Everything passes and what remains of former times, what remains of life, is the spiritual. In everything we do, the claim of the absolute is unchanging.”
-Paul Lee-

“The words of truth are always paradoxical.”
-Lao Tzu-

“All are but parts of one stupendous whole whose body nature is, and God the soul.”
-Alexander Pope-

“If the mind makes no discriminations, all things are as they really are.”
-Seng T’san-

“God is infinite and his shadow is also infinite.”
-Meher Baba-

“Compared to what we ought to be, we are half awake.”
-William James-

“Ego-Soul is the seed of birth and death, and foolish people call it the true man.”

“The religious idea of God cannot do full duty for the metaphysical infinity.”
-Alan Watts-

“First there is a mountain then there is no mountain, then there is.”
-Zen Saying-

“Being and nonbeing create each other.”
-Lao Tzu-

“Do not cling to the notion of voidness but consider all things alike.”

“Do not be idolatrous about or bound to any doctrine, theory, or ideology, even Buddhist ones. Buddhist systems of thought are guiding means; they are not absolute truth.”
-Vietnamese Buddhist Precept-

One of the great lessons of Zen is to take total responsibility for your own life. Unfortunately, many of us have been conditioned to believe, feel, and act as though the world owes us something. We complain that, as George Bernard Shaw put it, “The world will not devote itself to making us happy.” Zen says, “Why waste time and energy with regrets and whining? We have the gift of life and the opportunities of this moment.”
When we truly celebrate and do not regret our birth, we embrace the whole of our lives. All the suffering and disappointments in life, at the imperfections in ourselves and others have come from the fact that we have been born into this world. As the Taoist say, all things have mutually arisen. What we call the “bad” has arisen with what we call the “good”; what we call the “happy”, with the “sad”. Yet in truth, as the poet said, “Nothing is good or bad but thinking makes it so.” Nothing is good or bad but thinking makes it so.” When we give up the habit of making mental comparisons, we release our psychological investment in what we like and dislike and say yes to life- total and complete.

“You must push yourself beyond your limits, all the time.”
-Carlos Castaneda-

“The difficulty in life is the choice.”
-George Moore-

“It is not enough to be busy, So are the ants. The question is what are we busy about?”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“Let him who would move the world first move himself”

“People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on it this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them.”
-George Bernard Shaw-

“The greatest griefs are those we cause ourselves.”

“You must be the change you wish to see in the world.”
-Mahatma Gandhi-

“Self-knowledge and self-improvement are very difficult for most people it usually needs great courage and long struggle.”
-Abraham Maslow-

“Man is not the creature of circumstances. Circumstances are the creature of men.”
-Benjamin Disraeli-

“The injuries we do and those we suffer are seldom weighed in the same scales.”

“To be wronged is nothing unless you continue to remember it.”

“let us not underestimate the privileges of the mediocre. As one climbs higher, life becomes even harder; the coldness increases, responsibility increases.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche-

“Things do not get better by being left alone.”
-Winston Churchill-

“This is a world of action, and not for moping and groaning in.”
-Charles Dickens-

Be Yourself
Most western psychological theories confuse the ego with the self. As a result, we view the self as an object in need of adaptation, or correction. On the other hand, most eastern philosophies including Zen, distinguish the ego from the authentic self. The self is to be realized, not perfected. It cannot be improved upon or in any way altered, for it remains ever transcendent to time and space and all the changes that transpire within them. In Zen, the ego (or mask of personality), is not to be corrected but released. The ego is the fictional social self we must lose in order to find, or realize, the authentic self. Losing the ego does not mean disposing or annihilating it but rather severing our identification with it. In Zen, releasing identification with ego brings spontaneous realization of the “original” or “unborn” self, the true or one self in all.
Yet being yourself is more than clinging to the emptiness of spiritual oneness. It is also participating in your becoming in the world of time and space. While we are all one in spirit, each of us is unique in nature. Being yourself means recognizing and celebrating your particular nature, your unique gifts and abilities. There is no point in trying to be somebody else or in letting concern with what other people think dictate your life. We must each find our own path and discover for ourselves the joy of being what we are.

“Resolve to be thyself, and know that he who finds himself, loses his memory.”
-Coventry Patmore-

“It is the chiefs point of happiness that a man is willing to be what he is.”

“This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.”

“Nothing can bring you peace but yourself.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“Know Thyself”

“For what profit a man, if he gain the whole world and lose his own soul? Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?”
-Mark 8:36,37-

“Know yea not…that the spirit of God dwelt within you?”
-1 Corinthintians 3:16-

“A musician must make his music, an artist must paint, a poet must write write if he is to ultimately be at peace with himself.”
-Abraham Maslow-

“To be nobody-but-yourself-in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else-means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.”
-E.E. Cummings-

“If I am not I, who will be?”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“Thus to be independent of public opinion is the first formal condition achieving anything great…”
-G.W.F. Hegel-

“The tragedy of a man’s life is what dies inside of him while he lives.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

Dharma & Do
Dharma = working in accord with your nature, doing what you were born to do, embracing your calling in life.
Do = Manner and approach with which you engage your work. It means to do what you do with full attention and total commitment.
Recognition of your dharma – Listening to and trusting your own heart, allowing your innate compassion to guide you to the least use of your inborn talents. Not what you “should” do, as well as limiting beliefs about what you “would” do, and following your intuition. The Do, or art of work is a matter of bringing awareness, grace and excellence to the way we work. The essence of art is self-forgetfulness, becoming so absorbed in, so at one with, the work that we lose all sense of “otherness”

“Your work is to discover our work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it.”

“Such gardens are not make by singing:…”Oh, how beautiful” and sitting in the shade.”
-Rudyard Kipling-

“Blessed is he who has found his work. Let him ask no other blessing.”
-Thomas Carlyle-

“There’s no substitute for hard work.”
-Thomas Edison-

“Make your work to be in keeping with your purpose.”
-Leonardo Da Vinci-

“It is your work in life that is the ultimate seduction.”
-Pablo Picasso-

“Work banishes those three great evils: Boredom, Vice, and Poverty.”

“Where your talents and the needs of the world cross, there lies your vacation.”

To live is to create. Creativity is not a special genetic endowment reserved for a favored few; neither is it the objects or events it produces. Creativity is fundamentally an attitude toward life. It requires equal parts receptivity and resourcefulness-an openness to intuitions and ideas and a readiness to put them to work. We have all that we need, if we but know what to do with it. Nothing drains creativity like the thought that we are lacking, either in our inner or outer resources. Yet it is on precisely these kinds o thoughts that we too often dwell. The innate creativity which every human being is heir to returns to all who give up complaining about the hand they have been dealt and learn to play the one they have.

“You see things and say, “why?”, but I dream things that never were and say, “why not?”
-George Bernard Shaw-

“All life is an experiment.”
-Oliver Wendell Holmes-

“It isn’t that they can’t see the solution. It is that they can’t see the problem.”
-G.K. Chesterton-

“Discovery consists in seeing what everybody else has seen and thinking what nobody else has thought.”
-Albert Szent-Gyorgyi-

“Imagination is the beginning of creation. You imagine what you desire; you will what you imagine, and at last you create what you will.”
-George Bernard Shaw-

Humor is often the result of looking at painful situations from a place of detachment. Buddha says “life is suffering”. We suffer because we loose. We loose respect and companions; we loose possessions and titles; we loose health and wealth; and ultimately, we loose life itself. Grief is the feeling associated with loss. Originally grief meant “heavy” – we become “weighed down” or “depressed” by the grief that attends every life. Humor lifts us above the isolation of our individual grief and reminds us that pain is something we share with all sentient beings. Zen reminds us how silly we are to seek permanence in impermanence, how foolish to seek in the outside world that which resides within.
We are all a little ridiculous – and all the more so when we forget it.

“A man isn’t poor if he can still laugh!”
-Raymond Hitchcock-

“We must laugh at man to avoid crying for him.”
-Napoleon Bonaparte-

“Laughter is the shortest distance between two people.”
-Victor Borge-

“If you wish to glimpse inside a human soul and get to know a man..just watch him laugh. If he laughs well, he’s a good man.”
Foyer Dostoyevsky-

“Men show their character in nothing more clearly than by what they think laughable.”
-Johann Goethe-

“You grow up the day you can have your first real laugh – at yourself.”
-Ethel Barrymore-

“The burden of the self is lightened when I laugh at myself.”

“I have often been asked what I thought was the secret of Buddha’s smile. It is- it can only be- that he smiles at himself for searching all those years for what he already possessed.”
-Paul Brunton-

Self Confidence
Respect the dignity and inherent worth of all human beings, regardless of their station in life or outer accomplishments, and you will respect yourself. Recognize the resourcefulness, creativity, and ability inherent in all human beings, and you can’t help but value your own gifts and abilities. The opposite of self confidence is not insecurity or inadequacy but self-consciousness. Feelings of insecurity and inadequacy are only symptoms, the inevitable result of self-conscious thinking. Stop the mental chatter and your natural self confidence returns. Meditation and the Zen notion of single-mindedness come into play. Single-mindedness means simply doing what we are doing, without daydreaming, on the one hand, or self consciously observing ourselves, on the other. Nothing destroys self-confidence like being selfish and petty. Perhaps the greatest boost to self-confidence is the embrace of a larger-than-self purpose. Instead of worrying about how we are being perceived or judged by others, we can devote ourselves to important work – without assuming self-importance or pretentiousness. Again, self-consciousness is nothing special. It is the absence of self-consciousness, nothing more, nothing less.

“They conquer who believe they can.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“To believe that what has not occurred in history will not occur at all, is to argue disbelief in dignity of man.”
-Mahatma Gandhi-

“I have learned this at least by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“”Man is what he believes.”
-Anton Chekhov-

“The beginning is the most important part of the work.”

“Every individual has a place to fill in the world and is important in some respect, whether he chooses to be so or not.”
-Nathaniel Hawthorne-

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt-

“Self-esteem is the reputation we acquire with ourselves.”
-Nathaniel Branden-

“Nothing splendid has ever been achieved accept by those who dared believe that something inside them was superior to circumstance.”
-John Barton-

“They can because they think they can.”

“Ask and it shall be given unto you. Seek and yea shall find.”
-Luke 11:9

“Speak the affirmative; emphasize your choice by utterly ignoring all that you reject.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“He who hesitates is lost.”
-English Proverb-

“So long as a man imagines that he cannot do this or that, so long is he determined not to do it.”
-Benedict Spinoza-

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt-

“Whether you think you can or you can’t – you are right.”
-Henry Ford-

“In the long run you will hit only what you aim at. Therefore, though you should fail immediately you had better aim at something high.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

Compassion is not sentimentality being nice, polite, or pleasing. Indeed it may often take on a wrathful form or manifest itself in a tough love. There can be no compassion (Karuna) without wisdom (Prajna) and no true wisdom without compassion. Genuine compassion arises with the realization of identity. When we experience the sufferings of others as our own and respond in love, we are acting from compassion.
From the Buddhist perspective, compassion ultimately generates the desire to liberate others from samsara, the cycle of rebirth. Bodhisattva- who, having gained his or her own release, postpones it for the sake of freeing others.

“Love is love’s reward.”
-John Dryden-

“One learns through the heart, not the eyes or the intellect.”
-Mark Twain-

“Without love the acquisition of knowledge only increases confusion and leads to self-destruction.”
-J. Krishnamurti-

“He that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.”
-John 4:16-

“We are all born for love… It is the principle of existence and its only end.”
-Benjamin Disraeli-

“Take away love and our earth is a tomb.”
-Robert Browning-

“Virtue is to love men.”

“All the world is full of suffering, it is also full of overcoming it.”
-Helen Keller-

“Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one… There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and its endurance. Love will never come to an end.”
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8-

Ananda Bliss), is our natural state. It is not something that we achieve or win, find or acquire. In fact, the irony of happiness is that the more we chase it, the more it flees us. The enduring joy is the one inherent in our being. It is not to be found in a person, condition, or object. It is part and parcel of the consciousness of life. To the extent that we live in consciousness, we live in joy. To the extent we are unconscious, we miss the bliss. Starting from the recognition that we are complete, we experience a bliss transcendent to pleasure and pain. Beyond the ups and downs, the inevitable turns of fortune, we embrace the whole of our lives in gratitude. Dostoyevsky called man “The ungrateful biped.” But also “Man is unhappy because he doesn’t realize he’s happy…if anyone finds out, he’ll become happy at once.”
In Zen, there is a practice of awareness referred to as “inhibiting the inhibition”, or “blocking the block.” If, as all the enlightened masters have said, true joy is our natural state of being, then we needn’t do anything to acquire it. Rather, we have only to become aware of how we are blocking it by insisting on the fulfillment of some condition before we can be happy. This awareness itself blocks the block and returns us to our natural state of bliss.

“What a wonderful live I’ve had! I only wish I’d realized it sooner.”

“Perfect happiness is the absence of striving for happiness.”
-Chuang Tze-

“Ask yourself whether you are happy, and you cease to be so.”
-John Stuart Mill-

“Happiness doesn’t depend on what we have, but it does depend on how we feel towards what we have. We can be happy with little and miserable with much.”
-W.D. Hoard-

“One joy scatters a hundred griefs.”
-Chinese Proverb-

“A merry heart doeth good like a medicine; but a broken spirit drieth the bones.”
-Proverbs 17:2-

“Within your own house dwells the treasure of joy; so why do you go begging from door to door?”
-Sufi Saying-

Simply a matter of doing what we must, without wasting time or energy worrying about whether or not we feel like it. When we develop the habit of plunging in without whining, complaining, or procrastinating, we are on our way to genuine freedom. The choice is self-discipline or dependency, boss yourself or be bossed. We require a boss because we lack the discipline to boss ourselves. We resent the boss because he or she reminds us of our dependency. Resentment in turn, robs us of our creative power we need to break the yoke of dependency.
As we break through the comfort zones of limited thinking and habitual behavior, we discover that freedom is not the ability to do what we feel like doing but the ability to choose what to do and follow through. Discipline is enlightened tenacity. Wisdom separates discipline from stubborn pride or obsessive compulsion. Too often we waste our fight. If we will but listen, the wisdom of the heart will tell us what is worth fighting for and what isn’t. Then it is simply a matter of mustering the courage and tenacity to stay the course.

“Choose always the way that seems the best, however rough it may be, custom will soon render it easy and agreeable.”

“He who cannot obey himself will be commanded. This is the nature of living creatures.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche-

“The disciplined man masters thoughts by stillness and emotions by calmness.”
-Lao Tzu-

“No man is free who cannot command himself.”

“There never has been, and cannot be, a good life without self-control.”
-Leo Tolstoy-

“Mens natures are alike; it is their habits that separate them.”

“The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet.”

“If people knew how hard I worked to get my mastery, it wouldn’t seem so wonderful after all.”

“Practice is the best of all instructions.”

“No man is more miserable than he that hath no adversity.”
-Jeremy Taylor-

Every child is full of simple wonder. How have we become so numb? Part of the numbing is the result of having shut down from past psychological pain, and part is a function of the culture in which we live. In our efforts to protect ourselves from physical and emotional pain, we shut down to life and shut out the wonder of it. We cannot dull ourselves to the pains of life without at the same time dulling ourselves to its simple pleasures.
Return to the simplicity of the child, to once again see and appreciate the joys and mysteries of this life. The wonder is all around us.

“Life is a series of surprises.”
-Ralphs Waldo Emerson-

“The most beautiful thing we can experience in the world is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed.”
-Albert Einstein-

“The mystery of life is not a problem to be solved, it is a reality to be lived.”
-Van Der Leeuwarden-

“Nothing is more simple than greatness. Indeed, to be simple is to be great.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“The Tao’s principle is spontaneity.”
-Lao Tzu-

The Game of Life
Zen tells us that getting caught up in the cravings of the ego breeds tension, anxiety, and resentment, turning this wonderful play of life into a deadly serious affair. Most of all ego craves attention. Freeing ourselves from the feelings of dependency and resentment that result from seeking the approval of others or from defending ourselves against their ridicule restores a youthful innocence and exuberance to life.
Playing the game of life with buoyancy and zest requires the release of attachment to externals – to people, places, things, or events as the source of our happiness. We find it easier to concentrate on what we are doing when we are no longer using our actions to solve our psychological problems or to fulfill unmet needs for love and approval that we have carried since childhood. We can play the game of society or career without believing that “success”, or the social approval and status it brings, make us any better as human beings, or that we are any worse for failing to achieve these, the irony is that the more we feel we need to win, the less likely we are to, or to enjoy it, if we do. When we do what we do for its own sake, it remains play. When we love and enjoy what we are doing, we do it well- naturally.

“Not to be bound by rules, but to be creating one’s own rules – this is the kind of life when zen is trying to have us live.”
-D. T. Suzuki-

“All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely player.”
-William Shakespeare-

“This then, is the human problem; there is a price to be paid for every increase in consciousness. We cannot be more sensitive to pleasure without being more sensitive to pain.”
-Alan Watts-

“The only difference between a wise man and a fool is that the wise man knows he’s playing.”
-Fritz Perls-

“Life must be lived as play.”

“The plays the thing.”
-William Shakespeare-

“The wayfarers of all times, the right strategy for skillfully spreading the way lies in adapting to communicate. Those who do not know how to adapt stick to the letter and cling to doctrines, get stuck on forms and mired in sentiments – none of them succeed in strategic adaptation.”

“Zen is the game of insight, the game of discovering who you are beneath the social masks.”
-R. H. Blyth-

“The world is his who can see through its pretension. What deafness, what stone-blind custom, what ever-grown error you behold, is there only by sufferance – your sufferance. See it to be a lie, and you have already dealt it it’s mortal blow.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-


“Wholeness” – Integrity not a matter of molding ourselves to fit abstract moral concepts of what we should be or do, but of responding to life in a natural and authentic way. The Cha’n or Zen, tradition developed in China as a kind of fusion between Buddhism and Chinese Taoism.
What is good is what is intuitive and natural. Codes of ethics and moral standards to live by are not demonstrations of integrity, but evidence that it has already been lost. When we have lost touch with our genuine integrity and no longer trust our natural or basic goodness, we resort to concepts of right and wrong, good and bad.
When our hearts are open, we are in touch with a profound intuitive intelligence – “prajna” or Wisdom of the heart.”

“The goody – goodies are the thieves of virtue.”

“Be not simply good – be good for something.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“The superior man understands what is right; the inferior understands what will sell.”

“Public opinion is a weak tyrant compared with our own private opinion. What a man thinks of himself, that is what determines or rathe, indicates, his fate.”
-Henry David Thoreau-

“Don’t listen to friends when the friend inside you says ‘Do This’.”
-Mahatma Gandhi-

Selfless Service

The spirit of compassion in action being true to who and what we are, responding to the innate spontaneous impulse to spread joy and eliminate suffering in the lives of others. Yet a life dedicated to service to our fellow beings can only arise from the ashes of the ego.
When, once and for all, we have seen the vanity and futility of ego-based desires, when we admit we have nothing to protect, when we give up trying to acquire and hold, we realize there is nothing to do, only then can we find true beauty, the genuine poetry in life that gives rise to selfless service.

“Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.”
-Albert Einstein-

“In nothing do men approach so nearly to the gods as in doing good to men.”

“And whosoever of you will be chiefs shall be the servant of all.”
-Mark 10:44-

“Whosoever shall speak to save his life shall lose it; and whosoever shall lose his life shall preserve it.”
-Luke 17:33-

“The most sublime act is to set another before you.”
-William Blake-

“A person starts to live when he can live outside of himself.”
-Albert Einstein-

The Art of Zen
Art of Life – Creating “to arrange” (latin)

When we are at one with the the creative principle, we recognize that the universe is for us and with us, and we allow it to do what it is doing through us, without resisting or holding on.

“For man is by nature an artist.”

“Everywhere I go I find a poet has been there before me.”
-Sigmund Freud-

“Art is not an end in itself, but a means of addressing humanity.”
-M.P. Moussorgski-


For every worthwhile goal “perseverance furthers” (I Ching)
Perseverance requires equal parts commitment to purpose and detachment from results. The means are the ends; the journey, the destination.

“God is with those who persevere.”
-The Koran-

“Its not the size of the dog in a fight, It’s the size of the fight in the dog.”
-Kit Raymond-

“That which we persist in doing becomes easier – not that the nature of the task has changed, but an ability to do it has increased.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

Letting Go

Surrender the ego, acceptance of insecurity, constant change – so nothing to hold on to. Release attachment to the ego. It is not the failure to fulfill these desires that brings unhappiness. It is the desires themselves.
Cravings = trishna” – Origin of human suffering.

“There is no security in life, only opportunity.”
-Mark Twain-

“Everything is in flux.”

“Life can be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.”
-Søren Kierkegaard-

“Wisdom is oftentimes nearer when we stoop then when we soar.”
-William Wordsworth-


Stop the course of the mind, tame the mind – stop the flow of automatic subconscious thinking. To achieve quietness of mind, Zen uses two types of meditation (Japanese) – 1) KOAN: question or puzzle that essentially uses the mind to exhaust the mind, 2) ZAZEN: attention to the breath in a siting meditation (still the mind)
Rinzai school emphasizes Koan
Soto school emphasizes Zazen

“All human evil comes from a single cause, man’s inability to sit still in a room.”
-Blaise Pascal-

“Those who seek the truth by means of intellect and learning only get further and further away from it.”
-Huang Po-

“Silence is the garden of meditation.”

“Seeking the mind with the mind. – Is not this the greatest of all mistakes?”

“A mind that is fast is sick. A mind that is slow is sound. A mind that is still is divine.”
-Meher Baba-

“The seed of mystery lies in muddy water. How can I perceive this mystery? Water becomes clear through stillness. How can I become still? By flowing with the stream.”
-Lao Tzu-

“Be still, and know that I am God.”
-Psalms 46:10-


The practice of attention – wake up! Awareness transforms experience. There is no right or wrong way; there is only being more or less conscious. The goal is to become more fully conscious of ourselves, not to correct ourselves. Because they rely on memory, efforts at self-correction are always removed from the immediacy of the moment.
Jealousy – unconsciously give way to hatred. Struggle against it by, thinking = guilt. We must instead examine the thought itself and attempt to understand the context. Thought and feelings can then become windows to awakening.

“Nothing divides one so much as thought.”
-R.H. Blyth-

“Zen is mind-less activity, that is, mind-ful activity, and it may often be advisable to emphasize the mind, and say, ‘Take care of the thoughts and the actions will take care of themselves’.”
-R.H. Blyth-

“Awaken the mind without fixing it anywhere.”
-Diamond Sutra-

“You with to see; listen. Hearing is a step toward vision.”
-St. Bernard-

“Compared to what we ought to be, we are half awake.”
-William James-


Zen does not like to speak of enlightenment. Yet it must as Lao Tzu says of this paradox…..”Those who know do not speak and those who speak do not know.”
Our likelihood of getting caught in a net of words or lost in a labyrinth of concepts and missing the reality they are pointing at. This is the paradox: to say nothing shows lack of compassion; to say too much risks leading astray. Zen masters rely on direct pointing – abrupt physical actions or irrational statements that pitch the questioner out of intellect and into “the suchness” of things.

“He who knows others is wise; He who knows himself is enlightened.”
-Lao Tzu-

“The attainment of enlightenment from the ego’s point of view is extreme death.”
-Chogyam Trungpa-

“Before enlightenment, I chopped wood and carried water; after enlightenment, I chopped wood and carried water.”
-Zen Saying-

“When we’re not attached to anything, all things are as they are: with activity there is no going, no staying.”

“The reward of all action is to be found in enlightenment.”
-Bhagavad Gita-

“When people reach the highest perfection, it is nothing special; it is their normal condition.”
-Hindu Saying-

Everyday Zen

Zen is not a religion, rather it is poetry of life. It is meeting our everyday responsibilities with energy and cheerfulness. Everyday Zen means dealing with the world as it is, not insisting that it be the way we think it should be before we will love and embrace it. The greed, the violence, the pettiness, the stupidity we see all around us – these cry out for our love and understanding, not our condemnation. If in a selfish world I remain compassionate, in a violent world I remain peaceful, in a shallow world I maintain depth and sincerity, in a world of ingratitude I celebrate the gift of life, then I have done what i can do.
A Zen attitude frees us from ideas of victimization that permeate popular culture an reminds us that we are the “them” we so often complain about. It says, “Don’t spend you time in idle complaint; roll up your sleeves and get to work.”

“It is preoccupation with possessions more than anything else, that prevents us from living freely and nobly.”
-Bernard Russell-

“Zen is not some kind of excitement, but concentration on our usual everyday routine.”
-Shunryu Suzuki-

“A noble person attracts noble people, and knows how to hold onto them.”
-Johann Goethe-

“Every minute you are angry, you loose sixty seconds of happiness.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

“There’s no cure for birth and death save to enjoy the interval.”
-George Santayana-

“One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love.”

-Henry David Thoreau-

Diggin in the Dirt



I reread much of some of my past journals these last few days.
I have written about my health good and bad, my ideas and thoughts, my relationships, financial and economic burdens I’ve faced, my habits good and bad, my family thoughts and relations, my coping skills, my music and movie preferences, my childhood memories, my research on philosophy / psychology of life, my political ideas, and pretty much anything I was interested in at the moment I was writing.
I see patterns throughout the many years I have put pen to paper. Some good and some bad. The over examination and possibly the under achievements that I may have capitalized on more had my discipline been better, despite the monumental achievements made when I was in my prime and working and going to SDSU.
I guess it’s never too late. Just need to figure out what the hell I’m gonna do!
My nemesis! Not knowing or able to dream the dream of my deepest wish. I don’t think I’ve soured that much to be able to figure it out, but I just might need some help in doing so. Maybe some good counseling sessions will do me good if I’m able to break through the choice in good counselors.
Getting myself on the right path is a start.
My sacrifice for letting the wrong side controlling my inner and outer affairs. Should have seen this coming, or if I did, should have been better able to combat its tyranny over my soul! Get back to the old self. Get back to the ever-lovin’ need to excel beyond my own capabilities and self-actualize into a better person.
I’ve let the core me enslaved by the weaker ruling entanglements of myself which only pretend to be a source for treating a hurtful soul. A lie that continues to deplete my inner resources and keeps me captive in my own self-imposed hell. You’d think I’d learn by now.

Working my life in an industry that is not rewarding for my creative desires was not the best decision I’ve made. I think I’ve let too many influences distract me into a less optimal mindset. Some of those influences I take full responsibility for since they germinated from within my mind. The origins of frustration, dissatisfaction and improper focus of my abilities which has in essence dulled my senses and motivation to move out from under the trappings of such ideas. At a younger age I was full of wanting to know, wanting to learn and becoming someone of admirable fortitude and perseverance to excel. This motivation was later discovered by the inner rage of wanting to escape a very emotionally and intellectually impoverished family upbringing.
I was truly on my way, but at some point I stopped advancing, and for reasons not yet completely known, I began to listen to an inner self that took me away from some of my most cherished goals. No sound advise was ever given to me by practically anyone other than some of the books I’ve read, or some of those things you hear from your school mates that you take it or leave it if you believe what they say. The dissemination’s of those suggesting that they have some ego-related pearls of wisdom about their encounters with the opposite sex were tossed around constantly from time to time through-out my adolescent and young adult life as well, but fragments of these would only be taken for any of its passing value. Nay, not many mentions of others actually helped me in my dealing with the opposite sex during my early maturation. I think my own experiences and observations provided me with the only information I had to go on, and painfully learn from, though I must admit many very good lessons are now with me.

I pride myself in not becoming what many of my peers had succumbed to in their plights of passage.  I’m no prude, but I can at least say I am over-all very happy with my treatment of such matters. I do have a few exceptions, that I have learned from, and will hopefully not ever repeat again.  I have some painful lessons learned that I can rely on again to help me never stray away from my true self image and demeanor towards those I may see. The judgment part in situations of the relationship is often or sometimes so elusive and difficult to see clearly on just what is going on. Especially when our emotional/psychological factors intervene and at times are simply incorrect or not reliable. I fear this to be a problem, but like any problem, solutions have made themselves avail to those who look clearly.

Oh those old lessons learned from your past, gotta love em.

Words of Wisdom


Here is a collection of some notable quotations that I thought were meaningful.

The self that we are now contains the actualization potential which will fulfill us.
(Leo Buscaglia: Personhood)

I realize today that nothing in the world is more distasteful to a man than to take the path that leads to himself.
(Herman Hess: Demian)

Down the many roads among the stars must man propel himself in search of the final secret? The journey is difficult, immense, at times impossible, yet that will not deter some of us from attempting it….We have joined the caravan, you might say, at a certain point; we will travel as far as we can, but we cannot in one lifetime see all that we would like to see or to learn all that we hunger to know. (Loren Easily The Immense Journey)

But where shall I start? The world is so vast, I shall start with the country I know best, my own. But my country is so very large. I had better start with my street, No my family, never mind, I shall start with myself.
(Elie Diesel Souls on Fire)

The manifestation of every person and the world in which we live is the minimum requirement of our existence, its major purpose and its only hope.
(L. Buscaglia: Personhood)

Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of life’s long for itself. They come through you but not from you. And though they are with you yet they belong not to you. You may give them your love, but not your thoughts, for they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, for theirs dwell in the house of tomorrow which you cannot visit not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
(Kahn Gibran: The Prophet)

Childhood is a time for play, for experimentation. Everything is curious. Few of us have been able to escape the fascination (and frustration) of watching a child explore. No place is too perilous, no object too valuable, no obstacle too insurmountable. They braille their way fearlessly over the world seeing, listening, responding. The mystery the child is searching for is itself.
(L. Buscaglia: Presented

The adult with a capacity for true maturity is one who has grown out of childhood without losing childhood’s best traits. He has retained the basic emotional strengths of infancy, the stubborn autonomy of tottered the capacity for wonder and pleasure and playfulness of the preschool years, the capacity for affiliation and the intellectual curiosity of the school years. The idealism and passion of adolescence. He has incorporated these into a new pattern of development dominated by adult stability, wisdom, knowledge, sensitivity to other epode responsibility, strength, and purposiveness.
(Joseph Stone and Joseph Church: Childhood and Adolescence)

Maturity is not a goal, but rather a process.
(L. Buscaglia: Presented

The Buddhas and the Christ’s are born complete. They neither seek love nor give love, because they are love itself. But we who are born again and again must discover the meaning of love, must learn to live as love, must love as the flower lives beauty.
(Henry Miller: Insomnia)

True intimacy is a positive force only if it is a combining of strengths and energies with other mature persons for the continued growth of each.
(L. Buscaglia: Personhood)

The afternoon of life must also have a significance of its own and cannot be merely a pitiful appendage to life’s morning.
(Carl Jung)

Do not go gentle into that good night. Old age should burn and rage at close of day.
(Dylan Thomas)

The tragedy of old age is not that one is old, but that one is young.
(Oscar Wilde)

If life’s meaning is to be discovered, it is intrinsic in each stage as we assume the challenge of actualizing every moment of every day as we live it.
(L. Buscaglia: Personhood)

Man has come to control all other forms of life because he has taken more time in which to grow up; when he takes still more time, and spends this time more wisely, he may learn to control and remake himself.
(Will Durant: The study of Philosophy)

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.
(Eleanor Roosevelt)

If name be needed, wonder names them both; from wonder into wonder existence opens.
(Lao Tzu: The way of the life – biennia translation)

As to the way – the intelligent man goes beyond it, the imbecile does not go far enough.
(Confucius: from the chang youg, 4)

Confucius said: When a man carries out the principals of conscientiousness and reciprocity he is not far from the universal law. What you do not wish others should do unto you, do not unto them.
(From the golden mean of tsesze XIII)

A wicked man who reproaches a virtuous on Eli like one who looks up and spits at heaven; the spittle soils not the heaven but comes back and defiles his own person.
(Buddha: The sutra of forty two sections)

There are two extremes, O brethren which a holy man should avoid the habitual practice of…. Self-indulgence, which is vulgar and profitless….and the practice of self-mortification, which is painfully and equally profitless.
(Buddha: The sermon at Benares)

The religious life, Malunkyapulta, does not depend on the dogma that the world is eternal; not does the religious life, malunkyapulta, depend on the dogma that the world is not eternal. No matter what the dogma….There still remains birth, old age, death, sorrow, lamentation, misery, grief and despair. And it is against these here on earth that I am prescribing.
(Buddha: The Majjhima Nikaya)

Know the self to be sitting in the chariot, the body to be the chariot, the intellect the charioteer, and the mind the reins. The senses they call the horses, the objects of the senses their roads. When he is in union with the body, the senses, and the mind, then wise people call him the enjoyer.
(The Upanishads, V)

Depend not on another, but lean instead on thyself…True happiness is born of self reliance…
(The Laws Of Man)

Knowledge is the holiest of holies, the God of God’s, and commands the respect of crowned heads: shown of it a man is but an animal. The features and furniture of one’s house may be stolen by thieves, but knowledge the highest treasure, is above all stealing.
(The Pureness II)

There is no fault in those who believe and do deeds of righteousness – God Loves the good Doers.
(The Koran)

Thou sets the evildoers going in fear of what they have earned, that is about to fall on them; but those who believe and do righteous deeds are in meadows of the gardens.
(The Koran)

I do not ask of you a wage for this, except love for the kinfolk; and whosoever gains a good deed, we shall give him increase of good in respect of it.
(The Koran)

More flesh, more worms;
More wealth, more worry;
More women, more witchcraft;
More concubines, more lechery;
More slave, More thievery.
But, More law, more life;
More study, more wisdom;
More counsel, more enlightenment,;
More Righteousness, More peace.
(The Talmud from Mishna)

Four classes of men will never see God’s face: The scoffer, the liar, the slanderer, and the hypocrite.
(The Tallied sata h, 24a)

Choose life, that you my live, you and your descendants
(Deuteronomy 30:19)

Therefore thou art inexcusable, O man, whosoever thou art that judgest; for wherein thou judgest, thou condiments thyself; for you that judges doeth the same things.
(The Epistle of Paul Romans 2:1-2)

But I say unto you which hear, love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. And unto him that smitten thee on the one cheek offer also the other; and him that taketh away thy cloak forbid not to take thy coat also. Give every man that asketh of thee, and of him that taketh away thy goods ask them not again. And as yea would that men should do to you, do yea also to them likewise.
(Luke 6:27-31)

Know yea not that yea are the temple of God, and that the spirit of God dwelt in you? If any man defile the temple of God, him shall god destroy: for, the temple of God is holy, which temple yea are.
I Corinthians 3:16,17)

We do not exist for ourselves (as the center of the universe), and it is only when we are fully convinced of this fact that we begin to love ourselves properly and thus also love others. What do I mean by loving ourselves properly? I mean, first of all, desiring to live, accepting life as a very great gift and a great good, not because of what it gives us, but because of what it enables us to give others.
(Thomas Merton)

He who isn’t busy being born is busy dying!
(Bob Dylan)

Perhaps the fact of life most conductive to living fully as a person is an honest awareness and acceptance of death.
(L. Buscaglia: Personhood)

When we can embrace death as simply another aspect of the life cycle, we sill give appreciation and value to each life encounter knowing that it will never occur again.
(L Buscaglia: Personhood)

Love not what you are but only what you may become.

No man is an island of itself. Each is a piece of the continent a part of the main.
(John Donne)

He who enters the sphere of faith (the state of being ultimately concerned) enters into the sanctuary of life.
(Paul Tillich)

Nothing here below is profane for those who know how to see. On the contrary everything is sacred.
(Teilhard De Chardin)

When we cling to pain, we end up punishing ourselves.
(Leo Buscaglia: Personhood)

“Each day is a gift to you. Make it blossom and grow into a thing of beauty”

“The Miracle is this…the more we share, the more we have.”
-Leonard Nimoy-

“A person who aims at nothing has a target he can’t miss.”

“Better than being the head of the family is being the heart of it.”

“Behind the idea that one calls one’s own are the thoughts and efforts of many.”

“The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple.”
-Oscar Wilde-

“When you’re through changing, you’re through.”

“The first essential of doing a job well is the wish to see the job done at all.”
-Franklin Delano Roosevelt-

“Family faces are magic mirrors. Looking at people who belong to us, we see the past, present and future. We make discoveries about ourselves.”

“It is good to let a little sunshine out as well as in.”

“Time Flies; but remember, you are the navigator.”

“Some things have to be believed to be seen.”
-Ralphs Hodgkin

“We see through others only when we see through ourselves.”
-Eric Hoffer-

“Advise would be more acceptable if it didn’t always conflict with our plans.”

“You can’t expect an empty bag to stand up straight.”

“The nice thing about teamwork is that you always have others on your side.”

“Those who are ashamed of the past and afraid of the future don’t find the present so hot either.”

“We are like trees; we must create new leaves new directions, in order to grow.”

“Don’t be content with being average. Average is as close to the bottom as it is to the top.”

“Don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.”
-Richard L. Evans-

“Nothing will happen if we all wait for others to do it first.”

“The heart must have its time of snow…to rest in silence, and then to grow.”

“When day is done you frequently discover that little else is.”

“Time is nature’s way of preventing everything from happening at once.”

“Great visions often start with small dreams.”

“Angels whisper to a man when he goes for a walk.”

“The beginnings of all things are small.”

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.”
-Helen Keller-

“You deep on getting what you’ve been getting when you keep on doing what you’ve been doing.”

“Friendship is like a rainbow between two hearts.”

“The best preparation for tomorrow is to do today’s work superbly well.”
-Sir William Osler-

“We need people with the artistry to live in simplicity as the hummingbird does, enjoying with nectar without bruising the flower.”

“Only those who have the patience to do simple things perfectly will acquire the skill to do difficult things easily.”
-Friedrich Shiller-

“A smile is a passport that will take you anywhere you want to go.”

“If the world seems cold to you, kindle fires to warm it.”

“Incomplete terminations interfere with new beginnings.”

“For everything there is a season and a time for every matter under heaven.”
-The Bible-

“it is what we are that gets across, not what we try to teach.”

“We can’t all be shinning examples, but we can at least twinkle a little.”

“One loving spirit sets another on fire.”
-St. Augustine-

“Sometimes it is better to be open and feeling than closed and wise.”

“Nice guys may appear to finish last, but usually they are running a different race.”

“Treasure is not always a friend, but a friend is always a treasure.”

“Success consists in doing the common things of life uncommonly well.”

“Loneliness expresses the pain of being alone and solitude expresses the glory of being alone.”

“Live to make the world less difficult for each other.”
-George Eliot-

“To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are.”

“If you don’t know where you are going, you may miss it when you get there.”

“The closer we are to that which surrounds us, the closer we are with ourselves.”

“So long as enthusiasm lasts, so long is youth still within us.”

“He lives in wisdom who sees himself in all and all in him”
-Bhagavad Gita-

“It is better to be alone than in bad company.”

“And this I have learned…grownups do not know the language of shadows.”
-Opal Whiteley-

“Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.”
-Khalif Gibran-

“An optimist may see a light where there is none, but why must the pessimist always run to blow it out?”
-Michel De Saint Pierre-

“Contentment consists not in treat wealth, but in few wants.”

“By the time you have figured out the right way to raise a child, he’s all grown up.”

“If you don’t enjoy what you have, how could you be happier with more?”

“Each day slowly shapes our lives, as dripping water shapes the stone.”

“Kindness is the golden chain by which society is bound together.”

“Do more than listen; Understand.”
-John H. Rhoades-

“The only thing of value we can give kids is what we are, not what we have.”
-Leo Buscaglia-

“Life is a mystery to be lived; not a problem to be solved.”

“Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.”
-William Jennings Bryan-

“Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.”
-Helen Keller-

The sayings of the Sages
Wisdom from the East

Honor thy father, and thy son will honor thee.

When a consuming desire to steal another’s goods is transformed into action, the result is endless woe.

If you keep looking for faults, at last even your relatives will leave you.

A learned man who gives good advice to others and forgets of himself is to be compared with the wick of a lamp which spends light to others, while its own self wastes away.

Three are not to be trusted: the steadiness of a horse, the favor of a king and the faith of women.

The prudent takes no poison even if he possesses the antidote.

Do not act too familiarly with the noble, for he will feel offended; nor with the vile, for he will become insolent toward thee.

A fool gives a nut to him who has to teeth. He gives advice to one who has not the means to follow it.

Not he who can extricate himself from difficulties is the prudent one, but he who cautiously bewares not to intricate himself.

It is better that thou shouldst guard thy secret than that another one should guard it.

He who proves things by experience increases his knowledge, he who believes blindly increases his error.

The following are good when joined together: Learning joined with the fear of God, memory with genius, beauty with kindness, nobility of decent with good morals, joy with security, riches with contentment and endeavor with the help of God.

A Smiling enemy is like a colocynth, it has green leaves, but its taste kills.

Men eat greedily; more greedily, however, time eats them.

Two are not to be satiated: he that seeks knowledge and he that seeks riches.

To refuse in a kind manner is better than to make promises which are not kept.

Beware of thy enemy once, of thy friends a thousand times.

Thy secret is thy prisoner if thou keepest it; thou are it prisoner if thou divulgest it.

A wound inflicted by speech is more painful than a wound inflicted by the sword.

Bad morals destroy what the ancestors have built.

Eloquence consists in making the speech comprehensible to the multitude and agreeable to the learned.

Water is the most indifferent thing as long as we have it, – the most precious as soon as we want it.

On entering every one feels embarrassed; the remedy is a friendly greeting.

Envy is like rust on iron, that leaves it not until it corrodes it.

To be inclined to anger is in the nature of boys; to mourn the past is in the nature of women.

If traveling in the land of one-eyed, put out one of thy eyes.

Mankind consists of two men; one who takes heed, the other of whom heed is taken.

Do not confine your children to your own learning, for they were born in another time.

When the son’s beard begins to grow shave thy own beard.

Be submissive in thy childhood that thou mayest be respected in thy old age.

If you can solve the knot with the tongue, do not solve it with the teeth.

He who excuses himself without having given offense makes himself suspected of it.

Do not trust who lies for thee, for he is as ready to lie against thee.

Who asks more of a friend than he can bestow deserves to be refused.

Every bird rejoices in its own voice.

Three make lean – a slow messenger, a lamp that does not shine, and the expectation to dine at the table of him who is yet to come.

Beware of too much laughter, for it deadens the mind and produces oblivion.

The beginning of anger is madness; the end is penitence.

A man cannot be blamed for not being of noble origin.

Old age is sickness enough.

thy right hand shall not inflict injury upon thy left hand. (Be just to thy own kind.)

Treat thy subordinate with kindness, thy equal with justice and thy superior with prudence.

Do unto thy brother as thou wouldst have him do unto thee.

A friendly smile is a key to security and a lamp to benevolence.

Instruction in the time of youth is like the sculpture on a stone.

A face without bashfulness is like a log whose bark has been peeled off, and like a lamp whose oil has been consumed.

He who fatigues his body brings peace to his mind.

Nothing that comes from heaven is more bitter than the cup of blindness.

Speech is a beautiful net in which souls are caught.

The enemy of thy father, as long as he lives, will never be thy friend.

For three things there is no remedy: Poverty associated with laziness, sickness coupled with old age, and enmity mixed with envy.

Weakness married laziness and their progeny was poverty.

None will scratch my back but my own nail, and none will hasten my business but my own foot.

The egg of today is better than the hen of tomorrow.

He who accepts the promise of security from an enemy is not free from danger.

Why is the flap of the ear soft? That one may press it into the cavity of the ear when he hears objectionable words.

The friend of a king is like one that rides on a lion: men fear him, and he fears the animal on which he rides.

He who administers to a king should enter blind and leave mute.

A little bread is better than a thousand words.

Not every one who is covered with a leopard skin is a hero.

When the hawk grows old the sparrows mock him.

Two are to be pitied: the noble in the power of the vile, and the wise in the power of the fool.

Every moment of time carries away a part of thy life.

Thy morning time is a fox, thy evening a wolf. In youth we are beguiled by time; in old age we are devoured by it.

Be not of those who publicly curse the devil, and secretly serve him.

Beauty is the wisdom of women, and wisdom is the beauty of men.

The avaricious is the guardian of his riches and the treasurer of his heir.

Knowledge is like a mountain: difficult to ascend but easy to descend.

He who buys bread with borrowed money, have compassion of him; he who buys meat with borrowed money, thrown at him a stone.

When thy neighbor shaves his beard, soap thou thine.

Not every one who searches finds, and not every one who flees escapes.

Riches and all worldly things perish; good deeds remain.

When the rich man tells a lie all say, “It is true;” and when he dances all say, “How beautiful it is!”

The fox favored by fortune conquers the lion favored by strength.

Riches are like water in the house, whose channels are obstructed; if it finds no exit it drowns the owner.

If thou hast not what thou desirest, desire what thou hast.

The greatest delight for the inhabitants of paradise is the consciousness that it will not end.

Health is better than medicine; not to sin is better than to be forgiven.

How many poor are rich in mind, and how many rich are poor in mind?

To abstain from the prohibited is better than to seek after the permitted.

The best of men is he who sees his own faults and does not see the faults of others.

The remedy for him who has no remedy is patience.

He is the wise man whose action, word, and thought are one and the same.

Riches and all worldly things perish; good deeds remain.

Searching the Self…some Past Reflections


Many memories come to mind during the 1970’s. Much has happened during that time when I was 7 to the time I was 17 years old. A decade that provokes many painful and joyous times, yet my memories of the joyous times were fewer than I would have preferred. My overall nature was naive which gave rise to a bit of an optimism that feeds my hope, but it also tied a shyness and endowed me with an uncertain demeanor in my abilities primarily due to the oppressive nature of my family history I must surmise.
The Optimism came from my own imagination and probably the influence of my naiveté. I don’t think I was as negative then as I have become in periods later on in my years. I believe whole heartedly that in my experience with people, some have used and taken advantage of my natural open nature, therefore this has led to some poor decisions on my part in dealing with them effectively and justly.

My betterment would come in the aid of experience and learn from these encounters, but it must also be tied directly to a stronger self esteem that would protect my inner self from troubles. Troubles that have come in the form of exterior motives from others, be them accidental or intentional I know not. I must admit that from reading past journal entries there comes an epiphany. In my own solitude and misfortune I have largely contributed to these encounters by going into them partially blinded, and partially opened eyed!

I have yet to analyze this in detail, but my overall conception is that my growth/demise comes in many shapes and forms. I see there are noticeable differences in the past several decades and my culpability has a direct correlation. Though I find that many of these have a similar pattern, it is also noted that the decade in which they are found has unique circumstances that bring about their possibilities to begin with.

  • Ego Related
  • Experience / Naiveté
  • Family Tolerance
  • Maturity
  • Perception

The course of my life has made me reflect too much on things I suspect that others may take for granted, or is it that they do not anguish as I do over the things that take my mind away from the better parts of life? I have had no affirmative answer on this question in my searches for over the last 40 years of my life.Growing up in an environment, starved for affection, knowledge, love, peace, and autonomy was a hellish place to be.
Many of us have to face challenges through out our lives. It simply must be a truth to say that the more love, respect, acceptance, and good behavioral example an individual receives as a child; it is more likely that they will be better off in becoming good human beings for the following stages of life.
I think statistically the converse is also true, though I do believe in extraordinary anomalous circumstances and the possibilities of events like these can occur. The true hero’s are those that despite their circumstances in life, they rise up above it and become better human beings. I believe that there were times I rose above my circumstances and choose to be better. I also believe that I have also fallen far below my potential and have been crippled by my “Achilles heal” and resorted to poorly executed coping strategies that have kept me in despair, silenced my better nature, and to an extent kept me in a perpetual prison of my own creation.


With a disposition of being alone, or only being able to rely on my own sensibilities, I’ve made some discoveries and made some mistakes on my reliance of others and myself. I’ve never liked deception, or other factors that bring about the bad in people. I’ve learned that selfishness and other such faulty human ego-attributes are problematic and unnecessary. They don’t have any valuable payoff in the long run, but are so often utilized by so many for different reasons. I would not be honest if I did not admit to having such problems myself and struggle with this from time to time. Ego is the primary reason for someone to lose their path. Those who get caught in its illusory powers, usually end on a path that disfavors those whom they tend to find in the blinded path they take. Perspective is the true compass to circumnavigate the errors that the ego tends to leads us on our paths.



These are the journaled thoughts that include some very early works of DCGunnersen. Some of the earliest existing known documents that have remained unfettered have been included. Unfortunately many of my poems, songs, and verse in the course of several decades were misplaced or lost. I will work on trying to recover them to include at a later time with an addendum. This work will be published in Itunes bookstore with audio and video attachments of select songs.

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Auguste Rodin

My journey started at an age in our country’s history that was rife with distention and turmoil, ubiquitous with change and discovery. It was also a time when increasingly people began rethinking what it was to be human.
As a nation we were facing a time when our civil liberties were being challenged and championed, tempered and tested, along with formed and fashioned. Apart from commonalities that bind and unite so many of us together, there are those whose personal journeys, demonstrates a painful reminder that insurmountable obstacles are endured and detract from their prospective life tour. Indeed injustice is a fact of life. There are many passages that are quite less painful and the traveler has manifested learned skills to circumvent some of these common obstacles.
In my case, I come from an average working class background in a family of four, with a blue collar work ethic and parents who did not receive a college education. I was born in a time when John F. Kennedy was shot, when The Beatles arrived in the USA, when Alcatraz closed down as a federal penitentiary, and when Martin Luther King Jr. gave his greatest speech “I have a Dream” in front of 200,000 people at the Lincoln Memorial.
I also was born into a family that did not quite understand the meaning of “intimacy.” The struggle to impart any kind of a healthy world view and skill of becoming a successful person in relationships, were not the best of what my parents could offer. My family had a difficult time just relating to one another my entire life, as with many families who face some of these intimacy issues. As I matured, I withdrew into my own perceptions and observations about the world as it unfolded. I was both the master and / or the slave upon which my beliefs conducted me into this brave new world. I sense that that my family’s interactive behavior had ultimately led me on a lifelong quest to find some answers to the questions that has perplexed so many of us from time to time. Due to the insatiable need that grew within me, questions began to emerge from a skepticism that was derived from the foundation of my family’s interactions and was conveyed through my own family experience. I have always loved my family and wanted closer connections, but my skills to achieve this were not yet formed.
Not really knowing what I wanted to do with my life after graduating from high school, I moved in with my band mates 2 weeks before I graduated when I was 17. We lived in a 3 bedroom house near San Diego State University. This post- high school rock band kept us busy as we played for parties, and college events. I attended Grossmont college a local community college, and pursued my education on a piece-meal part-time basis. I supported myself, and could not afford to go full-time, let alone the fact that I did not quite know what I wanted to do with my life. Playing music in a rock band was a passion, living on my own and supporting myself was a great experience but going to school as well made it a reality that I had to struggle with.
Eventually, after much effort to excel in academics, something most dear to my heart, I became better and better as a student. I eventually transferred to San Diego State University, retained a better job, worked diligently and double majored in Psychology and Philosophy.
In some circles, I was known as a type 5 (observer or investigator), from the enneagram paradigm. It has been thought that the childhood experience does not cause the personality type, but rather somehow bestows a model of development affecting the child as he/she grows and matures. As Riso and Hudson put it from their work “ The Wisdom of the Enneagram” (1999):
In a five’s case, they often report as children, that they did not feel safe in their families; they felt in danger of being overwhelmed by their parents, and so they started looking for a way that they could feel secure and confident. First they retreated from the family into their own private space – mentally, physically, and emotionally. Second they turned their attention away from their personal and emotional needs onto something “objective.”
Little did I know at the time, even as a boy, my thoughts were about seeking a better life for myself, a life that would direct me into a lifestyle demonstrating warmth and security. At an early age I did not know why I had turned out the way I did, but I was compelled to search for alternate views of the world I was told existed. My father once advised me of his world view: “You work, and then you Die!”
A fairly harsh philosophy, but somewhat understandable coming from a blue collar, 2nd generation Danish immigrant whose world view comprised some major intimacy issues stemming from his own upbringing. I’d like to thank Henry David Thoreau to place an antidote of this statement in my memory; the antithesis is …”When it is time to die, let us not discover that we have never lived.”
I perceived that in my early adulthood, and possibly even my childhood, I was able to sense things on levels deeper than most other people. I felt connected empathetically to people that I had an interest in, and on occasion some of the acquaintances I had met.
Much of my adult life has been in the pursuit of living the day to day necessities. I had children, played/composed and performed live music/lyrics in other rock bands. I’ve worked hard in my professional life, hung out and socialized with my friends, and frequently contemplated the quality of my life on day’s end. My quest for a better understanding of the world has never faded, though it has shifted perspectives from now and then, as do many priorities.
My first true journal was written sometime when I was in middle school, but I’m not certain if that is when I began documenting the events in my life. I think I had primarily wrote my feelings since I could not demonstrate them in front of my family. I had to hide any true feeling, thoughts or emotions on the fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, or called an atrocious explicative by my father especially if I happened to disrupt his television show. I eventually threw the early journal away for fear of being found and read by others in the family. My privacy was scarce and did not want to risk being discovered, especially my feelings and thoughts.
I became somewhat of a reader at an early age, starting out with comic books in elementary school, and then graduated to non-fiction as I matured. Books on History, and almanacs seem to come to mind and were of interest to me at that time. I naturally was attracted to my interests in music, photography, esoteric mystics, the paranormal, and the legends and lore of Bigfoot and “Nessie”, and of course as much information I could gather about the opposite sex.
I learned to play guitar when I was very young. The father of some of my childhood friends in the neighborhood used to gather their friends (who were much older) in their garage in the mid to late 1960’s. Mr. Reeves’ loved country and gospel music, so we used to play country songs during that time. Phil and Larry’s family were also in the Navy, and originally from Mississippi. The first song I remember learning was Hank Williams’ “I Saw the Light” so long ago in their garage. I believe I was able to use the guitar to more easily express my feelings through music medium when growing up during elementary school.
Movies were of much importance to me growing up. I seem to have identified with many characters in some of my favorites throughout the years. I specifically remember creating a disturbance with some of the parents of the kids in my high school. I signed my senior yearbook with annotations of “suicide is painless”, the lyrics from a song in the movie M*A*S*H* by Johnny Mandel. I think I was trying to reach out to the kids in some eccentric way by penning these lyrics into their yearbooks.

Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see, that

(Bm) / G Em / D Bm / Em A / D Bm /

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

/ G A / D – / GEm A Bm – /

Try to find a way to make
All our little joys relate
Without that ever-present hate
But now I know that it’s too late

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The game of life is hard to play
I’m gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I’ll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The only way to win is cheat
And lay it down before I’m beat
And to another give my seat
For that’s the only painless feat

‘Cause Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The sword of time will pierce our skin
It doesn’t hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger, watch it grin

For Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
Is it to be or not to be
And I replied, oh, why ask me

‘Cause Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

And you can do the same thing
If you please

I thought they were very meaningful, yet in retrospect, I must have seemed like a nonconformist goof to some. Then again, at least my mark was a little more progressive than the typical “Dude, get drunk, get stoned, and get laid!”
Probably the most profound character identification I have aligned myself with is in that of Larry Darrell, a character in M. Sumerset Maugham’s 1944 book “The Razor’s Edge”. This book had a huge influence on my life.
Yes, as Henry David Thoreau puts it in Walden (1854), “,,,most men are slaves to their work and enslaved to those for whom they work.. He concludes: “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation….”.
Funny yet another character intercedes this vision, and comes to my mind; the 1946 Frank Capra film “It’s a Wonderful Life”. George continually dreams and seeks adventure away from his home town, only to have found that he is dubbed the “wealthiest” man despite his modest means and never realizing his dream of adventures around the world.
Academically my dominant influence was psychology during the early 1980‘s, but I had a huge shift in interest when I first was exposed to philosophy when attending Grossmont College. There were several instructors that had a great influence on me at that quaint community college during that time, but one that truly stands out was instructor of philosophy Paul Wheatcroft.
The “awakening” that occurred within me was largely due to his charisma and unconventional teaching methods in company with the selections of works we studied. I remember many times leaving his classes feeling a transmogrification and euphoria by what we had just discussed in class. I was now perceiving the world I had once known in an entirely different way, and by retaining these new tools of scrutiny my cognitive toolbox became much more powerful. It was my own personal Platonic “allegory of the cave” encounter.
The evolution and maturation of my social skills accelerated about the time I started my education at San Diego State University. I remember another major turning point in self development was when I volunteered as a Crisis Intervention Counselor offsite at SDSU. I made some very painful but insightful observations about myself learning the skills needed in Crisis Invention.
The “heady” person I tend to be was challenged by the “emotive” person I needed to be in a “Rogerian” client centered environment.
The 1990’s were also integral in my development as a musician. Though I had learned some in the early 1980’s when I played with my first band, I devoted the rest of the decade to my academic studies. I wrote a small portion of my songs during the 80’s and went on to develop what I had learned from this experience in the 90’s.. A time when I was very active with work, absorbed with trying to spend time with my children as much as possible, and devoting the left over time with my band.
I spent a portion of time in the new millennium putting my thoughts into journals. I have also devoted some time reading and researching interests that attract me. My latest venture includes experimenting with blogging.

c. 1981
Living alone
working hard
thinking its a drag to leave the good life behind me
lies within my grasp
my pride holds me back
maybe I should have thought about my current situation
but my minds made up
the single life is now my own biding
I’m on my own
I’ve made a new start
things aren’t bad only getting better, better than before
money comes money goes
objects become less and value become more

c. 1981
Harmony we live in
when each one of us sees
how each other feels
and a time when all appease
Like the feather from a dove
a symbol we all know
like a feeling between lovers
a quality all should show

Decembre 18, 1983
Oh but when those sad, sad feelings
seem to take you for a ride
finding your own way through makes it easier to survive

Mai 21, 198?
The face that stares
Empty sockets pale with color
Shinny surface only reflects what do you see
look again
not without but within
see the inner light
according to directional spin
right motivation
to ultimate orientation develop upon inclination

Fevrier 5, 1986
Why don’t you picture a woman
so vividly clear a lovely vision
oh but so delightfully near
and what of my impulse to show you
what I see… a traveling sensation of feelings bouncing off inside of me
so let’s share our thoughts and lets share our minds
you see I’m into telling you thats fine
a giving nature just can’t succeed without wise intentions of honesty
find the meaning, trust the night
high response to warmth
enjoy its beloved sight
so it’s fulfillment you seek
of a pleasurable kind
not taste nor touch nor feeling from wine
isn’t that again another delusion divine
yes a desire is present
not being distorted
but clear creative passion in my heart
guides intelligence spontaneity hence sincere

Fevrier 12, 1986
Ripper’s Blues
classic blues
Well……Cardboard, Go-backs, Porter’s room, Floors its plain….I’ve got a description to name this workman’s game
You’re called a ripper
and if I had it my way…my work I’d shun it all today…cause I’m a ripper
Let me tell ya now
and when ya work as I do
It’s like being the dog – yeah – that’s you
when you’re a ripper
feels like it’s gonna be… another hard days work for me…cause I’m a ripper
It’s when you’re puttin’ on extra miles, screamin’ on down those aisles
you become a ripper
Down half the time on your hands and knees
scooping up cardboard is just agony
Yeah – that’s life for the ripper
well the boss-man say don’t complain
you’re employed boy don’t be shamed
if you’re a ripper
now won’t you take these words of advice…
don’t work these hours and sacrifice
to be a ripper
so what else can I say to you
this kind of job ain’t for me or you
don’t wanna be a ripper

Fevrier 13, 1986
I Wanna Work As a Grocery Clerk
I’m workin’ part time at the market and that’s fine
The work that I do might not be suited for you
but if you’re asking me I’ll tell ya what I wanna be
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
I wanna check the food that you get
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
It’s not the same when your a GM what a shame
because I can’t really be where the girls can talk to me
so its only a short time before I drop the boss a line
I’d say
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
I like to be the one who makes you money
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
I’d like to be real and make the boss a great deal
but I really can’t complain, cause he likes me all the same
so I’ll have to chill out, before my mouth begins to shout
I’d say
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
I wanna be by all those beautiful ladies
I wanna work as a grocery clerk
The fellas at the store know that I am no bore
and the way that you can see is from my shining personality
you see
I don’t have to kneel
if I want to strike a fresh deal
so you know I’ll work hard to get a checker spot and a card which says
Im a clerk I’m a grocery clerk
I’m checkin fast and I’m never goin’ last
I’m a clerk I’m a grocery clerk

Mercredi, Mars 19, 1986
young man going for the goals he makes
sometimes gets scared, fed-up or tired of bad breaks
well like anything else he can’t avoid a mistake
Let it be said that the old one knows not yet
for he too can learn
epistemology still a concern
what of those children
takin’ life as it comes
they have much to give
we have much to learn from

Samedi, Mars 22, 1986
Its when I feel like crying
and the pain seems so intense
that in the moment of unpleasant sorrow
I get a vivid glimpse
As I begin to focus upon
the different troubling themes, I notice subtle changes in my thoughts
my heart un-expectantly unforeseen
I honestly praise the being who created me
thank you for all thou has gives to thee
Inspiration has saturated this thing I call my soul
constructive and prosperous ways now take their stand their toll
Its only now that I understand
they’ve always been in hand
Left to mull over my newborn dreams
I find a stint of untouched responsibility
and that of which I found to be a kindly bit too lean
Nay be I cast into fret nor fear
I find ever valued strength too pursue this challenging path I steer
I step into consciousness
devouring pride with graceful speed
absorbing memories
I look to the present
embellished in time
It’s a pleasure to have wisdom
in which the pleasure is mine

Dimanche, Mars 23, 1986
Feels kinda funny thinkin’ ‘bout you
Never a dull moment slips by
delightfully charmed by your presence
stripped by the framework inside myself
can’t seem to control their perceptions
never will I forget these qualities you offer
As I dwell upon their joyful existence
and what may I ask will you accept on my behalf?
Have no wealth
have no land
but the riches I offer can’t be lost or stolen
and the only frontiers I have are to be cherished together an authentic relationship

Dimanche, Mars 23, 1986
Dangerous Symptoms
I remember when the young mind plays
Those who denied themselves the reality of it’s harm
Lay susceptible to the appellation: Fool
So alarmed can one be
by the descriptive adolescent’s charm
induced pressure and anxiety
Huh – what is really different about the society – Post adolescent adult farm
The parallels of life
often noticed and pointed out
can be seen in several different forms
and of those we should talk about
but we can’t escape the personality
before we confront and inform our rights
beyond this one must choose above inclination and decide the questionable plight

Dimanche, Mars 30, 1986
The Peace Makers
Oh let it be known
To all that have shown the qualities that speak for peace
for they that risk themselves
Providing love propensity of prosperity
know energy of the kind
to befriend integrity

Lundi, Juin 23, 1986
Company draws near to you
and your intentions are good
subtle hints of attraction
are communicated and give way
you start – she stops – you knew she would
young man pursues what he wants
what he thinks
if its…
or its…
or if it….can he decide for the sake of ….
There’s the one you want, over there – across the room beyond the sliding glass door
on the balcony hurry she’ll be gone soon
that one, yeah she’s nice
she’s the one for you
dressed to kill, sapphire eyes
glistening in the moon
The party’s not that pleasant
too many people and all that smoke in the air
he crosses the room for a fresh breath closes the glass door and takes a chair

Vendredi, Septembre 19, 1986
I remember that feeling
it’s been captured again
thought I never see that day
when I’d (pause) miss you my friend
It’s those pictures in the album where I escape to
now and then
Have you felt a strong attraction
to that someone you don’t know
the kind of genuine feeling that you certainly couldn’t show
think of all those reasons people who’d be shocked
isn’t it so….isn’t it so

Vendredi, Septembre 19, 1986
Listen to me
Haven’t you heard that your words aren’t meaningful to me
It’s not that speech, not that talk, not that vocabulary
Can’t you see (can’t you see)
Won’t you listen to me
I’m not fooled too easily
Can’t you see (can’t you see)
Please listen to me
I’d like to show you how

Mardi, Septembre 23, 1986
Consider Me
(guitar intro)
It’s my time now to
spend away from you
no sadness not bitter
just changing my views
our memories still with us
and I sense pain
sep-er-a-tion isn’t loss
please un-der-stand I think we’ve gained
well I’ve examined all those words we’ve said
can’t you see you’re on my mind
givin’ way to all the things I’ve learned
needn’t worry I’ll be fine
When there’s times that I don’t know that to do
I hang my head so low and realize it’s true
that’s why I put these convictions in front of you
I want to heal not to harm or be cruel

Don’t we see all this the same
Tell me
Am I searching for these answers in vain
We must forge on and not be fooled to remain
consider me
I’ve thought of you again and again

Well I found out a lot about myself
can’t say I was always kind
I’ve also watched you change and grow
I think you’ve done just fine
but I’m telling you I won’t go back
Hear me out, I believe it time
So you’ve got to listen to me girl
what I have to say is no lie

I must admit there’s times when I don’t know what to do
feeling helpless lonely how ‘bout you
but times like these will teach me to
access the right clues
consider me a friend before and after it’s through

don’t we see all this the same
tell me
am I searching for these answers in vain
we must forge on and not be fooled to remain
consider me
I’ve thought of you again and again

Mardi, Novembre 4, 1986
Troubles in the World
[ C Am Dm G – Bm D G A – G A D Bm – G A D]
One day I was thinking ‘bout the troubles in the world
And how it would be without all those nasty quarrels
People helping people, and putting aside their different hero’s
But then I look around and see apathetic eyes
not much of a concern to my very own surprise
How can it be that I don’t see a better life
What can I do to end all this mortal strife
Where have we come from and where shall we all go
When will I see a better life
Well some of these questions are hard to answer, what do you know
An important human problem and it really shows
I guess most of these solutions just might be hidden in prose
Held by wise of the globe
and there’s only a few of those
So I looked around, what did I find,
A never-ending task and journey through time
Oh lord I’ve found a way but I’m still not quite at home
I know it’s not exactly where, but only how you go
I’ve only learned a few things, There’s still so much too know
When will I see a better life

Novembre 3, 1986
How many times have you tried to be someone else
How long did it take you for you to be yourself
It may be hard to follow a strange road
but not as hard than to hitch a ride where there’s no control
and did you think you’d really see
A better way to fight that need
don’t think that you’ll succeed
unless you let yourself just be

Janvier 9, 1988
In my country, we have so many things
We have our problems, and we have our dreams
but opportunities are present to unveil
and to discover
depending on each of our influences, depending on each other
and when some are lonely, depressed, or literally unaware of their position
I wonder how many turn to another, for support, love, and forget inhibition

Mardi, Juin 12, 1990
(notation says that I have compiled this and rewrote this on a disk)
The memory of you never seems to fade
Its been quite a long time 10 years
but my feelings never cease
It’s illogical, I know for not letting you go
But I’d wish you to see
The changes in me
and get a chance to know you
I want to show you
the way it could be
give me a chance and you’ll see
please understand
please deliver me
unrested soul
takes its toll
untimely affair
creates the fictions in there
how do I know that its for real
she told me so that was the deal
I failed to jump my option stunk
and I was left with a smear
all my fears
all of those years
Emotion gone stray
no words to say
thats my thought
I hate myself today
In years gone past
I’ve learned not too fast
That life’s not easy
nor am I complete
I lost the nerve
too feel her curves
and now I pay
until the reckoning day
unless I recover
with help from another
how do I do that
what do I say
I still don’t know until this day

Dimanche Juin 16, 1990
[Capo 2nd fret]
[Csus aug Am7 Em7 Am – Csus 13th fret – Dm Csus 3rd fret A 5th fret]

A Gift of Heart – Admiration for Misti

When I try to understand this feeling
that’s haunting me
I’ll often listen to just what it says
I’m disturbed and so unfree
This admiration from a distance
there’s no choice – that’s all I can do
leads my mind to wonder about how I’d be
When I’m close to you
I’d like to show you just how I feel
But that’s not always the right thing
I won’t pretend try not to play your second one
Because I don’t want to cause a scene
I’m a prisoner of hope and trust
trapped in this hide away love
can’t you see just what you mean to me

There’s something about you
It compels me to stay
I wait alone for you so patiently
why must I behave in this way
You’re with him today – but that’s okay
Of things you’ve told – I know that It won’t hold
We’ve talked about it and we’ve shared our thoughts
and I think that we both understand
that what we share with desire
we might not really ever have
I know that’s it’s hard to break from him now
against so much – I hope that your courage will win out
Christ you have to escape him somehow

Well you moved in and we tried it out
so much so soon for us to talk about
the love I felt was not so clear
until you left me and I shed my tears
together once not only in lust
funny how we loved before we could trust
I must find out just where I stand
from what you’ve said do I flee or make plans
the way you left nearly broke my heart
when I felt how alone I was with you apart
I still don’t know just what went wrong
I think that we sense that we meant no harm
So why must I torture myself
you needed so much more of my help
don’t give up my love
I must redeem myself


I never thought I’d turn out quite like this
we turn ourselves around it’s hit and miss
no promise I make gives you any bliss
don’t look to me for comfort and a kiss

I wake up next to you but you’re not there
the distance we feel shows we’re aware
must we suffer and live our lives like this
depend we must for we must co-exist

I wonder if you’ll ever pay the price
I think you’ve taken all the wrong advise
It’s hard enough to advance in this life
then to burden one with another’s strife


I know the tale it sometimes goes like this
be happy in the end with just a kiss
we ask ourselves why doesn’t this hold true
believing in the fiction won’t always do

I wonder if you’ll ever pay the price
I think you’ve taken all the wrong advise
It’s hard enough to advance in this life
the to burden one with another’s strife

c, 1995
Driftin’ Thru

Well I keep driftin’ thru these empty hours
these empty hours fill my days
lack of direction, no connection
no decision I make helps me find my way
Where has the passion gone
I don’t belong
sometimes I wonder just what the hell I’m gonna do
whoa baby my lack of claim
lord I’ve lost my way
I’m just driftin’ thru

wonder what’s gonna change
before I see my way
I think I’ve already paid my hard earned dues’
Too many times I’ve fought off crimes
thought I’d seen the last of them troublesome blues

lord where has the passion gone
I don’t belong
sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever see this thru
my lack of claim
I’ve lost my spirit
I’m just driftin’ thru

won’t compromise
my resolve I prize
no one’s gonna help me forget and undo
I know you’ve tried
but baby don’t be surprised
when I deny and swear that I never every burden you

I stand before this world
a worried soul still not cured
I stand before you naked and confused
how long will this heart cry
If I am to survive
a woe so deep within this solemn pew
where has the passion gone
lord I don’t belong
Oh Mr pain I just wanna part with you
My lack of claim
I’ve lost my faith
baby I’m just driftin’ thru

c. 1998
Makin’ My Way

Well I’ve got me on the road
ain’t sure just where I’m gonna go
Well I’ve got me on the road
ain’t sure just where I’m gonna go
Well I’m makin’ my way
left a town I once called home

thought I’d made it in a bar
out in the desert very far
thought I’d made it in a bar
out in the desert very far
thought I’d found the girl for me
but I got no guarantees


Well I’ve got me on the road
ain’t sure just where I’m gonna go
well I’ve got me on the road
ain’t sure just where I’m gonna go
don’t cha know that I’m alone
In a crowd of hopeless souls

spent my day feelin’ pain
fell on deaf ears oh what a shame
spent my day feelin’ pain
fell on deaf ears oh what a shame
lost my will to believe
listen to this heart plead

you know I got to be free
out on the road I’m gonna be
you know I got to be free
out on the road I’m gonna be
I’m gonna see what I can see
gonna forge my destiny

Oh where oh where can I find those other songs?