For the answers you must demand

Self discovery is often impeded

On how we self reflect

Where do we place our attention?

Just exactly what do we inspect?

You might observe what happens around you

You might only think about how it makes you feel

But if you don’t take ownership

You won’t move forward and heal

We will often hide from ourselves

Our ego and self-esteem we try to protect

What we don’t pay attention to

We will often neglect

To be honest is hard

To be honest to ourselves is even harder

Easier to fool yourself

And become a character martyr

Critical self appraisement

Is not necessarily bad

If the goal is to self improvement

Than this is a conversation that must be had

If you have internal conflict

With something you don’t understand

Look inward and start asking questions

For the answers you must demand

DCG

It warms my heart 

It warms my heart

When you express yourself to me

The excitement of a new job

A new opportunity

Not sure why I seek this connection

I seem to be drawn to you

I yearn to be close

Another déjà vu

Been three months since New Year’s days eve

It was such a great night

But I’m not sure what to believe

From the day I took notice

You have been in my heart and on my mind

Only wanting to know you better

But I think there were things about yourself you didn’t want me to find.

Did I form a trauma bond?

Or was it more than hypnotic empathy?

The connection for me was real

If I misunderstood, then please forgive me 

I do find joy in the feelings that you share

Your well-being means something to me

What is hard is that I see the internal conflict

And then I also see you respond positively

I know if you wanted something more

You would let me know

Whether you consider me a friend

Or whether you consider me a beau

RSP

DCG

And so goes our training

Sometimes we have feelings

That we don’t know how to share

But if you put them under lock and key

You’ll never know if they will care

Use it as motivation

Perspective can balance the soul

Move forward

Let this be a goal

Sometimes we have a flood of emotion

Too strong or too soon to bare

This may guarantee rejection

I think we’ve all been there

Some give up

Some never stop

Repeat the same mistakes

Continue to flop

We are the curator of our own exhibitions

Malaise to malcontent, malady to mischief

That at some point

We must employ the handkerchief

And so goes our training

In the social bonds that we make

 Using our pleasantries, physical attributes and our charms

That we bake into the cake

These recipes will surely vary

It will be tested, and you must sample 

Now you have to find a good customer

One that is compatible as an example

RSP

DCG

But the thing to remember

Not all situations are ideal

When we make attachments and form a bond

Sometimes we overestimate our feelings

Sometimes we under appreciate those whom we are fond

We may overvalue our feelings

The heart may overcompensate

To desire a connection

A relationship we wish to propagate

So many things can happen

We have missed opportunities

Sometimes we miss the signs

We disrupt our possibilities

But this is what makes life interesting

After all is said and done

You certainly won’t be bored

When we’re always looking for fun

Relationships must be earned

Some you win, some you lose

But the thing to remember

Is that you are the one who must choose

DCG

Sometimes we don’t invest into the right people 

Sometimes we don’t invest into the right people

We do not see them as who they are

Maybe they don’t reciprocate?

Maybe they take it too far?

When people recognize our value

We truly appreciate

If our own friends don’t

Then maybe we should reevaluate

we cannot control how other people feel about us

But we can control for whom we associate

Better our chances be

For us to navigate

There are tides of human contact

Sometimes washing away our connectivity

Demoralizing  and depreciating

Making me question “is this what I see“?

There are many complexities

To the bonds that we make

For who’s soul will benefit?

For who’s sake?

Do we self-sabotage?

do we self-sacrifice?

Do we follow the deceiver? 

Or do we follow the Christ?

DCG

At least that is what I’ve been told 

Some people will become a part of your story

Whereas others will not

We may regret the ones we lost

We may regret the ones we  fought

The curious cases, we do not often see

Are those who are a great match

But we failed to recognize them properly

When thinking back we say

“ the one that got away”

When we get out of the way from ourselves

Be that as it may

We miscalculate

We don’t read the room

The mistakes of our ego

Makes us exclaim” I am a buffoon.”

If you reflect

And you take some time

You can iron out the wrinkles of your behavior

Since there are plenty to find

Good reasoning is usually the starch

After we launder the persona we wear

Might even make another spin cycle around 

Before we find the right pair

Our best measure to assess our happiness

Is found in relationships we hold

Proportional to our bonds

At least that is what I’ve been told

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DCG

I’ll prove every day that you can trust me

I once told you

That I didn’t know if I could complete you

But what I didn’t say

Was even more true

I would never stop trying

That is if we agree

To make something out of it

I’ll prove every day you can trust me

I know these thoughts seem impulsive

But these words, I must speak

I feel a strong connection

As this is what I seek

I luv the way you express yourself

When discouraged you say you were mortified

When happy you light up like you have been electrified

Just a few of the reasons for my attraction

You’ve read my poems so you must be aware

I’m sending you these messages

Because I truly do care

RSP

DCG

I guess this destiny will always depend 

I’m sorry, I wasn’t the man

That you needed me to be

But maybe there was something

That we didn’t quite see

I know we are not perfect

But the secret of intimacy

The question are we perfect for each other?

Something only time will see

I mean what I say

I say what I mean

But what I didn’t anticipate

My reality was my dream

Sometimes our vision is fuzzy

Sometimes our needs are not so clear

But after we put a few years on

We finally see things as they appear

I don’t know if I could complete you

But I still hope you will always be my friend 

However, this feather that floats on the wind ends up

I guess this destiny will always depend 

DCG

My path runs a full circle 

My path runs a full circle

Makes me wonder if it was meant to be

Back in the place where it started

Can’t help, but think of all the memories

You called me by my nickname, Deanski

I called you, Charity Charlene

All the times we had cocktails by the pool

Listening to Maroon 5’s Daylight sung by Adam Levine

Daft Punk’s get lucky 

Katy Perry‘s wide awake

El Torito and Outback Steakhouse

And beers at Lahaina for a beach break 

What I thought of you then

I still think of you now

I’ve always felt you are a special person

And guess what we bumped into each other someway somehow

We live in a mysterious universe

I consider myself blessed in knowing you

I’m fortunate our paths have crossed again

And only hope we share the same view

It’s been many years

I would love to reconnect and learn more

I can’t wait to hear about your journey

And what you have in store

DCG

Loyalty and dedication

Loyalty, and dedication

Go hand and hand

An emotional bond

That marks where we stand

Many people are tribal in nature

They affiliate over a shared ideal 

Easier to express yourself

Easier to tell how you feel

It goes without saying

The degree of the bond depends  on the quality of the trust

Consider the sentiment

“California or bust”

Loyalty has conditions

Dedication requires reciprocity

The division of labor

Must be split equally

Plant a seed

Watch it grow

The more care you give

What you reap is what you sow

Relationships  are no different

The investments we make

are nurtured with care

We must earn before we can take

DCG