Love

Yet here I stand 

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see the walls you raise,

built from pain you cannot show,


Yet here I stand, a patient guide

through shadows that you know.


Your silence is a language

pain taught your heart to speak,


But my faith gives me courage, gentle strength that will not leak.
Your fears are roots as old as wounds left by your father’s hand,
I sense the trembling in your soul that few could ever understand.
But I don’t flinch from what’s unseen, or from the days you run and hide,


Instead I’ll always reach for you—your journey is my greatest pride.
For healing moves in circles wide, not lines that curve and end,
And every time you stumble, dear, I’ll lift you once again.


If shame and sorrow bind you still, in chains you never chose,
My love will be a steady light each time your old fear grows.


You think you are the sum of hurt, of parents who could not stay,
But I see the woman fighting through, her heart lost in the fray


Each setback is not final, nor proof of doomed defeat,


We kneel together in the faith that makes our union sweet.


I know the path is jagged, and patience wears so thin,


Yet with every scar uncovered, I pray new trust begins.


You’re not required to fix yourself, nor please me with your grace,
It’s only asked you let me in, to share this hallowed space.


Because your worth’s not measured by how fast you heal anew,


Or by the perfect grace you show—your value is just you.
I’ll be here through the winters, and when hope feels far away,
As long as it takes, I’ll stay and stay—by your gentle side, I’ll stay

RSP

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DCG

Scar tissue 

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Scar Tissue


I wait beneath the weight of hollow years,


the silence burns a prayer into my chest.


Your shadow quivers where the light appears,


I ache in faith, though faith is put to test.


I trace the echo of your turning face,


each time you flee, I find no ground to stand.


The past still hums—a ghost I can’t erase,


a trembling heart still reaching out a hand.


You hide behind your walls of hardened glass,


pretending you were never made to need.


While I am caught in memories that pass,


their thorns still teaching me how hearts can bleed.


The nights collapse with whispers of your name,


and hope becomes both comfort and disease.


I’ve learned that healing doesn’t mean the same


as finding peace—it asks a harder peace.


I see the child in you that never spoke,


the small defense that shields you from my care.


The boy in me still breathes beneath the smoke,


unlearning how to vanish into air.


If grace is measured by the ones who stay,


then mine was forged in storms I could not leave.


I pray the wind will bend your ribs someday,


and teach you how the broken still believe.


Because this bond was never born of choice,


but tethered in the hunger of the scar.


I hear redemption trembling in your voice,


but silence always tells me where we are.


You fear that love will drown you where you stand,


while I fear losing what was never mine.


Each moment drips like blood between my hands,


as faith and grief braid tight around the spine.


I’ve watched your eyes turn distant, cold with doubt,


but underneath I feel the buried prayer.


There is no healing if we cast it out,


so I remain, though absence fills the air.


I can’t repair the child who hides in you,


but I can hold the ache without demand.


If miracles are what the broken do,


I’ll wait for God to place them in your hand.


This scar—our mirror—shines where pain had fed,


reminding me that loss can still renew.


And even if the path is lined with dread,


I’ll walk it still, until it leads to you.

RSP

…

DCG

However, it may lead I will always find my faith

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I know you’re feeling angry

I know your feeling resigned

The coping strategy you use

A pain free solution you will never find

My heart breaks every time I see

The struggle you will not address

It’s from a trauma in childhood

Not any evil demon that you possess

You are held captive

In a prison of your own mind

You are both the prisoner and the jailer

That will punish you every single time

I’ve done the research, I’ve learned my boundaries

But for you, I will not give up, I will not fail

With knowledge there is responsibility

This commitment to heal will not stale

When others have given up

When you found yourself betrayed

Your family members were scattered

And now you drift alone afraid

I understand your shame and fear

A secure attachment of somebody like me

I understand you’re avoidant tendencies

This is something I can clearly see 

In my initial anxious attachment

I have grown into one that is secure

This trauma bond, I now understand

With self reflection and counseling, there is a cure

I walk a precarious edge of a razor

Knowing my empathy couples with self sacrifice

I tread upon this boundary

Knowing full well, what is the emotional cost and price

You may ask me why the emotional fortitude

In my experience of abandonment and shame, I find the grace

However, it may lead

I will always find my faith

RSP

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DCG

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How can I be a part of the solution?

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The wisdom of forgiveness

So too requires the wisdom of walking the razors edge

Knowing when and when not

To use a hedge

The entanglements that befalls us

May take us by surprise

If ruled by the heart and not the mind

What then will our passions devise?

Soren Kierkegaard said “life can be understood looking backwards, but it must be lived forwards“

In other words to live one must take risk

Learn by mistake

Beware the idolater who prays to the golden obelisk

When we own our Folly

It helps us see in our relationships

With misunderstanding

And solve our difficulty

How can I be a part of the solution?

A question a couple must always ask

To build upon a foundation

Given what both lives may cast

There is no certainty

With vows of good intent

The practicality to work through shared issues

A reason why we become penitent

Make no mistake I believe in commitment

A covenant and social contract is necessary

The responsibility is mutual

both parties must work hard to achieve and agree

RSP

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DCG

I would have had to pretend

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you may not know my name

I provided a service to our community

I was efficient in my job

I was kind when there was an opportunity

I served the public at large

I tendered them with care

I listened to their grievances

Even when nothing was really there

when we place our attention

Only on our needs

We miss out on shared experiences

Living a life only the lonely leads

self absorption is not a badge of honor

If we limit our discussions to ourselves via thought

No audience to convene and explore

Only a one-way ticket is bought 

I would have never seen the world differently

Without the influence of loved ones and friends

I would have never become the person I am today

Without the help from others

I would have had to pretend

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DCG

A prism of reflection 

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Oh Lord, please forgive me

Please allow for me to better see

Come into my heart and work through me

This is how I pray to be

I could be the hedge

I could be a testimony

Allow me to demonstrate a psalm

Celebrate a ceremony

Let me be the mirror

A prism of reflection

The spectrum that shines

Radiating detection

What is the difference?

From the stories, we tell to children and the stories we tell to adults?

Which ones are fables?

Which ones get results?

The ability to communicate

To touch the Elan vital

That which is often pondered

By the monks on the mountains of Nepal

Create a memory

tell a story about what you care

Some ears will listen

On what you share

Ever experience something that is transformational?

An idea, a connection?

Something spiritual?

Viewed upon reflection?

I strive to see the catalyst

Recognize an opportunity

To grow and change

There is a design to my spontaneity

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DCG

I filled in all the missing parts 

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If women fall in love with men from what they hear

And men fall in love with women on what they see

Does this explain why women wear make up and men lie?

A paradox of human behavior and controversy

You’ve never really opened up to me

I think now I know the reasons why

I filled in all of the missing parts

My mind created a world for you, but I filtered out the noise in the sky

When given Little information

Confirmation bias just may take hold

But at the end of the day

Truth comes out and will be told

I try not to attach to the flaws of other people

I have my struggle I must own

I forgive and move forward

I hope this is shown

When you see behind the mask

Make sense of the struggle and the ordeal

We have an opportunity and a choice

On what to do and how we should feel

Understanding is important

But it is not the end all cure

The hard part is finding a resolution 

Your intentions must be pure

Many people won’t accept these terms

Many people will get stuck in their head

They will not self reflect

They will justify and turn around instead

I’m sure you think

I won’t accept you if I truly knew who you are

and so the masquerade

You shield your ego from afar

If I was wrong

You didn’t have to play along

But I know what you did

Who you gonna kid

Just how do you get?

701

Active again

After all has been said and done

RSP

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DCG

Heal with me RP

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Been up and down, been flipped around

a life filled with loss

And I’m damaged goods it’s understood

With my luck, it’s up to a coin toss

Right side up

Or upside down

I met you at the right moment

And it was you that I found

I will never forget- When I took notice

As you came up and spoke with me

How could I have ever known?

You would be the one to make me see

I lived with being broken

For all of these years

Sometimes it takes a lifetime

To mend a heart as you shed the tears

I know I have a responsibility

My purpose is to heal

You have awakened me inside

And now again, I can truly feel

You can release the Kraken

I will still be all in

Understanding the reasons for our suffering

And where it all begins

Heal with me RP

I know at first, it might be strange

I think maybe we both

Could use a change

A change in how we see the world

And some of the people in our lives

Who said painful words

That cut into us like knives

I’m one that can appreciate

All you have to bring

The goodness you radiate

Makes my heart sing

Because of this bond

My heart is in tune

It resonates with yours

It beats even harder with you under the full moon

There is something very special

An opportunity to mend a soul

One hurt in the past

A part of which someone stole

Let the next words of this poem

Be written as we spend time together

May we heal each other?

Birds of a feather ….

RSP

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DCG

I’m drowning in between 

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I’m drowning in between

My two extremes

A Pounding blood filled heart

Against my fantasy dream

When I see you

My heart skips a beat

You take my breath away

How much more can I take if I can’t stand the heat?

I know we had an agreement

I will always be a friend

But what this heart feels

Makes it hard for me to pretend 

The attraction is overwhelming

But the reality is that fear keeps us away

Caught in between an emotional time bomb

When will we escape that day?

The most agonizing part of this dilemma

I think we both feel the same way

But our opposite trigger reactions

Which tells you to flee and compels me to stay

We lived in the same neighborhood

Worked and shopped in the same store

Proximity and destiny brought us near

But the primary cause was the relationship we had with our fathers from before

Welcome to my world

I have to push my feelings down

The Beatles “hide your love away“

“Gather around all you clowns – let me hear you say“

RSP

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DCG

SONG

You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away

Release date: 06 August 1965

Here I stand, head in hand,
turn my face to the wall.
If she’s gone, I can’t go on,
feeling two foot small.

Ev’rywhere people stare,
each and ev’ryday.
I can see them laugh at me,
and I hear them say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

How can I even try?
I can never win.
Hearing them, seeing them,
In the state I’m in.

How could she say to me
Love will find a way?
Gather ’round all you clowns,
Let me hear you say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

Which will be my finality? 

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You can bury your emotions and feelings

Way way down and deep

But you can’t forget them

If attached to a painful memory that you no longer want to keep

You learn from childhood that You must suppress your feelings

You tell me “they are something you just don’t do“

At the same time, you wipe the tears away and say

Shoo fly shoo

We both fear abandonment

You dismissively avoid and I anxiously attach

A magnetic connection

Prone to an abrupt dispatch

No, I won’t talk

I’ll just listen

Write another poem

About what we’re missin’

The hardest thing I’ve ever done

Caught between two realities

With or without you

Which will be my finality?

RSP

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DCG

Already Gone

Song by Kelly Clarkson ‧ 2009

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hurt you now
I can’t stop

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Ooh, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone