Friendship

Heal with me RP

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Been up and down, been flipped around

a life filled with loss

And I’m damaged goods it’s understood

With my luck, it’s up to a coin toss

Right side up

Or upside down

I met you at the right moment

And it was you that I found

I will never forget- When I took notice

As you came up and spoke with me

How could I have ever known?

You would be the one to make me see

I lived with being broken

For all of these years

Sometimes it takes a lifetime

To mend a heart as you shed the tears

I know I have a responsibility

My purpose is to heal

You have awakened me inside

And now again, I can truly feel

You can release the Kraken

I will still be all in

Understanding the reasons for our suffering

And where it all begins

Heal with me RP

I know at first, it might be strange

I think maybe we both

Could use a change

A change in how we see the world

And some of the people in our lives

Who said painful words

That cut into us like knives

I’m one that can appreciate

All you have to bring

The goodness you radiate

Makes my heart sing

Because of this bond

My heart is in tune

It resonates with yours

It beats even harder with you under the full moon

There is something very special

An opportunity to mend a soul

One hurt in the past

A part of which someone stole

Let the next words of this poem

Be written as we spend time together

May we heal each other?

Birds of a feather ….

RSP

…

DCG

I’m drowning in between 

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I’m drowning in between

My two extremes

A Pounding blood filled heart

Against my fantasy dream

When I see you

My heart skips a beat

You take my breath away

How much more can I take if I can’t stand the heat?

I know we had an agreement

I will always be a friend

But what this heart feels

Makes it hard for me to pretend 

The attraction is overwhelming

But the reality is that fear keeps us away

Caught in between an emotional time bomb

When will we escape that day?

The most agonizing part of this dilemma

I think we both feel the same way

But our opposite trigger reactions

Which tells you to flee and compels me to stay

We lived in the same neighborhood

Worked and shopped in the same store

Proximity and destiny brought us near

But the primary cause was the relationship we had with our fathers from before

Welcome to my world

I have to push my feelings down

The Beatles “hide your love away“

“Gather around all you clowns – let me hear you say“

RSP

…

DCG

SONG

You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away

Release date: 06 August 1965

Here I stand, head in hand,
turn my face to the wall.
If she’s gone, I can’t go on,
feeling two foot small.

Ev’rywhere people stare,
each and ev’ryday.
I can see them laugh at me,
and I hear them say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

How can I even try?
I can never win.
Hearing them, seeing them,
In the state I’m in.

How could she say to me
Love will find a way?
Gather ’round all you clowns,
Let me hear you say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

Which will be my finality? 

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You can bury your emotions and feelings

Way way down and deep

But you can’t forget them

If attached to a painful memory that you no longer want to keep

You learn from childhood that You must suppress your feelings

You tell me “they are something you just don’t do“

At the same time, you wipe the tears away and say

Shoo fly shoo

We both fear abandonment

You dismissively avoid and I anxiously attach

A magnetic connection

Prone to an abrupt dispatch

No, I won’t talk

I’ll just listen

Write another poem

About what we’re missin’

The hardest thing I’ve ever done

Caught between two realities

With or without you

Which will be my finality?

RSP

…

DCG

Already Gone

Song by Kelly Clarkson ‧ 2009

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hurt you now
I can’t stop

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Ooh, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone

I believe in you

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With every day that passes

With all the time we share

I believe in your ability

Against the world that is not fair

The California sky

In OB you and I

In South Beach and Sunshine

We watched the surf in our eye

Barhopping from the harp on Newport

To the joint on cable

Such a beautiful day

Was it a dream, a date, or a fable?

Turns out there was a bike shop

Just where I said it was

Would have loved to see the look on your face

Because, because, because, because

As we talked

Throughout the day

I listened carefully

On everything you had to say

I believe in you

You know who you are

But there are times when you doubt

When you shut yourself down-You take it too far

I’ve seen how you interact with people

You are grateful, kind, and give from the heart

That is a genuine quality I admire

I also think you’re pretty smart

I’ve seen the glimpse of your character

There is much to you that bodes well

Your charms are not lost on me

And for reasons of my own it is in this way that I must tell

RSP

…

DCG

One built for me and you

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The closer I get to you

The farther I drift away

When you suppress your feelings

It makes it so hard for me to stay 

“The closer you get to the fire

The more you get burned

But that won’t happen to us

Cause it’s always been a matter of trust”

When you find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with

You want to start the rest of your life ASAP

But this can only be true

If you can see the we 

The choice is yours

The choice is mine

How it works out

Is known only by the divine

I’ll work on myself

Try to end this cycle of pain

See the attachment for what it is

Hoping it is not all in vain

I know you are aware

I know you sense the same

These demons that we share

Makes it hard to hide our shame

I don’t give up easily

I believe the possibility is true

There is a chance for happiness

One built for me and you

RSP

…

DCG



However, it turns out 

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My heart is committed

As are my soul and my mind

Where this path leads

Only God knows I pray I will find

I ask for God to work through me

Where God is the hand and I am the glove

Without him, I am motionless

But with him, I am filled with direction and love

Indeed, we are created in his image and likeness

His presence within our body and soul

The recommended relationship to have

If you want to fill the empty hole

You might think me crazy RP

You might continue to build a wall

I’ll stand by you if you need me

I’ll support you if you fall

I ask out of selfless passion

To inspire and uplift you to heal

I can do this if you allow me

Can we make a deal?

You’ve often told me you don’t know how to complete me

I say you already have as my reply

Sometimes we don’t see

What’s behind the other person‘s eyes?

The intensity deep inside me

This connection that we share

A trick of my nervous system?

Or do we really care?

Weather, we sacrifice or sabotage

Are we willing to take a stand?

However, it turns out

I’ll always extend my hand

RSP

…

DCG

When knowledge evades us

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I write from the heart

But sometimes my head gets in the way

Yet one without the other

May often lead us astray

And so born is the mystery

The habitat for the human being

A collective asylum

In constant sorrow of their feeling

In all of human history

The people will create

What they don’t achieve

They simply relegate

Therefore, the case to be made

Books of the Bible, Plato’s Republic and William Golding‘s Lord of the flies – please 

So much literature

So much to reprise

When we fail to solve the problems of ethics and epistemology

We still gravitate to argue over the metaphysical

When knowledge evades us

Our faith still argues which God is more inevitable

…

DCG

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

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When you are in my heart

I do not feel so empty or deficient

When you are in my thoughts

I feel my purpose knowing you are self sufficient 

We have both experienced a similar childhood  neglect

And because of this, I formed with you a bond

We have never really spoken much about it

I think I know just how you will respond

I see you as a mirror to my own inner reflection

I know I must do the work and look within

I have an opportunity to become a better man

I take a moment of silence, I pray, and then I begin

You have opened up a side of me

I never really knew The remains

Of such a deeply hurt little boy

Needing to heal and make a change

Prior to knowing you

I’ve always intellectualized my pain

I never really made the emotional connection

Of just how lost I became

You have touched me very deeply

You’ve broken through the barriers that I present

It was you who awakened me from my emotional dream

Of which there is no more time that needs to be spent

I consider you a blessing

There is something I want you to know 

Maybe we crossed paths for a reason?

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

RSP

…

DCG

our own worst enemy 

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I will give you my honesty

I will share the burden of your pain

I will support you when you’re down

I will support you if you need to make a change

Our own worst enemy

What lies within our doubt?

Often interfering with our true abilities

We fail to recognize our own clout

I see two sides of you

One who wants love and acceptance

And another that pushes everyone away

These two sides, cause the resistance

One side based in doubt and shame

A childhood emotional neglect

Becomes hardwired into your brain

At least this is what I suspect

The other side is what every person craves

This nourishment of love and validation

Despite your dismissive avoidant isolation

What I think is wonderful

I have seen a change

You’ve taken steps out of your comfort zone

That takes courage when things become strange

Little by little

In tiny amounts

You’ve let me in

On what really counts

Despite the wants and the needs

The fear of intimacy reigns

I know you are aware of this dynamic

I pray that these barriers will wane

I’ve learned from my own suffering

That events from the past

Should only be a lesson

And not a life long sentence that will continue to last

I have an understanding

I sense an emerging trust

You’re looking outside the emotional claustrophobia

Into a new world that you are thrust

…

DCG



Who will bring the receipt?

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Thank you for showing me kindness

Way too many emotional vampires out there

They will take everything you have to give

And leave nothing to spare

Thank you for thinking of me

The narcissists I know

Only acknowledge their own needs

They have little else to show

I am very grateful to the people who share

There is purpose in their smile

They show me meaningful lessons

They teach me the reason for living this lifestyle

I can become a better person

I watch, listen and learn

And if you really study the landscape

You’re better off treating people with concern

No one better knows gratitude

Than those who express humility

When we recognize our kinship

We recognize a shared humanity

If you understand, our differences

You must surely understand our similarity

To know, we are not the center of the universe

Enter Sir Isaac Newton and his theory of gravity

there is wisdom and honesty

There is corruption and deceit

Distinguishing between them

Who will bring the receipt?

…

DCG