Your behavior has consequences

You’ve made your choice

Only when the silence screams 

This clarity gives you your voice

I haven’t given up on you

You are emotionally autistic because of your childhood wounds

It was you who gave up on you 

 You only know how to push away and this is what seems to loom 

I want to be in your life

However, you cannot fathom anyone else to be in it

And so you run

And so you dismiss it 

The only way for you to heal

Is take accountability

Your fear is your master

It rules your mind of fragility

Your words cut like knives

It takes time for me to heal

When your own fear shields you from your own behavior

I can only guarantee that I do feel

If only you could honestly look into the mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall

When the truth is revealed 

There’s nothing left to do but fall

Clearly as you put it

“I’m not your jam“

You seemed to have plenty of boyfriends who don’t seem to care

Whether you speak about yourself or whether you clam

At any moment of intimacy

You freeze up, ignore and distract

You build the wall, stop listening, and divert your attention

You pull me around the dark street like a ragdoll and complain that I’m not keeping your wrist intact

Because I don’t see well

Doesn’t mean I don’t see deeply within you

Do you try to intentionally humiliate me?

Is this something you try to do?

My silence will be loudest

When I have to walk away

I need to heal

Which means if you don’t try to heal , then I cannot stay

I don’t give up easily

That’s not something I do

If you cannot commit to healing

Then I guess I’m not for you

I’ve seen both sides of you

A heart that wants to feel and has needs

And a heart that you lock away

But buried within you it still pleads

RSP

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DCG