I self sabotage

When I have guilt

When I have shame

I self sabotage

That’s who I blame

I don’t feel worthy

I don’t feel sane

I self sabotage

That’s where I put my blame

Guilt is from choices I’ve made

Shame is from identifying with inadequacy

My father used to put me down

He put me down so masterfully

Abandonment issues

Little self-esteem

The child inside me

Has a diminishing dream

You see I’ve had difficulty in relationships

I had a difficult childhood

And with my low self-esteem

My cognitive dissonance stood

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At least I gave it a shot 

When the mind is weary

It can become overwhelmed and confused

One must then use a counter balance

Before one can defuse

There is nothing wrong with confusion

If it forces you to think

Consider all sides

And be distinct

Sound mind and sound body

Common sense can balance the equation

Activate your intelligence

And confront the mind-virus invasion

Some of our problems take time to work through

Patience, reflection, and persistence

Is the prescription

In times of unsolved resistance

The Tao resolves conflict with Wei wu Wei

Zen resolves conflict; human suffering as attachment

Hence you cannot grasp and cling to your breath

One must always exhale for detachment

On the other hand

The Confucian is the pragmatist

Resolution is common sense

No need for the iron fist

The American surfer knows

How to escape a riptide

Surrender to the water current

And not to their own pride

The will imposes maladaptive behaviors

And maladaptive thought

When we fail, we say

“At least I gave it a shot”

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We accept the love we think we deserve

Sometimes we must wrestle with ourselves

Sometimes we must wrestle with God

Sometimes it comes naturally

Sometimes we must poke and prod

In self-sabotage

We resign

Closing The doors of opportunity

We may otherwise possibly find

There Is drama in our relationships

There Is heartache and there is pain

With too much repetition

Resolution Is In vain

Learned helplessness

A very real thing

If beholden to this cycle

No happiness we can bring

You can build a wall around you

Numb your senses from the pain

Push away any future entanglements

You think maybe this will keep you sane

The breakthrough will come

When our most inner needs are met

There may be some risk

There may be some regret

The gift of forgiveness

We allow our soul to heal

Patience and courage are required

To allow ourselves to truly feel

We except the love

We think we deserve

Trust is king

I n the world we observe

The power of love and friendship

Those who care will easily see

The struggle that goes on inside you

From the person you secretly yearn to be

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The instant karma we now re-acquaint 

It’s been four months since my last post

I’ve struggled with my sight but not with my vision

This inner sanctum I dwell with my thoughts

Only now a more reflective provision

I ponder and think deep 

About what I truly find real

When something is taken away

You care more about how you feel

Experience begets empathy

Wisdom comes with self-restraint

The folly of our misgivings

The instant karma we now re-acquaint

Life has many gifts

Take heart and seize the day

Love deeply and serve others

Take heed before it all goes away

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Which will be the albatross?

Life is too precious

For us to throw away

Yet many of us suffer

When we contemplate suicide by the end of the day

Even the moon

Will shine at night

In the dark shadow of emotion and reason

As darkness is the absence of light

How do we procure

A well balanced soul?

How do we parent?

How do we console?

We must cultivate character

Establish a code of morality

Learn how to forgive ourselves and others

To keep our sanity

The weight of the world is upon you

Tension and pressure will build inside

Are you motivated to take positive action?

Are you relegated to ignore and hide?

Life provides us with challenges

Sloth and apathy a tradition of loss

Which will change a circumstance?

Which will be the albatross?

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When expectation and reality collide

When expectation

And reality collide

What do you get?

What do you hide?

Contingent on your belief

Contingent on your assessment

Are you at risk?

Do you have an emotional investment?

Now what do you do?

Egg on your face?

Make an excuse?

Another time, another place?

Does it really surprise you?

How good can you get?

We are just human

Or did you forget?

The arrogance of ego

Will make its play

A priori ?

What do you say?

DCG

Water on tap

Water on tap

Both hot and cold

Turn only the left

It may just scold

In this way

The water flows like the mind

Some thoughts are brutal

Some thoughts are kind

We decide our diet

We decide what we consume

We decide what we bury

We decide what we exhume

A tortured mind

Or a Zen / Taoist Master

Practice peace

Or practice disaster

Most don’t need a therapist

Most don’t need a priest

Maybe just by observation

They can achieve peace

Through meditation or deep contemplation

Maybe a WikiPsalm?

A desire to connect to a source

The hope to liberate us from the qualm

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Sometimes We Boycott our Feelings

The real motivation behind the attraction

Underneath the thinking is the feeling

Uncover the justification

Promote the healing

Here I stand head in hand

Turn my face to the wall

Lennon’s hide your love away

Feeling two foot small

Ask the question

What comes first?

Some theories of emotion posit feeling before cognition

James-Lange, Cannon-Bard, but the Schachter-Singer two factor theory seems well versed

Any way you cut it

Deep forces arise within

Shaping our behaviors

This is how bonding memories begin

Sometimes we know the exact reasons

Sometimes we do not

Sometimes we boycott our feelings

That often precede the thought

Best to be open and honest

Childhood memories are indeed strong

If you cannot identify the core feelings

Turns out you may get it all wrong

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Be You of Conscious Mind

The moment before

You drift off to sleep

A memory comes to you

One that is buried deep

Memories often populate

And integrate with your dreams

Leaving with you a communiqué

To unravel the schemes

The mind has a way

To process the unrest

Perpetuating those feelings

You may have suppressed

A subconscious attempt

To resolve any dissonance

A conscious mindfulness

The conscription of imminence

Be you of conscious mind

Be you one to search your soul

I present to you

Our cognitive tool for quality control

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Words of Wisdom 3

Exhilaration is that feeling you get just after a great idea hits you, and just before you realize what’s wrong with it.

-Unknown-

The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides.

-Henri Fredric Amiel-

It is not doing the thing we like to do, but liking the thing we have to do, that makes life blessed.

-Goethe-

Nothing worse could happen to one than to be completely understood.

-Carl Jung-

If the only tool you have is a hammer, you tend to see every problem as a nail.

-Abraham Maslow-

Great ideas need landing gear as well as wings.

-C.D. Jackson-

I believe that genius is an infinite capacity for taking life by the scruff on the neck.

-Christopher Quill-

If you’re never scared or embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take any chances.

-Julia Sorel-

You can’t turn back the clock. But you can wind it up again.

-Bonnie Prudden-

Originality is the art of concealing your source.

-Franklin P. Jones-

In matters of principle, stand like a rock, in matters of taste swim with the current.

-Thomas Jefferson-

Success is a journey, not a destination.

-Ben Sweetland-

To live alone, one must be either an animal or a god.

-Aristotle-

If the doors of perception were cleansed, man would see everything as it is, infinite.

-William Blake-

The moon is but a circumambulating aphrodisiac divinely subsidized to provoke the world into a rising birth rate.

-Christopher Fry-

Study is like the heaven’s glorious sun that will not be deep-searched with saucy looks.

-William Shakespeare-

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.

-Sören Kierkegaard-

If while certain forms of self-disclosure can be a risky proposition because the reactions of others are not predictable, then living a double life can also be quite stressful since it prevents a person from achieving congruence between the public and the private self.

-De Monte Flores-Schultz-

I know you believe you understand what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.

-Unknown-

I see the world through the lens thyself, so the world is smeared if thy lens is dirty.

-Unknown-