Relationships

One that we host

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Walking on eggshells

Not knowing who to trust

When loneliness meets self-doubt

After two cocktails, you lower your standards and begin to lust

So we dress up, and act clever 

And then we flirt

The person who takes notice

Won’t even be there when you hurt 

Something within us

Drives us to mix and socialize

With our guard rails down

Not sober we will compromise

We reach for the shiny object

That is in the room

Little do we know

More often it turns into gloom

Did we choose wisely?

Only the soul can say

When we rush into excitement

Those feelings sometimes fade away

Off to the bar we go

Not knowing we’re chasing a ghost

One that we have created

And one that we host

RSP

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DCG

I believe in you

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With every day that passes

With all the time we share

I believe in your ability

Against the world that is not fair

The California sky

In OB you and I

In South Beach and Sunshine

We watched the surf in our eye

Barhopping from the harp on Newport

To the joint on cable

Such a beautiful day

Was it a dream, a date, or a fable?

Turns out there was a bike shop

Just where I said it was

Would have loved to see the look on your face

Because, because, because, because

As we talked

Throughout the day

I listened carefully

On everything you had to say

I believe in you

You know who you are

But there are times when you doubt

When you shut yourself down-You take it too far

I’ve seen how you interact with people

You are grateful, kind, and give from the heart

That is a genuine quality I admire

I also think you’re pretty smart

I’ve seen the glimpse of your character

There is much to you that bodes well

Your charms are not lost on me

And for reasons of my own it is in this way that I must tell

RSP

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DCG

One built for me and you

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The closer I get to you

The farther I drift away

When you suppress your feelings

It makes it so hard for me to stay 

“The closer you get to the fire

The more you get burned

But that won’t happen to us

Cause it’s always been a matter of trust”

When you find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with

You want to start the rest of your life ASAP

But this can only be true

If you can see the we 

The choice is yours

The choice is mine

How it works out

Is known only by the divine

I’ll work on myself

Try to end this cycle of pain

See the attachment for what it is

Hoping it is not all in vain

I know you are aware

I know you sense the same

These demons that we share

Makes it hard to hide our shame

I don’t give up easily

I believe the possibility is true

There is a chance for happiness

One built for me and you

RSP

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DCG



However, it turns out 

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My heart is committed

As are my soul and my mind

Where this path leads

Only God knows I pray I will find

I ask for God to work through me

Where God is the hand and I am the glove

Without him, I am motionless

But with him, I am filled with direction and love

Indeed, we are created in his image and likeness

His presence within our body and soul

The recommended relationship to have

If you want to fill the empty hole

You might think me crazy RP

You might continue to build a wall

I’ll stand by you if you need me

I’ll support you if you fall

I ask out of selfless passion

To inspire and uplift you to heal

I can do this if you allow me

Can we make a deal?

You’ve often told me you don’t know how to complete me

I say you already have as my reply

Sometimes we don’t see

What’s behind the other person‘s eyes?

The intensity deep inside me

This connection that we share

A trick of my nervous system?

Or do we really care?

Weather, we sacrifice or sabotage

Are we willing to take a stand?

However, it turns out

I’ll always extend my hand

RSP

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DCG

When knowledge evades us

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I write from the heart

But sometimes my head gets in the way

Yet one without the other

May often lead us astray

And so born is the mystery

The habitat for the human being

A collective asylum

In constant sorrow of their feeling

In all of human history

The people will create

What they don’t achieve

They simply relegate

Therefore, the case to be made

Books of the Bible, Plato’s Republic and William Golding‘s Lord of the flies – please 

So much literature

So much to reprise

When we fail to solve the problems of ethics and epistemology

We still gravitate to argue over the metaphysical

When knowledge evades us

Our faith still argues which God is more inevitable

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DCG

My nervous system has been hijacked 

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The most impactful relationships we will ever have

Will come from our own parental family

The nurturing from our childhoods

 Will influence our prosperity 

My nervous system has been hijacked

I am humbled by my captive trauma prisoner -my subconscious mind

Why is it so easy to notice?

But yet it’s still so hard to find?

Emotional abuse can be haunting

But we do not have to become attached to the past

We can learn new paths of direction

We can form good new memories that will last 

The limbic system is compromised

The neocortex and it’s six layers and five lobes complicate

And if you bring up the non-physical consciousness

That’s even harder to debate 

Hence, the problem of overthinking

A byproduct of curiosity

Part of being human

And a high probability

The mind/body problem of philosophy

Descartes’ Cogito Ergo Sum

Wittgenstein’s language games

Makes the debate still loom

Despite the scientific reasons

Despite the great analytic minds

We must still find our way to heal

Whether it is from ourselves or from the divine

RSP

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DCG



Doesn’t always mean what it seems

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I have all this emotion

But I must keep it locked away

She doesn’t want to hear me

Or what I have to say

And so I bottle  it all up

This emotional genie that wants  to awaken from his sleep

Waiting for the cork to open

Allowing it to feel again and gently weep

How many wishes?

Must we make?

How many opportunities?

Will we take?

What will the heart ask for?

If the genie wakes?

What will we succumb to?

When the heart breaks?

The problem with making wishes

We never know what we’re gonna get

Too many variables to predict 

That would make us upset

Despite , our best intentions

We may just get it wrong

If you accept this does not make you weak

Does it then make you strong?

The reason life isn’t so easy

Sometimes cannot be foreseen

What you see is what you get

Doesn’t always mean what it seems

RSP

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DCG

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

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When you are in my heart

I do not feel so empty or deficient

When you are in my thoughts

I feel my purpose knowing you are self sufficient 

We have both experienced a similar childhood  neglect

And because of this, I formed with you a bond

We have never really spoken much about it

I think I know just how you will respond

I see you as a mirror to my own inner reflection

I know I must do the work and look within

I have an opportunity to become a better man

I take a moment of silence, I pray, and then I begin

You have opened up a side of me

I never really knew The remains

Of such a deeply hurt little boy

Needing to heal and make a change

Prior to knowing you

I’ve always intellectualized my pain

I never really made the emotional connection

Of just how lost I became

You have touched me very deeply

You’ve broken through the barriers that I present

It was you who awakened me from my emotional dream

Of which there is no more time that needs to be spent

I consider you a blessing

There is something I want you to know 

Maybe we crossed paths for a reason?

Because this is my heart‘s echo 

RSP

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DCG

It’s your spirit that’s longing to suffer no more 

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To forgive is not just to lighten their load,
But to free your own soul from the burdens you’ve owed.
For holding to hurt is a road that won’t end,
A journey that circles, that never will mend.
Unforgiveness, a poison that seeps in the heart,
It chains us in darkness and keeps us apart.
It’s not for their sake that you open the door—
It’s your spirit that’s longing to suffer no more.
Release the old memory, let bitterness cease,
And give your own spirit the gift of some peace.
Forgiveness is healing, a balm for the soul,
It’s cutting the tether and making you whole.
So set down the anger, let go of the pain,
And walk in the sunlight, unshackled by blame.
For the one who is freed by the act you begin—
Is the soul in the mirror, forgiving within.

— for Robyn—

RSP

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DCG

our own worst enemy 

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I will give you my honesty

I will share the burden of your pain

I will support you when you’re down

I will support you if you need to make a change

Our own worst enemy

What lies within our doubt?

Often interfering with our true abilities

We fail to recognize our own clout

I see two sides of you

One who wants love and acceptance

And another that pushes everyone away

These two sides, cause the resistance

One side based in doubt and shame

A childhood emotional neglect

Becomes hardwired into your brain

At least this is what I suspect

The other side is what every person craves

This nourishment of love and validation

Despite your dismissive avoidant isolation

What I think is wonderful

I have seen a change

You’ve taken steps out of your comfort zone

That takes courage when things become strange

Little by little

In tiny amounts

You’ve let me in

On what really counts

Despite the wants and the needs

The fear of intimacy reigns

I know you are aware of this dynamic

I pray that these barriers will wane

I’ve learned from my own suffering

That events from the past

Should only be a lesson

And not a life long sentence that will continue to last

I have an understanding

I sense an emerging trust

You’re looking outside the emotional claustrophobia

Into a new world that you are thrust

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DCG