Did you live up to the Forecast?

Writing down my thoughts

I Journal them in code

Keeping secrets to myself

watching this mind erode

In courage and sincerity

It doesn’t always turn out right

When approaching a truthful account

We sometimes cower in its sight

Yet we must come to terms

With the failures from our past

Whether we confront them head-on now

Or whether we allow them to fester and last

What we tend to follow

Is what we tend to believe

How we write it down

Relies on what we preconceive

Consider reading your journal

From twenty years ago

How do you fare?

Did you eat crow?

Memory and cognitive dissonance

Shows written word as evident

Have you ever really changed?

Is this why you are so petulant?

Finding out about yourself

From another self of the past

Isn’t really a bad thing

Did you live up to the forecast?

DCG

Silence Soothes

Vendredi
Julliet 2, 1987
12:19AM

 

Silence Soothes
cool afternoon
early morning or night
no motions quiet delight
little movement
silence soothes
silence imprisons
solitude of suffering quakes
either madness or nirvana
for ones soul, one’s sake
take choice make decision
you live now
It’s never too late
silence imprisons

DCG

Enneagram notes

Date: December 24, 2002 11:49 PM
Topic: The Wisdom of the Enneagram

Mardi, Decembre 24, 2002 11:49 PM

The wisdom of the Enneagram
Riso . Hudson

Beings of light

– “There’s a part of every living thing that wants to become itself. The tadpole into the frog, the chrysalis into the butterfly, a damaged human being into a whole one. That is spirituality.” –
-Ellen Bass-

Our hearts yearn to know who we are and why we are here. we have been taught that the quality of our life will improve primarily if our external fortunes improve. sooner or later, however, we realize that external things, while valuable in themselves, cannot address the deep restlessness of our soul.

-”It seems to me that before we set out on a journey to find reality, to find god, before we can act, before we have any relationship with another … it is essential that we begin to understand ourselves first.”-
-Krishnamurti-

-”Whatever your age, your upbringing, or your education, what you are made of is mostly unused potential.”-
-George Leonard-

the main filter that we use to understand ourselves and the world around us, to express ourselves, to defend ourselves, to deal with our past and anticipate our future, to learn with, to rejoice with, and to fall in love with, is our personality type.
core personality (psychological) issues interpersonal strengths and weaknesses
how to deal with these issues

-”Spiritually speaking, everything that one wants, aspires to, and needs is ever-present, accessible here and now…for those with eyes to see.”-
-Surya Das-

-”Spirit is an invisible force made visible in all life.”-
-Maya Angelou-

 

what have been the defining moments of your life…your traumas and triumphs – those times when you knew that, for better or worse your life would never be the same? who have been the most significant people in your life – those who have acted as “witnesses’ to your struggles and growth, those who have hurt you and those who have been your understanding mentors and friends?

a journal
descriptive biography

-”The great metaphors from all spiritual traditions – grace, liberation, being born again, awakening from illusion – testify that it is possible to transcend the conditioning of my past and do a new thing.”-
-Sam Keen-

-“Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand!”-
-Spinoza-

-”What can we gain by sailing to see the moon if we are not able to cross the abyss that separates us from ourselves?”-
-Thomas Merton-

Enneagram – self knowledge
real self knowledge is an invaluable guardian against such self-deception, the Enneagram takes us places (and makes real progress possible) because it starts working from where we actually are. as much as it reveals the spiritual heights that we are capable of attaining, it also sheds light clearly and non-judgmentally on the aspects of our lives that are dark and unfree.
presence (awareness, mindfulness), the practice of self-observation (gained from self-knowledge), and understanding what one’s experiences mean. (an accurate interpretation provided by a larger context such as a community or spiritual system) are the three basic elements needed for transformational work. being supplies the first, you supply the second, and the enneagram supplies the third. when these three come together, things can happen quickly.

 

Date: December 27, 2002 2:44 AM
Topic: Enneagram Progressions

Jeudi, Decembre 27, 2002 2:44 AM

-”If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn’t part of ourselves doesn’t disturb us.”-
-Herman Hesse-

-”He who knows others is learned. He who knows himself is wise.”-
-Lao Tzu-

SYMBOLS
CIRCLE
UNITY – WHOLENESS
TRIANGLE
TRINITY – LAW OF 3
(GURDJIEFF) HEXAD
LAW OF 7 – CHANGE

 

The wholeness of a thing, its identity is the result of the interaction of three forces, and how it evolves or changes over time. Dynamic not static.

ICHAZO
⁃ NINE DIVINE ATTRIBUTES
⁃ COMBINED TREE OF LIFE
Passions represent the way we lose our center and become distorted in our thinking, feeling, and doing.

TRAPPED IN EGO
SEVEN “DEADLY SINS” PLUS 2
ANGER
RESENTMENT
PRIDE
IGNORE ONE’S SUFFERING
— DECEIT —
BELIEVING IN EGO, NOT TRUE ESSENCE
ENVY
BELIEVING SOMETHING IS MISSING
AVARICE
LACK INNER RESOURCES
— FEAR —
ANXIETY
GLUTTONY
INSATIABLE DESIRE TO FILL UP
LUST
CONSTANT NEED TO CONTROL
SLOTH
UNWILLING TO ARISE WITH VITALITY

NARANJO
EGO FIXATIONS
PERSONALITY TYPE DEVELOPMENT

RIZO
LEVELS OF GROWTH
LEVELS OF DETERIORATION
CORRELATION OF PSYCHOLOGICAL TYPOLOGIES

HUDSON
DEEPER STRUCTURES OF TYPES
PERSONAL GROWTH

 

Date: December 30, 2002 11:47 PM
Topic: Essence and Personality

Lundi, Decembre 30, 2002 11:47 PM

Essence and Personality
The core truth that the Enneagram conveys to us is that we are much more than our personality. Our personalities are no more than the familiar, conditioned parts of a much wider range of potentials that we all possess. Beyond the limitations of our personalities, each of us exists as a vast, largely unrecognized quality of being or presence-what is called our Essence.
In the spiritual language we could say that within each person is an individual spark of the divine, although we have forgotten this fundamental truth because…..Because we have fallen asleep to our true nature.
We do not experience our own divine nature; nor do we experience others as manifestations of the divine. Instead, we often become hard, even cynical, treating others as objects to be defended against or used for our own gratification.

-”The spirit is the true self, not that physical figure which can be pointed out by your finger.”-
-Cicero-

The fundamental ground of our being is Essence or spirit, but it takes a dynamic form we call “The Soul”. Our personality is a particular aspect of our soul. Our soul is “made of” Essence or Spirit. If spirit were water, soul would be a particular lake or river, and personality would be waves on its surface – or frozen chunks of ice in the river.
Generally, we do no experience our Essence and its many aspects because our awareness is so dominated by our personality. But as we learn to bring awareness to our personality, it becomes more transparent, and we are able to experience our Essence more directly. We still function in the world but with a growing realization of our connection with divinity. We become aware that we are part of a divine presence all around us and in us that is constantly and miraculously unfolding.
The Enneagram does not put us in a box, it rather shows us the box we are already in – and the way out!

-”Man wishes to be happy even when he so lives as to make happiness impossible.”-
-St. Augustine-

SACRED PSYCHOLOGY

A Simple Act of Kindness

A simple act of kindness

Can touch a heart and a mind

Sometimes we don’t appreciate

That we are all intertwined

The day we stop caring

The day we disassociate

Another inclement juncture

Another bitter one to negotiate

A warming disposition

A heartfelt devotion

Fills a receptive vessel

The cause for harmonic emotion

The golden rule

Manifest and create

Pay it forward

Don’t hesitate

Inertia with distinction

Can change activity

To pass along one’s good fortune

Increases our mutual conductivity

Think back to a time

When you received a merciful hand

What were the circumstances?

Did you escape the quicksand?

DCG

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If and when one learns

It pains me to say

I struggle with my family

All those years ago

All of that calamity

It haunts me today

To make peace I have tried

Reminders of the past come out when I interact

Reopen those wounds when I have cried

We must keep in measure

The way we communicate with one another

Deeds will pass from way back when

Yet they will continue to fester if we place blame on the other

We must find find a common narrative

Closure is needed to come to terms

Ones that we can agree upon

If and when one learns

…DCG

Why don’t we find any common ground?

We look at each other

The differences are all we see

No reason to find common ground

In resistance you rarely agree

Our sources of information

Compromised beyond trust

Yet little do we realize

We are unwilling to adjust

We stop questioning our beliefs

We don’t put our reasoning to test

Much easier to criticize another point of view

Than to examine our own by request

If we distillate what we both value

Chances are we are likely to see

A vanishing objection of reason

And it is only in policy that which we disagree

DCG

Did you drink the Kool-Aid?

Did you drink the kool-aid?

The hive mind volunteer

Did you subjugate the identity of individuals?

Arguing for the rights of the many to appear?

Mob rule is not our intended Democracy

The rights of the individual should be clear

Contrary to revisionist beliefs

This constitution is something they fear

Did you drink the kool-aid?

Another specious argument is invoked

If you can’t deconstruct the facts

Than maybe you’ll just go along with the hoax

One must always question authority

Educate yourself to be free

Free from the dictates of folly

Often found in the laws they decree

DCG

 

However you Calculate

What is sloth?

What is feckless?

Not Wei Wu Wei

As only this idea is not reckless

Knowing a behavior is wrong

Yet you still ignore it and do

Does not cancel the idea

That you know is true

Maybe it is the fear

That prevents you from proper action

Maybe it is habit

That spurs on this protraction

However you calculate

However you sum

You’ll probably not change

Until you’ve begun

DCG

Just Say When

It’s time to come out

From underneath this place

From where you hide

Your secret space

You must take action

You will know when

You will not isolate

You’ll awaken again

If you except defeat

The turmoil will just begin

Don’t surrender to loss

Don’t surrender to the whim

Embrace the indignation

You’re on your way again

Forgive the transgression and act on change

Just say when

DCG