Spiritual Dividends

lighthouse c


Please don’t see just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies
Please see me reaching out for someone I can’t see
Take my hand let’s see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand
I’d be damned Cupid’s demanding back his arrow
So let’s get drunk on our tears and
God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It’s hunting season and the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?
Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?
Woe is me, if we’re not careful turns into reality
Don’t you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page maybe we’ll find a brand new ending
Where we’re dancing in our tears and
God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It’s hunting season and the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?
I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying
Just the same
God, give us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It’s hunting season and this lamb is on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?
I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?

 Lost Stars performed by Adam Levine

Songwriters
BRISEBOIS, DANIELLE / ALEXANDER, GREGG / LASHLEY, NICK / SOUTHWOOD, NICK

 

In my adolescence and early adulthood, I looked at the world in such a way that kept me from fully understanding my self-worth.  In the beginning I was shy, and so I learned to listen very carefully to others as to not make a fool of myself.  I eventually discovered that others like me did not have the world ‘all sussed’ out either and after years of my growing pains, I matured.

Since my own experiences were limited, I learned from others by careful observation, and this was of great value to me.  I think that I may have discovered something that has profoundly helped me at times during these years that exemplifies the cliche…”sometimes we make choices, and sometimes the choices make us”!

There were junctures in my life that on occasion would defy logic.  Events that would lead me into supportive and welcoming bonds, and impel me to choose wisely, but this would not be recognized fully until many years later in retrospect.  It is still partly unclear to me how I created these paths which later harvested favorable spiritual dividends in my life.  The “spiritual dividends” I reference can be seen in the positive reciprocity experienced in relationships and experiences.  It could be discovered in the present moment or it could be discovered in the memories from years past of people you have associated with.  Something about the friendship or knowledge learned helped you in some way to experience the world in a different way.  It’s when you see things from a different perspective that may open up new pathways for discovery that may not have existed before the influence of those people, or the influence of the knowledge from a book you read, or a movie you have seen.

This has not happened too often for me in my life, but when it did, I was immeasurably better off than my earlier self.  I can easily state that I have also struggled with my dealings with others from time to time and wondered just where that operating principle that I once drew upon and administered had gone to?  Did I disband it in favor of a growing appetite for ego?  However it may have operated, when it did, I’m not certain if the consciousness I experienced was revealed by an already preexisting awareness I embraced, or if it was some other perceptive discernment that sanctioned the pursuit I was now undertaking?

I think there was something extraordinarily happening in the manifestation of this dynamic because for the ages I discovered this ethereal wisdom, I recognized I was greatly more aware of the effects of my deeds and thoughts than some of my contemporary peers.  Was it an ethic I was living and did it collectively embody my attention?  I had spent years reading and researching people I admired who were living positive lives, reading about philosophy and psychology, and trying to understand what it was in this life that would embrace my heart and free my mind of unwanted burdens.

I don’t think it was an arrogance that operated within me at the time, and I was certainly no more psychologically or spiritually advanced than those I observed around me, but I was struck with a feeling that a ‘goodness’ was weaving its influence into the life I was living.  Strangely this dynamic is often indifferent for the sympathetic soul in search of a better life and the intellective attribute can be lost or misplaced if you are not cautious.  I think It has much to do with our subconscious thinking when it is present, but it also takes a conscious effort to enable its presence.  It is not always present, and after years of not experiencing this sensation, I have come to realize that it is a skill to be learned and to cultivate this zoetic principle, you must take an effort to actualize before any benefit will arise.

Oddly I have gone though periods that have eluded these earlier lessons.  I think it has something to do with gains I have made in self-confidence and ego, as well as possibly diminishing my ability of empathetic tuning by not attending to the ethic of reciprocity.  It is also possible that I just simply choose unwisely in my associations.

When I reminisce, I often think about times in which I was happy.  Not just content, but excited about my life.  I was either accomplishing something, setting goals and meeting them, or the people I valued influenced me and gave me something that is sometimes hard to verbalize.  The friendships of those people who give you worth and make you want to be a better person are of special importance for me.  It gave me motivation to excel.  My only positive emotional outlet were the good friends I had since I did not have an equally supportive family.  If you lose these kinds of relationships, you can lose the motivation to grow.  That was a lesson I did not plan on having to learn the hard way, but such is life.

I place value on these kinds of friendships because lets face it, we need others to turn to at times, we need others to support our endeavors as they need our support.  We are not pillars of virtue, and must progress in our lives by the help and influence of others.  Much of my struggle growing up was dealing with a family that had diminished emotional capacities.  I could not share my feelings with them let alone identify and express my feelings to them or to myself.  This was something new to me.  I learned very early that I had only myself to rely upon when I was a kid.  I think it had to do with how well adjusted I “appeared” to be, even though the truth was far from that assessment.  The youngest of two sons, I was the quiet, behaved, and studious one.  I think because of this appearance, I was not given the emotional support I would have liked.  I must admit that I probably would not have accepted any such support at the time because of my ambivalence to my parents and brother due to the estranged dynamic that was part of the family I was born in.  Thus my starving for some kind of emotional connection began very early for me.

Fortunately I did not project any maladaptive behaviors at an early age to others, and I learned to just see all that unfolded before me without presenting any judgement partially because of my naiveté.

 

I was emotionally hindered in my expression of feelings to others because of the emotional ambivalence I grew up with.  I did not learn that my feelings were important for my well being.  I did not learn until much later that the validation of having feelings and integrating our minds together with our hearts is crucial to becoming a whole human being.  But something about this handicap helped me later in life as I grew out of those harmful times.  Having an impoverished emotional outlet can be excruciatingly lonely.  But I somehow sought out for answers my family could not provide me with, I secretly questioned and I observed those people around me hoping to find the void that was filling my heart and mind.

Quite frankly I focused on how I would like to be treated, and on how I should treat others as well.  Yes the golden rule!  If you truly embrace this edict, you will authentically see into the hearts of others that can have an extremely powerful transformation of spirit within you and within others.

Of course not all people will follow in kind because they have not opened their hearts or are ill-bred and plainly deficient people.  Obviously the biblical verse here gives an account that this problem has been part of the human condition for some time.

Matthew 7:6 King James Version (KJV)

Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.

So if you feel that there is some operating principle in the universe that has some karmic end, I can only say what has felt right for me.  Sometimes when I think about it, it is the simplest of things that can make a huge difference in your life and the lives of those you love.

 

❖❖❖

 

Eleanor Roosevelt

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”
Eleanor Roosevelt, This is My Story

Aristotle

“Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”
Aristotle

John Lennon

“Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears.”
John Lennon

Confucius

“By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.”
Confucius

Lao Tzu

“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power. If you realize that you have enough, you are truly rich.”
Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching

Confucius

“He who knows all the answers has not been asked all the questions.”
Confucius

Leo Buscaglia

“Risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”
Leo Buscaglia

John Lennon

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”
John Lennon

Leo Buscaglia

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.”
Leo Buscaglia

 

 

Conflicted

Why do we dwell on an emotionally charged idea, or maybe why do we dismiss it altogether?  Have you thought about just how you have formed your ideas and beliefs about the world, and what just prevents us from dismissing the baggage we often collect?  Are we willing to question the foundations of our belief system when there is a conflict about what we’re told, and what we deem true?

The lack of having any external support group when you are feeling low is excruciatingly painful.  The strength to pick oneself up is much harder, when your internal voice has to operate without prejudice, when your internal voice diminishes your own internal criticisms that are weighing heavily upon you so that you may overcome the obstacles that you face.  Having conflicting conscious thoughts will always place you under scrutiny with your own judgments and this is sometimes a burden we do not freely share with others only to quietly suffer within our own creation of doubt.  But why must we anguish over these times of self-doubt?  Perhaps it is because we listen and acquire information from sources that give us a faulty valuation.  We’re taught to listen and respect our elders, the authority figures in our lives since they have benefited from their experience for more years than we have.  But I urge the reader to question authority since the argument is of a qualitative nature, and not one based on a quantitative accumulation of knowledge despite its inherent appeal to some.

If an internal struggle of conflicting feelings and thoughts that are remnants from adversarial external sources which have filtered into part of our thinking, then it may result as a troublesome cognition.  At a time of duress, we may give these critical token thoughts more weight than what is actually merited.  When we have contrary thoughts that disturb our resolve, we may lose focus on what is important and lose our bearings within the fog of ridicule.  If the diagnosis is a conflict that we ultimately control, and that we are the sole proprietors of our appraisals, then why does this seem to accommodate antagonism within our own minds?  Are we not in the best place to undertake a corrective direction in our thinking?  The answer could just be the way our thinking normally occurs.  How we process our information, and how we learn this information influences our decisions on how we also filter what we think we know and have come to believe.

How our thinking has evolved through-out our lives with a blending of experience, observation, rational, and emotional syntheses that have created and forged our thoughts and influenced our belief systems is commonly accepted as fact.  Some beliefs are conscious, and some operate on deeper levels we may not be consciously aware of.  I submit that we are creatures of habit, including our processes of reasoning.  Over time we form patterns of thought based on presuppositions about how we see the world.  Our patterns of thinking are much like a learned response directly correlated to the sympathetic nervous system.  The sympathetic nervous system is one of three major parts of the autonomic nervous system (the others being the enteric and parasympathetic systems).  Its general action is to mobilize the body’s nervous system fight-or-flight response.  It is, however, constantly active at a basic level to maintain homeostasis.  The homeostatic response to the world in our belief system may just operate at levels we do not question or lend ourselves to very often, hence the subconscious thoughts that drive many of our conscious thoughts bring about deeply felt concepts that influence us.  Whether we are to conclude self-doubt in times of conflict or conversely whether we are influenced on an alternate level is due to these presuppositions we rarely question.  They are the subroutines in our daily thoughts, the notions that lead us to make conclusions binding feeling and logic together that can change the way we see the world.  A convoluted fabric of thought, feeling and drives that work together to create a consistent view of what we observe that may at times disrupt our lives when conflicting notions enter into this process.

As children we develop a basis for meeting the world on how the world is presented to us.  Most children have a very natural way of experiencing the world, until they matriculate through the cultural pathways placing various lenses upon their scope to shape a reality largely based upon the teaching of their families.  Much of what is cultivated on pre-cognitive levels comes at a very early age, between birth and maybe six years of age.  The developmental stages of childhood maturation are still in development and not yet “hard-wired” at this age.  Our mental processes are forming from the examples given to us by our families and we build upon these foundations as we grow.  It is precisely some of these foundations that we no longer tap into and question.  They are the subroutines, the pre-cognitive staples that formulate some of our learned beliefs about the world.  They are very elusive since they are found in deeper structures within the brain, given the immense amount of neural pathways formed in childhood and developing until they lose their functionality.  The principles on which we form our ideas is largely influenced by these obscure percipient vestiges of thought.  We are seldom taught the skill to search deeper into our assumptions.  The contributions of Ludwig Wittgenstein in his philosophy of language are an invaluable insight on this topic when analytic philosophy is applied to our logic.

If these premises are sound, then where does that lead us?  Does this explain why hypnotic suggestion can displace deeper modes of thought we seldom have access to?  Why the importance of right thinking in the eightfold path is crucial for Buddhism?  Why the Zen use the Koan to disrupt the minds normative way of thinking?  Or perhaps why so many psychological personality disorders exist due to the formation of traumatized neural pathways during childhood?  Enneagram theory accounts for much of this due to its approach.   Again I ask, does this explain why we torture ourselves, being conflicted by ideas that we have only partial answers to, since much of the presumptions are buried deep within our minds?  I refer you to the work of Dr. Bruce Lipton for further analyses on this matter.  I highly recommend the work he has uncovered.

If the human experience is largely based on our ability to mediate its variables and problems, to arbitrate the ethical conditions that life brings us, then paying attention to what we conclude about our condition is preeminent.  Indeed, misjudgement is the cause for many mistaken paths we lead ourselves.  The purpose of trial and error, testing ourselves to the rigors of our decisions in everyday life is part of being human and also essential for our ability to learn through experience.  Learning that we must be mindful of our prejudices, that we must pay attention and heed to new information that may not be consistent with what we think we know is crucial to expanding our views.

Before you judge others or claim any absolute truth, consider that you can see less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum.  As you read this, you are traveling at 220 kilometers per second across the galaxy.  90% of the cells in your body carry their own microbial DNA and are not “you”.  The atoms in your body are 99.99999999999999% empty space and none of them are the ones you were born with, but they all originated in the belly of a star.  Human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less that the common potato.  The existence of the rainbow depends on the conical photoreceptors in your eyes; to animals without cones, the rainbow does not exist.  So you don’t just look at a rainbow, you create it.  This is pretty amazing, especially considering that all the beautiful colors you see represent less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum.

 

The earlier statements I’ve made about this paradigm of psychology are based on my studies.  I draw from many sources and fields to illustrate my views.