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Expectation without investigation 

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Pure conviction untested

is where the true believers fail

Without practice

The intellectual motion will not prevail

Expectation without investigation

Like a road made of sand

Washed away by the elements

A road not well planned

There is more than just belief

It must be tested in practice with common sense and adversity

A formation of character to learn, earn, and return

a blueprint on how to be

Living the best possible life requires agency

A Moral compass only works with self correction

The simple resolution

Is self inspection

integrity is not an accident

It’s foundation that defies corruption

It will last longer

Than a fools presumption

…

DCG





When your confidence is shrouded by insecurity 

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The wounds never heal

If you deny any chance to grow

When you bottle up the emotional pain

it is your shame that prevents you to show

Caught in a vicious cycle

The unexplored subconscious reigns

Never looking at your reflection 

Never understanding your pain

Never learning how to process emotional trauma

You willingly suppress and avoid feelings That keep you in chains

You battle this inner enemy

A victim you become by your own claim

Unresolved childhood trauma

Not knowing where to turn

Perpetually questioning your internal compass

If you don’t trust yourself, you won’t be able to learn

When your confidence is shrouded by insecurity

The dismissive  avoidant, prolongs their suffering and pain

Little chance for success

When it is all done in vain

There is hope for a chance of recovery

Take my hand I will be your guide

You can find resolution

But you must first expose what you so often hide

RSP

…

DCG

A blessing if kept, we deserve

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Beyond the love of oneself

The love of a spouse

And then of a child

This union creates a house

As time passes

Our focus is misdirected

If too much self

Than the We is no longer connected

Therefore, because of our proclivity

The hierarchy shall be

The observance of the divine

Before the observance of family

The prescription

When lost in misdirection

Reconnect to the hierarchy

Depose yourself of any misconception

The fourth Decalogue

Keep the sabbath holy as we shall observe

This orientation will ground us

A blessing if kept, we deserve

…

DCG

I would have had to pretend

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you may not know my name

I provided a service to our community

I was efficient in my job

I was kind when there was an opportunity

I served the public at large

I tendered them with care

I listened to their grievances

Even when nothing was really there

when we place our attention

Only on our needs

We miss out on shared experiences

Living a life only the lonely leads

self absorption is not a badge of honor

If we limit our discussions to ourselves via thought

No audience to convene and explore

Only a one-way ticket is bought 

I would have never seen the world differently

Without the influence of loved ones and friends

I would have never become the person I am today

Without the help from others

I would have had to pretend

…

DCG

A prism of reflection 

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Oh Lord, please forgive me

Please allow for me to better see

Come into my heart and work through me

This is how I pray to be

I could be the hedge

I could be a testimony

Allow me to demonstrate a psalm

Celebrate a ceremony

Let me be the mirror

A prism of reflection

The spectrum that shines

Radiating detection

What is the difference?

From the stories, we tell to children and the stories we tell to adults?

Which ones are fables?

Which ones get results?

The ability to communicate

To touch the Elan vital

That which is often pondered

By the monks on the mountains of Nepal

Create a memory

tell a story about what you care

Some ears will listen

On what you share

Ever experience something that is transformational?

An idea, a connection?

Something spiritual?

Viewed upon reflection?

I strive to see the catalyst

Recognize an opportunity

To grow and change

There is a design to my spontaneity

…

DCG

Only one solution exists 

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I grew up with a father who was a narcissist

He also had an inferiority complex and was insecure

My sensitivity to these behaviors have echoed throughout my life

Even to this day, I am still sure

With poetic self reflection

I unravel this entangled ball 

I reveal more connections

All before and after the fall

If you suffered from severe emotional neglect in childhood

You will never forget if untreated

You will become anxiously attached with a trauma bond 

And voraciously seek approval until your soul is depleted

Trauma is generational

It can be a past on maladaptive disease

Disruptively impacting the lives of the forsaken

It will do with you what it will please

Ironically, loving the unlovable

Only one solution exists

That is forgiveness

That you cannot deny or resist

…

DCG

I filled in all the missing parts 

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If women fall in love with men from what they hear

And men fall in love with women on what they see

Does this explain why women wear make up and men lie?

A paradox of human behavior and controversy

You’ve never really opened up to me

I think now I know the reasons why

I filled in all of the missing parts

My mind created a world for you, but I filtered out the noise in the sky

When given Little information

Confirmation bias just may take hold

But at the end of the day

Truth comes out and will be told

I try not to attach to the flaws of other people

I have my struggle I must own

I forgive and move forward

I hope this is shown

When you see behind the mask

Make sense of the struggle and the ordeal

We have an opportunity and a choice

On what to do and how we should feel

Understanding is important

But it is not the end all cure

The hard part is finding a resolution 

Your intentions must be pure

Many people won’t accept these terms

Many people will get stuck in their head

They will not self reflect

They will justify and turn around instead

I’m sure you think

I won’t accept you if I truly knew who you are

and so the masquerade

You shield your ego from afar

If I was wrong

You didn’t have to play along

But I know what you did

Who you gonna kid

Just how do you get?

701

Active again

After all has been said and done

RSP

…

DCG

Heal with me RP

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Been up and down, been flipped around

a life filled with loss

And I’m damaged goods it’s understood

With my luck, it’s up to a coin toss

Right side up

Or upside down

I met you at the right moment

And it was you that I found

I will never forget- When I took notice

As you came up and spoke with me

How could I have ever known?

You would be the one to make me see

I lived with being broken

For all of these years

Sometimes it takes a lifetime

To mend a heart as you shed the tears

I know I have a responsibility

My purpose is to heal

You have awakened me inside

And now again, I can truly feel

You can release the Kraken

I will still be all in

Understanding the reasons for our suffering

And where it all begins

Heal with me RP

I know at first, it might be strange

I think maybe we both

Could use a change

A change in how we see the world

And some of the people in our lives

Who said painful words

That cut into us like knives

I’m one that can appreciate

All you have to bring

The goodness you radiate

Makes my heart sing

Because of this bond

My heart is in tune

It resonates with yours

It beats even harder with you under the full moon

There is something very special

An opportunity to mend a soul

One hurt in the past

A part of which someone stole

Let the next words of this poem

Be written as we spend time together

May we heal each other?

Birds of a feather ….

RSP

…

DCG

I’m drowning in between 

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I’m drowning in between

My two extremes

A Pounding blood filled heart

Against my fantasy dream

When I see you

My heart skips a beat

You take my breath away

How much more can I take if I can’t stand the heat?

I know we had an agreement

I will always be a friend

But what this heart feels

Makes it hard for me to pretend 

The attraction is overwhelming

But the reality is that fear keeps us away

Caught in between an emotional time bomb

When will we escape that day?

The most agonizing part of this dilemma

I think we both feel the same way

But our opposite trigger reactions

Which tells you to flee and compels me to stay

We lived in the same neighborhood

Worked and shopped in the same store

Proximity and destiny brought us near

But the primary cause was the relationship we had with our fathers from before

Welcome to my world

I have to push my feelings down

The Beatles “hide your love away“

“Gather around all you clowns – let me hear you say“

RSP

…

DCG

SONG

You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away

Release date: 06 August 1965

Here I stand, head in hand,
turn my face to the wall.
If she’s gone, I can’t go on,
feeling two foot small.

Ev’rywhere people stare,
each and ev’ryday.
I can see them laugh at me,
and I hear them say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

How can I even try?
I can never win.
Hearing them, seeing them,
In the state I’m in.

How could she say to me
Love will find a way?
Gather ’round all you clowns,
Let me hear you say:

Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.
Hey! You’ve got to hide your love away.

Which will be my finality? 

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You can bury your emotions and feelings

Way way down and deep

But you can’t forget them

If attached to a painful memory that you no longer want to keep

You learn from childhood that You must suppress your feelings

You tell me “they are something you just don’t do“

At the same time, you wipe the tears away and say

Shoo fly shoo

We both fear abandonment

You dismissively avoid and I anxiously attach

A magnetic connection

Prone to an abrupt dispatch

No, I won’t talk

I’ll just listen

Write another poem

About what we’re missin’

The hardest thing I’ve ever done

Caught between two realities

With or without you

Which will be my finality?

RSP

…

DCG

Already Gone

Song by Kelly Clarkson ‧ 2009

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hurt you now
I can’t stop

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Ooh, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road
Someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I’m already gone

I’m already gone
Already gone
You can’t make it feel right
When you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone
Already gone
There’s no moving on
So I’m already gone