Love

I believe in you

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With every day that passes

With all the time we share

I believe in your ability

Against the world that is not fair

The California sky

In OB you and I

In South Beach and Sunshine

We watched the surf in our eye

Barhopping from the harp on Newport

To the joint on cable

Such a beautiful day

Was it a dream, a date, or a fable?

Turns out there was a bike shop

Just where I said it was

Would have loved to see the look on your face

Because, because, because, because

As we talked

Throughout the day

I listened carefully

On everything you had to say

I believe in you

You know who you are

But there are times when you doubt

When you shut yourself down-You take it too far

I’ve seen how you interact with people

You are grateful, kind, and give from the heart

That is a genuine quality I admire

I also think you’re pretty smart

I’ve seen the glimpse of your character

There is much to you that bodes well

Your charms are not lost on me

And for reasons of my own it is in this way that I must tell

RSP

…

DCG

One built for me and you

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The closer I get to you

The farther I drift away

When you suppress your feelings

It makes it so hard for me to stay 

“The closer you get to the fire

The more you get burned

But that won’t happen to us

Cause it’s always been a matter of trust”

When you find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with

You want to start the rest of your life ASAP

But this can only be true

If you can see the we 

The choice is yours

The choice is mine

How it works out

Is known only by the divine

I’ll work on myself

Try to end this cycle of pain

See the attachment for what it is

Hoping it is not all in vain

I know you are aware

I know you sense the same

These demons that we share

Makes it hard to hide our shame

I don’t give up easily

I believe the possibility is true

There is a chance for happiness

One built for me and you

RSP

…

DCG



However, it turns out 

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My heart is committed

As are my soul and my mind

Where this path leads

Only God knows I pray I will find

I ask for God to work through me

Where God is the hand and I am the glove

Without him, I am motionless

But with him, I am filled with direction and love

Indeed, we are created in his image and likeness

His presence within our body and soul

The recommended relationship to have

If you want to fill the empty hole

You might think me crazy RP

You might continue to build a wall

I’ll stand by you if you need me

I’ll support you if you fall

I ask out of selfless passion

To inspire and uplift you to heal

I can do this if you allow me

Can we make a deal?

You’ve often told me you don’t know how to complete me

I say you already have as my reply

Sometimes we don’t see

What’s behind the other person‘s eyes?

The intensity deep inside me

This connection that we share

A trick of my nervous system?

Or do we really care?

Weather, we sacrifice or sabotage

Are we willing to take a stand?

However, it turns out

I’ll always extend my hand

RSP

…

DCG

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

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When you are in my heart

I do not feel so empty or deficient

When you are in my thoughts

I feel my purpose knowing you are self sufficient 

We have both experienced a similar childhood  neglect

And because of this, I formed with you a bond

We have never really spoken much about it

I think I know just how you will respond

I see you as a mirror to my own inner reflection

I know I must do the work and look within

I have an opportunity to become a better man

I take a moment of silence, I pray, and then I begin

You have opened up a side of me

I never really knew The remains

Of such a deeply hurt little boy

Needing to heal and make a change

Prior to knowing you

I’ve always intellectualized my pain

I never really made the emotional connection

Of just how lost I became

You have touched me very deeply

You’ve broken through the barriers that I present

It was you who awakened me from my emotional dream

Of which there is no more time that needs to be spent

I consider you a blessing

There is something I want you to know 

Maybe we crossed paths for a reason?

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

RSP

…

DCG

Our presence can be felt more deeply 

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There are many that feel comfort

With a hug and a touch of the hand

Whether it’s our family

Most tactile people will understand

A cat nestled on your lap

As we stroke the fur

Without words we communicate

As we listen to them purr

When words do not suffice

Our presence can be felt more deeply

If we convey our feelings

Our touch is felt more sweetly

The book touching by Ashley Montagu

The human significance of skin

I would highly recommend to anyone

As this book is a sure win

Our language is often overlooked

When we communicate with others, we love

Our touch is greatly appreciated

Especially from those who are deprived of

…

DCG



Just what in life will you bring? 

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I have a better understanding of where I am going

After what I have been through

Experience teaches us you don’t love a woman because she’s beautiful

She’s beautiful because you love her – true

I trust in Lao Tzu

On Ways to flourish

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength

While loving someone deeply gives you courage”

Having a good heart

And knowing how to use

If love is the beauty of the soul

Then the only question is how and when do we choose?

Time and effort are needed

To cultivate the art of the soul

How do you measure your success?

How do you pay the toll?

Make a decision

Live by the will

If you pass the Rubicon

Only your doubt will stand still

Life is a mystery

But if I am certain of anything

It is better to give than it is to receive

Just what in life will you bring? 

…

DCG

The journey of the forsaken 

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The journey of the forsaken

As children, they learn to self soothe

After years of neglect

Predisposed to seek validation, forever having to prove

A forsaken child

A silent crime

The pain and suffering

They withhold the signs

Someone will break the cycle

Someone will break the chain

Some will hide away

Always having to endure the pain

When the most powerful human emotion

Is suppressed and shoved into a closed box

When you can’t express love

And treat your children like they have smallpox

Given the severity

You may have to self regulate

Trick your nervous system

In order to satiate

In the self-imposed prison we call trauma

We are the inmate and simultaneously the guard

Never knowing we hold the keys to the cell

And the keys to the yard

It might take decades

Or maybe some therapy

Before we unleash the Kraken

Into the social emotional sea

You may fear rejection

You may fear intimacy

You may shut out the world around you

You may avoid any reciprocity

Do you feel unworthy?

Do you feel shame?

Do you push away emotionally available people?

And then tell them that you are to blame?

Many never see their attachment style

Dismissive-avoidant, anxious- attachment, fearful-avoidant and the like

Many won’t climb the mountain of self reflection

Many won’t take this hike

Change is possible

We can recalibrate a deep trauma of emotional recovery

From pain to loneliness to forgiveness to courage 

Now it is only me that has to open up and see

…

DCG

It warms my heart 

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It warms my heart

When you express yourself to me

The excitement of a new job

A new opportunity

Not sure why I seek this connection

I seem to be drawn to you

I yearn to be close

Another déjà vu

Been three months since New Year’s days eve

It was such a great night

But I’m not sure what to believe

From the day I took notice

You have been in my heart and on my mind

Only wanting to know you better

But I think there were things about yourself you didn’t want me to find.

Did I form a trauma bond?

Or was it more than hypnotic empathy?

The connection for me was real

If I misunderstood, then please forgive me 

I do find joy in the feelings that you share

Your well-being means something to me

What is hard is that I see the internal conflict

And then I also see you respond positively

I know if you wanted something more

You would let me know

Whether you consider me a friend

Or whether you consider me a beau

RSP

…

DCG



And so goes our training

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Sometimes we have feelings

That we don’t know how to share

But if you put them under lock and key

You’ll never know if they will care

Use it as motivation

Perspective can balance the soul

Move forward

Let this be a goal

Sometimes we have a flood of emotion

Too strong or too soon to bare

This may guarantee rejection

I think we’ve all been there

Some give up

Some never stop

Repeat the same mistakes

Continue to flop

We are the curator of our own exhibitions

Malaise to malcontent, malady to mischief

That at some point

We must employ the handkerchief

And so goes our training

In the social bonds that we make

 Using our pleasantries, physical attributes and our charms

That we bake into the cake

These recipes will surely vary

It will be tested, and you must sample 

Now you have to find a good customer

One that is compatible as an example

RSP

…

DCG



True beauty never changes 

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True beauty, never changes

Only in our experience that we observe, we may realize

The Sufi’s describe this to see “the face of God“

When the mind can filter and allow us to recognize

It’s one thing to view a beautiful sunset over the ocean

And another to look upon someone you love

One by grace from God

One a relationship as a hand fits into a glove

Are they gifts? 

Or is one a dance?

A recognition?

A happenstance?

Beauty can be found almost anywhere

For those who are blessed to see

Even in the mind of the blind

If you touch, you can feel, if you hear than you too, will be!

You might ask how I come to know this

What doctrine, what Mystic, what Sage do I believe?

I only know in my own experience

When I give of myself I will receive

I am not at the center of the universe

I can see the beauty in helping others in need

The Centurion Longanus, who stuck the spear into Jesus on the cross

Had his sight restored as he watched the Christ bleed

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DCG