Epiphany in the Awakening of a Soul

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What triggers the soul to hunger?  Is it when our appetite becomes awakened by some defining experience we align ourselves with?  Do we control this mechanism or is it something innate and inborn within us?  Is it serendipity that connects us at the right place and the right time to events we become attracted to and enthused by?

Where do our deepest desires originate?  How do they germinate and then suddenly spark when some experience in our lives brings them to life?  Some creative passion born into possibility or some inspiring moment that changes us forever after that day forward has challenged many psychological, religious, and philosophical theorists for answers.  It is not that we choose these moments, but rather that these moments seem to choose us.  These moments influence something within our being and awakens us to a new possibility, a new experience that taps into something very deep within us.  We cannot explain it precisely even after many years of reflection, but it is something that transpires within us along the course of our lives.  It was not something we expected to engage us, and we certainly did not plan it.  Clearly one can see countless examples of this influential dynamic in our lives.  Weaving its imprint on those at the wake of discovery within the advancements of science can be demonstrated by Issac Newton’s quote …”If I have seen further it is by standing on the shoulders of giants”.  The case for how artistic expression stimulates and perpetuates newer forms can be demonstrated by Bob Dylan’s influence on a generation.  He was influenced by Woodie Guthrie, and Dylan in turn influenced everyone from The Beatles to Jimi Hendrix. The same principle applies to the many other pursuits within the conduct of human expression.

Why there is so much diversity in the world, why there are so many different perspectives gives us some sign that we all form different types of connections to these defining moments that we want to align ourselves with.  The emotional connection to these events that forever changes our lives can lead us to completely different outcomes.  On one hand they can transform our lives into something that we will build upon and cherish for years to come, (a relationship with someone, a passion for a creative pursuit, a pleasurable pastime we enjoy, or another bonding relationship we can experience such as devotion and religion).  On the other hand it can lead us into a very dark realm of existence such as an emotional, and physical connection to some addiction, cult, or false prophet.

Some of my strongest connections originate from these awakened passions and desires.  Something resonated deep inside of me and I wanted to be part of these newly discovered feelings or ideas.  Either inspired by something or someone, I used whatever was in my power to get from point A to point B even if I didn’t know really where to start or how to get there.  Even when it meant that I was unsure of just where point A and point B really were in the first place, I effectuated this connection with determination! It may be that the awakening that is experienced is very subtle or its occurrence may be very intense depending on the circumstances met.  It may slowly transform us over time, or it may suddenly come into focus defining itself through a series of experiences that we progressively clutch and embrace.  However this mechanism manifests or however this animating principle becomes active, it seems clear that our belief systems, and our emotional attachments are crucial in their actualization.  The emotional connectivity to the animating forces behind our enthusiasm may truly be the glue that binds us to these desires.

I can certainly say that this was not the case for many occasional interests because I simply failed to follow through on them and develop them.  We can stifle many interests if we limit ourselves, if our insecurities creep in, or if others do not give us needed support or encouragement at times when maybe if that consolation was given at the right time, it could have changed the course of events within us.  I think that children have tremendous amounts of opportunities since their minds are not biased, since they have not yet learned the defeating attitudes we as adults often struggle with, and with proper encouragement they could become extraordinary people with cultivated dynamic skills if directed o do so at the right age.

Understanding the relationship of this phenomenon allows me to use this learning to better clarify worthy pursuits.  What leads me to ask these questions, I can only surmise.  These questions direct me to explore my fascination with my wish to better appreciate the world as I experience it.  I am my own person but influenced by many. The pragmatist within me speaks to make the unknown rational. The mystic within me seeks to make the unknown tangible.  The philosopher within me solicits the perplexity of the unknown; hence making the esoteric….exoteric!

 

 

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Resolution of Happiness

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Can you recall a time in your life that you woke up and decided to fundamentally change a direction in your life in some way?  Was it from a dream, a real experience, or was it after several experiences that so affected you that you finally awakened and told yourself no more!  Did something within you “click”, and you were able to see things from a different perspective, and that maybe you now needed something different or something more than what you were getting?  Was it a friend that gave you some feedback, was it at some social function that created a dissonance between what others thought and what you yourself thought that seeded an idea that there was something you wanted to do differently, thus started you on a journey for looking at things differently and changing your current orientation?  Commonly our observance of others’ ordeals often triggers something within us to make sure that we do not travel down a similar path or conversely they show us a way that we would like to emulate.

I know that many might use examples often found within their own families growing up that might make them think differently with having both positive and negative examples to draw from.  The lifetime built upon someone Else’s dreams can be a hard pill to swallow when they later reflect on their success of a notion that was not theirs in the first place.  I have seen many examples of parents indoctrinating their children with ideas of the direction they should take in their own lives without any consideration as to what the child themselves may wish to aspire to.  I think in contrast it is noble when parents inspire their children by way of example, unlike that of a prescribed directive spoon fed to them day in and day out.  This pontificating can lead to some serious issues as the children grow up with unrealized dreams of their own.  Those who do not break free from its grasp may lead lives fulfilling the dreams of their families, yet failing to meet the potentials originating from within them.

As Robert Frost wrote in The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I– I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. – See more at: http://www.poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15717#sthash.cfShtprA.dpuf

I do think that this has been misinterpreted as Frost himself has shed some light on his work in letters and correspondence to others.

The last lines “I took the one less traveled by / And that has made all the difference” are often cited as emblematic of America’s individualist spirit of adventure, in a reading that assumes they are to be taken literally. This is doubtful: whatever difference the choice might have made, it was not made by a discerned difference between the two paths that opened up before the traveler. The speaker admits in the second and third stanzas that both paths may be equally worn and equally leaf-covered, and it is only in his future recollection that he will call one of the two roads, the one he took, “less traveled by.”

The “sigh” can be interpreted as one of regret or of self-satisfaction; in either case, the irony lies in the distance between what the speaker has just told us about the roads’ similarity and what his or her later claims will be. Frost might also have intended a personal irony: in a 1925 letter to Crystine Yates of Dickson, Tennessee, asking about the sigh, Frost replied, “It was my rather private jest at the expense of those who might think I would yet live to be sorry for the way I had taken in life.”

When you do not have much of a support group, when others around you pay little attention to you, and you have questions on what would be a good direction for you to pursue, than you must primarily rely on your own resources and experience with the world, thus, trial and error may play a large part in your decision-making.  Your talents and opportunities are predicated on what you have developed, what you have chosen to concentrate on which is also a starting point, but my focus is on those particular areas that you have not quite figured out for yourself, those areas that you do not have much experience in, or that what you once thought of as a sound path, has now been altered by a new perspective.

I can certainly remember times that struck a chord within me to change my aspect.  I think that maybe at times the persuasive forces that refocused my energies to gravitate towards these redefined goals because of my observations, or because of the feedback that others had given me was a metaphorical crossroad materializing before me.  I learned in part by the trial and error experiences in the social realms, an area I still have not even closely mastered to this day.  By that I mean that there are many situations that still elude me, as I continue to meet people who never stop surprising me with their behavior.

The question that keeps coming back to me is the kind of impression that is left upon me?  The deeper the impression of an event in your life, the more attention you give to it.  I like the song by INXS Don’t Change as it reminds me of a fresh start when pursuing new venues.  Our paths we choose are up to us.  The power of choice is within us.  What’s yours?

I’m standing here on the ground
The sky above won’t fall down
See no evil in all direction
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark
For too long

Don’t change for you
Don’t change a thing for me

I found a love I had lost
It was gone for too long
Hear no evil in all directions
Execution of bitterness
Message received loud and clear

Don’t change for you
Don’t change a thing for me

I’m standing here on the ground
The sky above won’t fall down
See no evil in all directions
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark for too long

Don’t change for you
Don’t change a thing for me